Description: There was no question that she loved him. The problem was, she didn't have a clue what to do.
AN: Time for another diary entry, methinks. 😃 Hope you enjoy the chapter! Sorry for the utter lack of updates lately but I'm really busy with college 😑.
Dear Diary,
It's funny how I know instinctively that I love him, yet I don't know what to do about my feelings. It sounds so straightforward in my mind- all I'd have to do was just go up to him and tell him how I feel. I thought it would be easy but every time I tried, I failed.
I just can't understand why I can't admit it. There's absolutely no doubt in my mind that I love him. So why can't I say it? Will I ever be able to?
If I have any hope of happiness in my future, I have to gather every ounce of courage I possess and tell him. There's no question in my heart that I feel we belong together, that I'll never love another as long as I live.
The days kept on going by, though, and my courage wavers like a flickering candle flame. Each and every time I thought I would be able to tell him, the words kept slipping away from me before I could say them.
I keep on wondering. Should I question my absolute belief that we have a connection or should I hold on to the hope that when I do tell him, I'll finally get my "happily ever after." Sure, they only exist in fairy tales, I know that. The point is, my happily ever after will only happen when I know how he feels about me.
There's nothing for me to do except wait. Wait for my life to be changed in the best or worst way. It's maddening, but it's all I can do. I can't force him into loving me, after all. What the future may bring, I do not know, but what I do know is that my love for Lucas Wanson cannot be questioned.
There's no question about it - I love him. The only question in my mind is: does he feel the same?
Gina.