Description: He was, undoubtedly, the sweetest boy she had ever encountered. All she wanted now was for him to be hers.
Dear diary,
Why must I act this way every time I see him? Why does my heart seem to beat a million times a minute whenever he looks my way? I'll tell you why...
It's because I love him.
Okay, okay, let me explain. I may be twelve and still have my life to live, but I know this love is real. He is the most charismatic boy I've ever met and he is always kind to everyone.
Oh, Lucas - what would it take for him to notice me? Jessica told me once that I should just try being myself- according to her, guys like you better when you're not putting on an act.
Unfortunately, every time I get close to him, everything I have planned to say to him is forgotten in an instant and I am reduced to an incoherent mess. So, when I attempt to look cool in front of him, it always ends up failing somehow.
The days keep going by and I still cannot say more than two words to him without blushing or stumbling over my words. It's as though my brain cannot function when he is nearby. The second I catch sight of him, that's it - I'm gone.
People give me pitying looks and tell me to give up. They tell me he'll never notice me. I don't listen to them - I listen only to my heart, knowing that it beats only for him. If necessary, I would wait until I was an old woman for him. It would be so easy to give up but love isn't something you give up on. It's something that should last forever.
The weeks go by and still I hold on to the hope that one day my dream will come true. But the prospect seems bleaker every day like storm clouds across a bright, blue sky. My hope is flickering like a candle flame. What can I do? A love that isn't noticed is a love that causes a lot of pain. It hurts to see him laughing and know that it's not me making him so happy. What hurts the most is the fact that I cannot gather the courage to tell him.
The months pass. When I eventually swallow my fear of rejection and tell him that I love him undoubtedly, I wish with all my heart that he will take me in his arms and tell me he loves me too.
Because, without a doubt, Lucas Wanson is the only one I will ever love. And my only desire is for my love to be returned.
Gina