Chapter 5- Heartbreak
There's a moment in time
And it's stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids
Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won't bloom
Winter's kept you
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away
Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did
Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends
Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won't bloom
Winter's kept you
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away
Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I'm so sorry now
I didn't know
Cause we were so young
Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away
Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won't bloom
Winter's kept you
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away
Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away
It never goes away
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away...
The song faded out from the speakers on my dock. Its been a 3 days since the party. After Tommy left that night, it finally hit what happened. I was almost rapped. Mostly molested...Thats a really scary thought. Charlie hadn't let me go to school, and todays Wednesday. Tommy has been stopping by every day to check up on me, as well as everyone else, but I've been on, like, auto-pilot. I was almost stolen of my innocence.
I still didn't tell anyone what else happened before the party, well thats not true. I told Edward when I broke down. I got a phone call from my mother. How she got my cell number is beyond me. But she did... and she knows I'm in New York. I didn't even get a word in. I was shocked.
Oh and to top it of. I still haven't told Emmett or Charlie why the real reason I came to live with them. I don't have it in me. I know Emmett loves Renee, and I don't want to ruin it. Edward told me I should tell them soon when I told him. I'm just not sure how. Oh. Hey Emmett! Guess what? I was abused for most of my life! Doesn't my life sound so dandy? Yeah thats what I thought.
So here I am. Laying in my bed, blinds closed, lights off. The music is blasting. I've been hurting myself more often then usual. I had stopped since I moved here but when this happened, it started up again.
What time is it? I look over to the clock thats hanging on the wall. 1:45. Emmett should be home soon... and I'm going to tell him whats going on. Hes probably not going to believe me, since most of the bruises are long gone. All thats left is scars and horrible memories.
A half hour later I heard cars pull up to our round driveway. I sighed. I was hoping that it was just Emmett coming home, but of course I dont get my way.
"Belly?" I heard a soft knock. It was Emmett. "Can I come in?" I turned down the music off.
"Yeah." I sighed and sat up against my head board. He came in and shut the door behind him.
"How are you feeling today?" he came and sat down next to me, copying my position on my bed. I hate when people say 'how are you feeling?'. Well look at me. Do I look like I'm all sunshine and fucking rainbows? no. I don't.
"Fine." I sighed. I looked over to him. "But I need to tell you something. I don't know how you'll react to the news I'm going to share with you." I sighed and looked down at my lap
"What is Bella?" his voice was dripping with concern
"Promise me you won't be mad at me. I know I should have told you sooner, like when I got here, but I really didn't know how. So now I'm going to just say it." I looked back up at him with tears in my eyes "Em. I've been abused."
"What?! Who?! I'LL KILL THEM!" he grabbed my shoulders "Who hurt you Bella? I'll make them pay"
"Mom." I let out a sob. Tears were freely flowing down my cheeks. Emmett looked livid. I lifted up my shirt to show him the scars. He gasped and pulled me into him. He was mumbling things to himself. I picked up "You should have never left us" or "Were going to fix this". I told him that I got a phone call the day of the party, and that she knows I'm here.
"You will never see her again. No one is ever going to hurt you, ever again. I promise." he hissed. He continued to let me cry on his shoulder.
A half hour later Alice was in my room with tears in her eyes. I had to tell her and the rest of the gang was downstairs with Emmett as he told Charlie whats happened. Since I had told Edward already he was upstairs with me and Alice.
I guess Emmett was done telling Charlie because Rosalie came rushing into my room, nearly busting the door off its hinges. She had tears streaming down her cheeks. She ran and flung herself on my bed hugging me tightly. Whispering "I'm so sorry." over and over again. I've never felt so loved or wanted in my life.
Soon after the rest of my friends came in. Tommy was first, he had a frown on when he pulled me into a hug and kissed my cheek. I felt my face get hot and I smiled. He pulled back a little and took my face in his hands and wiped the tear stains on my cheeks. He smiled down a me.
"Ok, you've been cooped up her for long enough Bella, I think we should go to my house." Alice spoke up. I rolled my eyes and nodded.
"I just need to get ready, ill meet you guys there." I said walking into my bathroom to shower.
After I was done with my shower I wrapped a towel around me and walked out into my room. I almost screamed when I saw that Tommy was still here. He looked amused that he scared me.
"Sorry, didn't me to startle you. But. Er. I needed a ride, not enough room in Emmett's car and Edward was going to pick up Tanya." he smiled sheepishly.
"Yeah thats fine." I remembered what I was wearing an blushed a deep crimson. "Oh god!" I ran into my closet and shut the door. I heard Tommy laughing. "Oh shut the hell up!" I screamed through the door.
I quickly got changed into a white tank-top and ripped skinny jeans. I looked down at the cuts on my wrist and sighed. I threw on a light gray cardigan. I looked for shoes that would match. I spotted a pair of white low-top converse. Perfect.
I walked out all ready and smiled at Tommy. I went to grab my necklace that Tommy got me on my dresser. I put it on and grabbed my black Channel bag.
"You look great Bella." he smiled. He walked up to my and kissed my forehead. I blushed and looked down.
"Thanks." I mumbled. "Lets hit the road." I took his hand in mine and walked downstairs. I saw that Charlie was still home and I told him where we were leaving.
"Oh! Wait Bells! Don't wait up for me. I have a date tonight with the woman I'm seeing. Tell Em."
"Ok. Wait. Since when do you have a girlfriend?" I asked shocked,
"Uhm....Er... I ment to tell you and Em but I guess it slipped my mind? I've been seeing her since the beginning of summer." he seemed embarrassed. "You have to meet her. You and Emmett will love her. And be safe."
"Well we're already late. See you later dad." I quickly hit the button to open the garage and climbed into my Audi. Tommy soon got into the passenger seat. "Thats so weird. Charlie with a girlfriend. Who would have thought."
"What? Hes a young guy, why can't he be happy?" Tommy asked
"No, no. I want him to be happy. Just caught be by surprise I guess."
I started the car and backed out of the garage slowly and hit the gas when we were on the drive way.
Once we got to the Cullen house we were greeted by Esme, Edward and Alice's mom, and there dad Carlisle. (Picture in Profile) They were probably the most kind hearted people I've met. Esme had a lighter shade of Edwards hair color, it was a sweet caramel, and she had a light blue color eyes with speckles of green. Carlisle had blond hair, with a dark color blue.
"Bella! Its great to see you again, dear." Esme pulled me into a hug. Then pulled Tommy into one as well. She was like the second mother to everyone.
"Where is everyone?" Tommy asked.
"In the movie room, upstairs." Carlisle said.
The Cullen's had a expensive movie room. The had a retractile screen, and had 6 rows of comfy chairs. There movie collection is awesome also. Name any movie. They have it. I think Esme's sister is a famous actress or something, so they get movies for free.
"Finally you're here!" Alice screamed from the wall of DVD's on the other side of the room when we entered the room. "What took you do long?!"
"I told you I had to get ready. And you should know beauty is pain." I said sarcastically. Beauty is a pain in the ass, thats what it is. Emmett laughed loudly from the second row.
"Ok so what movie are we watching tonight?" James asked
"Fight Club!" Emmett boomed
"Never Back Down. The blond guy in the movie is hot." Angela said (Blond guy in there is Cam, James in Twilight hahaha.)
"I don't care what we watch." I said taking Tommy's hand and walking to the third row of seats. Jasper picked out Never Back Down, since all the girls agreed, and since it was fighting crap, the guys were happy.
"Oh my god! James is that you?!" Rose screamed pointing to the blond guy on the screen.
"No... he looks nothing like me."
"Holy shit! Yes it does!" Alice squealed from next to me. I looked around to find no Edward. I leaned over to whisper to Alice.
"Wheres Edward?" I asked
"He was going to pick up Tanya from her house. He should be home soon." I nodded and continued to watch the move. A few minutes later I heard tires screech to a halt and the front doors slamming. Not good. I thought. I looked to the door to see Edward stomping passes it. I looked back at Alice and she had a worried look on her face.
"I'll Be right back." I said to Tommy who nodded
I walked out of the room and climbed the stairs to Edwards room. His music was blasting. I recognized the song. Taking Back Sunday's Liar (It Takes One to Know One). I knocked on the door and waited. The music was turned down and Edward opened the door. He looked surprised that it was me. He opened the door more for me to come in. I sat down on his couch and he sat across from me on his bed.
"Whats the matter?" I said quietly. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"Tanya cheated on me," he said. I gasped "With that vile Mike Newton." he hissed "I now have two reasons to beat the fuck out of him." he sighed. He opened his eyes and he had tears in his eyes "you know what the sad part is? I thought I loved her." THAT SLUT! I stood up and pulled him up into a hug.
"I'm so sorry Edward." I whispered. He tightened his arms around me and dropped his head onto my shoulder, his forehead pressed against my neck. I pulled him onto the couch and let him cry on my shoulder like her let me do so many times. I ran my fingers threw his hair to calm him down.
I don't know how long we stayed in that position, but I do know that Edward fell asleep with his head in my lap and arms around me. Hes never the one to break down like this. I kept running my hands threw his wild copper hair, he usually likes that, and hummed a song. He looked so peaceful and carefree when he sleeps. He had a small smile on his lips.
I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I slowly, trying not to disturb Edward. It was from Alice asking me where I was. (Bella, Alice)
Bella
Where are you?! Are you with Edward?
Alice
Alice
Yeah I'm with him. Total break down. Tanya and him are no more.
He fell asleep and I don't want to leave him.
Bella
Bella
What?! What happened to him and Tanya?!
Alice
Alice
Tanya cheated on him with Fig Newton. He walked in.
I'll talk to you later Al. Edward needs me. And tell Em not to wait up.
Bella
A few hours passes and it was around 11 o'clock when Edward started to wake. Everybody had left by now. I pushed the hair out of hit eyes. A crooked smile appeared on his face. When he open his eyes they were still bloodshot from crying.
"Feeling better?" I smiled down at him.
"You didn't have to stay Bells." his voice was thick with sleep.
"Don't be stupid. I wanted to stay, and plus I didn't want you to wake up alone." I smiled down at him.
"How long have I been out?" I yawned and looked at the clock on hid IO box.
"7 hours or more. You still tired? You look it."
"Yeah I am, and judging by that yawn, so are you." he smirked. I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah I am a little bit, but more hungry."
"Lets get some food. Then go to bed?" I nodded. We usually had our sleep overs after someone falls asleep.
After pigging out on some left overs Esme made that night we walked back up to his room. He grabbed out a pair of sweats from his dresser for me to sleep in. I walked into his bathroom and changed. I kept on my tank-top and put on his sweats. I opened the door for Edward to brush his teeth. Since I sleep here a lot I have my own tooth brush. After we were both ready I climbed in bed.
"Night Edward." I whispered
"Night Bells." he whispered back. I soon fell asleep next to Edward.
Yay another chapter! Sorry for the long wait again. I've been busy I guess.
But I hope this makes up for my behavior. I promise that the story will get better!
Some things I hope will catch you by surprise:)
As for the song in the beginning is called "Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?" by The Offspring
Oh and I know that I said someone was coming in the next chapter in my A/N but I meant coming soon.
Uhhhmm thats about it. Well that I can think of. Please Review! I mean it! I love them, really I do.
Fangs Up Baby
~Brittamy