I originally wrote this chapter as Bella having a conversation with Jacob about what she's been doing the past year but it wasn't detailed enough so I decided to write it from her point of view as she experienced it. Like in a movie when someone is having a conversation about what the past and you see the past instead of seeing them explain it. I'll probably break it up into a few chapters because it will get long. Oh and by the way this will not be a Bella and Jacob love story, they are just best friends.

Playlist: Unwell by Matchbox 20 and The Taste of Ink by The Used

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Graduation was over, high school was over. This was the happiest day I had since they left. Charlie and I went out to eat and we actually had a decent time. Being done with the hell that was high school made me happy enough that I almost acted normal, almost. Renee couldn't make it because Phil was in the hospital having surgery and needed her help. I was actually glad she couldn't make it, her never ending questions were sure to put me right back in my state of depression. She said was coming in 2 days though once Phil was a little better and staying for a week. I secretly hoped that something would go wrong and she would have to stay in Florida. Shame on me, oh well.

Charlie and I got back from dinner and there was an envelope taped to the door. On the front my name was written in perfect handwriting. There were only a handful of creatures on Earth that could use a pen and make it look so flawless that you could have sworn a computer printed it. I slowly opened the envelope and took out a folded piece of paper that said…

Bella, we are so proud of you. You will do great at Portland State as well as in life. Follow your dreams, live a full life.

My eyes grew wide and started to tear up. I spun around and looked out into the trees, wondering if they were watching. They came, they were here and they didn't even come to see me? They left me a note? It wasn't in his handwriting but it was one of theirs, I knew that for a fact. Why would they do this if they weren't going to even speak to me? Did they like torturing me? Tears started pouring down my face; I turned, ran into the house and up the stairs to my room. I laid on my bed and screamed into my pillow while my salty tears soaked it.

Charlie knocked on my door about 10 minutes later and just walked in when I didn't respond.

"Bells, are you ok? I read the note, I hope you don't mind but I wanted to know what made you snap, you seemed so happy earlier. It's from them isn't it, the Cullens?"

I jerked my head up at the name, looked over at Charlie with my blurred vision and nodded my head before returning it to the depths of my wet pillow.

"Crap, well I don't get why they would do that. I guess they don't really know what you've been going through but still. I'm sorry, Bells."

He finally left my room a few minutes later when he realized that I wasn't going to talk. I rolled over onto my back and stared up at the ceiling. I could hear Charlie downstairs on the phone talking to Billy. He was asking if Jake could come up, he couldn't. Jake and the pack were out chasing Victoria and wouldn't be back for a few days, I knew that. I was alone; the only person that knew what I was going through was off being a werewolf and chasing the evil bitch vampire that wanted to kill me.

I laid in bed that night and all through the next day, only getting up to go to the bathroom. I couldn't eat or sleep, I could only lay there and let my mind paralyze me with my memories. They came. They were in Forks. I wonder if he was here. Why wouldn't they at least say hi? How could they just leave me a note? Follow my dreams? Live a full life? What kind of sick joke do they think they are playing to tell me to live a full life? Vampires really have some nerve. Don't they get that I don't have a life anymore; they took it with them when they left. Stupid immortals telling me to live a full life, like they would even know what the hell that is. UGH!

I woke up the next day to Charlie knocking on my door saying that I had to leave to pick up Renee from the Airport in an hour. I lazily slid myself off of the bed, made my way to the bathroom and took a shower. I got out and examined my face in the mirror. My eyes were puffy from crying and my lip was swollen and red from my tendency to bite it mindlessly while Edward infiltrated my thoughts. Great, Bella, you look like you've been beaten. Like Renee wasn't going to have enough questions for you.

I got dressed and ran out to my truck. It took a couple tries for it to start. I was starting to think that it was on its way out. I drove off down the street crossing my fingers and praying that the old thing wouldn't sputter to its death today. Luckily, my truck still had some life in it and was able to make it to the airport. I parked and made my way inside. Oh lord. There was Renee…arguing with airport security. Perfect. I love my life.

I made my way over to my insane mother and grabbed her shoulder; she looked like she was going to punch someone. "Mom, what's wrong?"

She turned away from the brawny guy who she was yelling and hugged me. "Oh Bella, I've missed you so much."

"I missed you too Mom, now why are you yelling at them?" I looked up at the three huge security guards and immediately regretted letting them know that this was my parent. I'm sure she had been making quite a scene before I arrived.

"They…"She said turning back around and pointing at the guards, "lost my luggage and then they said I was making a scene and tried to kick me out without giving me my bags."

Oh man it's worse than I thought. "Mom, if they lost your luggage then they will call you when they find it. Come on lets go before they arrest you or something." I couldn't help but roll my eyes.

"Thank you ma'am." The big one said to me with a wink, making my face turn beet red. I grabbed Renee's arm and quickly led her to my truck before she could make another scene.

"Wow I think that big one liked you." She laughed, I cringed.

"Oh, gross Mom. Come on." He must not be very smart, he just saw what a mental case I descended from and he still wants to flirt. Wow.

"What? He was cute. Nice strong build, pretty blue eyes and brown hair. Very cute, even if he was a jerk."

"Mom, are you serious? How many times have you lost your luggage and how many times was it the airport's fault and not yours? I can't think of any. I'll call them later and have them take care of it." We hopped in my truck and I wished I had a car from this century. The ride back would be too long.

"Sometimes I don't know what I would do without you, Bella… Oh my! What happened to your face?"

Oh crap, I need to distract her. "It's nothing, mom. Do you mind if we stop by Angela's? She and Ben are leaving tomorrow to go backpacking through Europe for the summer. She called when I was on the way down and asked me to stop by so they can say bye."

"Of course sweetie. Now tell me about graduation…"

Renee spent the rest of the arduous trip asking question after question. I noted that she mostly stayed away from the topic of guys. Charlie must have warned her that I wasn't any better. I almost screeched in joy when I turned onto Angela's street. I love Renee and all but she really made me appreciate the lack of conversation between Charlie and me. Renee and I walked up to the door and I crossed my fingers that she wouldn't make me seem crazier than I already had acted the last few months. I loved Angela and Ben, they really stuck by me this year and I know I wasn't easy to deal with.

I rang the door bell; Angela answered and pulled me into a big hug.

"Hey, Angela, this is my mom, Renee." I said once enough air was back in my lungs.

"Hi, Angela, it's so nice to meet you. Bella has told me all about you. I'm really glad she has such a sweet friend like you." Thank God Renee gave a normal answer.

"It's nice to meet you too. Bella is a great friend, I'm so glad she and I got the chance to become close." Angela said with a smile.

We spent the next half hour talking to Angela and Ben about what they had planned for their trip. They both looked so happy when they talked about all the countries and sights they were going to see. I was really happy that they were able to get out of Forks and kind of jealous at the same time. I wish I had somewhere to go and someone to go with. I said my goodbyes to Angela and Ben and they promised to write, send post cards and call as soon as they got back. Once we were home Renee and Charlie tried to get me to go out to lunch with them, I told them I was tired but they should go out.

I laid in my bed and started thinking of what to do with my summer. For the past couple months I had been trying to think of things to do that would get my adrenaline going so I could hear that sweet, velvet voice. Much to my dismay his voice never appeared after the cliff diving incident. I never tried anything that stupid again though; Jake had made me promise that I wouldn't. I wasn't to throw myself off of or out of anything. So sky diving and base jumping were both off limits. It was hard to find activities in Forks that were exciting in anyway and then you add that they have to be pre-approved by my werewolf best friend and it was impossible. I thought of taking up fighting but I just laughed at myself. Right Bella, that would be the most pathetic thing ever. You running into the ring prepared to fight, slipping and knocking yourself out before the fight even started.

I went to my computer to shop for some books; I would need plenty of reading material to get me through this summer. After I settled on a few new releases that seemed promising I checked my e-mail. There were a few messages from Renee that I hadn't bothered to read for the last couple days and then there was one that looked like an advertisement but the subject like read: Wanna get away? Hell yeah I do. I clicked on the e-mail and saw that it was an advertisement for and airline offering discount rates. Then, ding! A light bulb went off in my head. I grabbed my keys, hopped in my truck and took off towards Port Angeles while, once again, crossing my fingers that my truck didn't die.

My mind was spinning the whole way there. Where will I go? How long will I stay? Who will I take? Every once in a while I was glad that I had this constant empty feeling, apathy made it a lot easier to not care that I had no plan. Going with the flow had never been an attribute of mine before. I made my way into town and parked in front of the small travel agency that I had never thought twice about going into before. I rushed in and noticed there was an older blonde woman sitting behind one of the three desks in the small room. She was reading a newspaper; they probably never had busy days here. She finally noticed me, put away her newspaper and motioned for me to sit down.

"Hello, dear" she began, "I'm Suzanne, what can I help you with?"

I instantly started to panic. What can she help me with exactly? "Hi, I'm Isabella Swan but you can just call me Bella, and um… I'm not exactly sure what you can help me with." I admitted.

She looked slightly confused but smiled politely. "Well, I'm guessing you came here because you want to go somewhere."

"Yeah, I want to go somewhere but I don't know all of the details. Well, I don't really know any of the details this is just a spur of the moment thing."

She looked at me like she understood that I needed to get away, I already liked this woman. "Ok dear, let's start with the basics; when do you want to leave, how long do you want to go for and where do you want to go."

"I want to leave now, or as soon as possible." I hesitated before answering the other questions. "I don't really know how long I want to be gone for or where I want to go. I was hoping that you could help me with that. How long do people usually go away for?" I mentally kicked myself for not planning this out before coming but I was almost sure that if I did I would have changed my mind and stayed in Forks.

"Well people go away for many different lengths of time. It depends on what responsibilities, like work or school that you have and what you can afford."

"Money and time aren't really a problem for me at all."

She looked at me, confused. The truth is that I was confused with myself. I was set to start school in the fall but I had the summer and money wasn't a problem anymore. On Christmas Eve I had received a letter addressed to me from a company in Seattle. The letter was typed and gave no indication who wrote it. It listed 5 companies that where currently being traded in the stock market. Next to each company was a date of when to buy stocks, how much to buy and when to sell them. I thought it was a joke until I looked back into the envelope and saw a check that it was made out to me from something called the United Olympic group in the sum of $250,000. I almost ripped it up, Charlie was a cop and this sort of thing was illegal. I tried to contact the company but they gave no information that would allow me to do that. I even googled the company but found nothing. I decided that whoever was stupid enough to send a teenager something like this deserved to be messed with. So I ended up investing it so I could prove them wrong and almost had a heart attack when I learned that I had actually made money and a lot of it. I didn't want or need to spend any of that money so it just sat in my account waiting for the day when I grew the balls to spend it. Balls? Wow Jake was really rubbing off on me.

Suzanne looked like she didn't know how to continue so I did. "I'm supposed to start college at PSU in the fall and I got a big inheritance from my grandma so money isn't an issue."

She wiped the confused look on her face and replaced it with a smile. "Oh, well that gives us something to work with then. A lot of college students take the summer to travel; many even take a year off between high school and college. So…"

"A year!" I cut her off, "A year sounds good."

"Alright then so we have a time frame so now we're on to where exactly you want to go. Do you want to travel all over or live in one place?"

"Um , how about live in one place and then travel around from there?"

"Ok , so you'd like to rent an apartment or house in which ever country you decide and then make arrangements to visit other places in that year?"

"Yeah, that sounds great." I was starting to get really excited.

"Ok now do you have any idea where you would like to live for the year?"

"I have no idea. I mean I know about a lot of different countries and stuff but I don't know where I should go."

Suzanne got from her desk and went towards the back room. I heard her rustle around and she came back out a minute later with a dart.

"Do you have a quarter, dear?" She asked. I dug through my pocket and handed her a beat up quarter.

"Ok," She continued, "how about 'heads' will be the northern hemisphere and 'tails' will be the southern?" I nodded and she flipped the coin up into the air. It landed on her desk with the 'heads' side up.

"Northern hemisphere it is." She said as she handed me the dart and pointed behind me. I turned around and saw that there were two huge maps on the wall, side by side and split by hemisphere. The northern hemisphere was on the right and the southern was on the left. Oh I see.

I walked over so that I was about 10 feet away from the map of the Northern hemisphere, closed my eyes and threw the dart. I opened my eyes and Suzanne was already in front of me looking at where I had thrown the dart.

"Ireland!" She yelled as she turned around. "Good choice!"

"Ireland, it is then," I said with a smile.

(Back to present day conversation with Jacob.)

"So," I said turning my head to look at Jake whose eyes were now wide with disbelief, "that's how I decided to go to Ireland."

He sat up and my head slid off of his chest and onto the ground. I sat up and looked at him and he was staring intently at me. "So who sent you the money and stock stuff?" He asked.

"I never found out." I admitted.

"I think I know we both know who it was." He replied while rolling his eyes.

"No, Jake. It wasn't them. He wouldn't ever do something like that and the others didn't even care enough to say goodbye. I'm really tired of everyone thinking that it was them."

"Who else have you told about them?"

"Oh, I haven't told you about my Irish vampire sister yet, huh?"

"What?!"

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