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Playlist: Dig by Incubus and Unholy Confessions by Avenged Sevenfold

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Being able to run at full speed was a great feeling. I'm faster than most vampires and it's hard to find places around Portland where I was able to run for more than a few minutes without getting too close to people. There was plenty of forest to keep me adequately sheltered from human eyes around Forks, not that they would be able to tell what I was. They would only see a blur, if they were lucky enough to even get that much. There was a slight drizzle coming down but as soon as I got close to the meadow it disappeared. Memories of this place could never do it justice. Why is it that the sun always shines here? I laid down in the long grass and stared up at the sun. I could see the diamond like sparkles of my skin reflecting around me, beautifully disgusting. Everything in my life now was like a double edged sword, I was fast but that was just so I could catch my prey, I was beautiful but that was just so I could attract my prey, my senses were heightened but that was just so I could find my prey. Everything that was now better about me was just that way so I could murder more efficiently. I suppose now I know some of the reasons behind Edward's constant self-loathing. Oh great, here I go again. Enough, Bella, get it together.

I stood up and wiped off the blades of grass that had stuck to my jeans. Just because I was a vampire didn't mean that grass stains came out any easier. A dozen or so birds flew out of the woods by the south end of the meadow, I turned to see what had startled them and I saw a huge wolf lunging at me. I ducked to my right just as the wolf's teeth entered the space that I had just occupied not a moment earlier.

"Jake, what the hell?" You're stupid, Bella. So damn stupid. Why would you think that he would care about you any more than he cares about any other vampire? You aren't any better than the rest of them and he knows that as well as you do.

Jake turned and faced me with his teeth bared. I nearly hissed but I controlled my instinct. Jake may hate me but I still love him. He sniffed up in the air and stopped growling. His eyes were scanning the woods around the meadow looking for something. Oh crap was the whole pack after me? I don't want to hurt anyone.

I didn't know whether I should talk or not but I began anyway. "Look, Jake. I don't want to hurt you or anyone else. I'm sorry I should've told you about what happened to me I just didn't want you to hate me. I understand that you don't really have a choice in the matter, don't worry I'll go. I still love you though, even if you hate me and what I am." Then end came out as a whisper. I was sure that if I could cry I would be.

Jake looked at me with pain in his eyes and shook his head. He turned and ran back into the woods.

Usually I would swear at myself in my head but I felt the need to scream. "Way to go Bella." Now dry sobs were coming out between words, "way to go and make everyone so disgusted with you that they end up hating you and leaving. First him and now your best friend. You're an idiot!"

"I don't hate you and don't you dare put me in the same category as that bloodsucker."

I turned around to see Jacob, half naked and in human form walking out of the woods he had just ran into. He was walking very cautiously slow and his hands were shaking. There was no doubt that he was so mad it was hard to keep from phasing, the littlest thing could set him off now.

"Jake you came back!" I reached out my arms for him and wanted to run to him but I knew enough to keep my distance.

It looked like he was happy to know that it was still me under all this stone like skin but he was still clearly upset. "What the hell did that bloodsucker do to you, Bella? Why didn't you tell me about this?"

Well, here goes nothing. "He didn't change me, Jake. I haven't seen him since, you know when. I couldn't just tell you this over the phone. I didn't know if you would ever talk to me again so I wanted to at least be able to see you one last time. I couldn't come up until I was absolutely sure that Charlie would be in no harm." The expression on his face changed about a dozen times over the span of the few sentences that I spoke but he was slowly making his way closer to me. He stopped about 2 feet away, he smelt weird, almost like wet dog but I was glad he trusted me enough to be so close. Then I felt like crap because he really shouldn't trust me enough to be so close.

I didn't know what to say so I just stood there staring at him while he studied all of my features. After a few minutes he finally spoke. "You have a lot of explaining to do, Bells. You're able to be around me without going crazy so you aren't one of those newborns or whatever and your eyes aren't red so you don't kill humans, but your eyes aren't like the Cullen's. So does gray mean that you only eat fish or something?" He gave a big cheesy grin when he said the last part.

I couldn't help myself I leaped and grabbed him in a hug and to my surprise he didn't flinch. He was the same Jake and he didn't care what I was. I buried my head into his chest just like I always did. It felt right, like I was meant to be there. He was ridiculously hot and I probably felt ice cold to him but I didn't mind. Feeling him shiver from my touch was better than a human shivering from it. Jake knew what it was like to be different from everyone else; we were both fucked up in our own way. "Jake I'm so glad you don't hate me. I've missed you so much and I was so worried that you wouldn't want to see me again." I started to ramble on and on but he put his hot finger up to my cold lips and made a hushing noise.

"Bella, it's ok. Well, it's not okay, actually. I can't believe that this happened to you but I promised you we would be friends no matter what. Just because you are what you are doesn't mean anything. You're still my Bella and I'll always be your Jacob. Now you're just my Bella that smells bad."

I pulled away from him and stuck my tongue out. "You don't smell so great yourself, pal." I joked and crinkled my nose. He half smiled at me.

"I'm glad you're back, Bella. Don't ever leave like that again. I've been worried sick for a year and a half. Do you know how many situations I have imagined you being in? When you first left I thought that redhead got you and then I thought that maybe he came back and you went away with him, never to be seen again. So I called Charlie at least once a week for the past year and a half and luckily he always said that he has spoken to you directly. So I knew that you were alive or, well not a live but that at least the bloodsucker hadn't killed you." The look on his face told me that he was in a lot of pain the whole time I was gone.

"If you hadn't talked to Charlie so much I swear I would've tracked you down. Then you called me and I was so happy and when I got here I saw a vampire and I didn't know it was you. I was worried for your safety so I wanted to kill it before you got here, after I lunged and you moved out of the way I caught a whiff of your scent. Then you turned around and I almost had a heart attack. I thought 'he changed her, that filthy bloodsucker killed her' and I couldn't help but growl. Then I was searching the woods for him but I didn't see any traces of anyone else and you started talking. I knew then that it was you, my Bella and not some blood thirsty leech. You looked so sad, so tormented and you said that you loved me even though you thought I hated you. I had to phase back in order to be able to talk to you and let you know that you were crazy. I could never hate you, Bella."

I sunk my head back into his chest. "Oh, Jake. You're the best friend anyone could ever have. I'm so sorry."

He just patted my head and tried to sooth me. "Shh. It's okay now. You're back and that is what matters." He lifted my head up and looked deep into my eyes before speaking again. "Okay now it's up to you where you want to start the story but I need to know everything."

I laid down on the grass and motioned for him to do the same. Once he was lying down I positioned myself so that my head was on top of his chest. The steady rising and falling of his chest was so comforting and he stroked my hair, calming me even more. I pondered for a second on exactly how and where to start. Then I decided that he really did need to know everything and I wasn't going to hold back.

"Well the story is long and it starts with when they left but you know that part so I'll continue with graduation…"