The next day I woke up with a bright smile on my face. Although I knew that it may be wrong to meet Kili again today I looked forward the meeting. This day was probably one of the boring and longest days in my life. I just sat in the garden or in my room. I was a few minutes after I had lunch when Navarion sat down next to me on a bench. "Is everything okay?", he asked. "Everything is wonderful, why?" "I don't know, the last days you are different… Yesterday you were very unfocused and today you are just smiling, all the time". "Well, it's just, I don't know. Maybe it's the weather or something like that, but if anything is wrong with me I will let you know", I smiled at him. "Okay, I like you very much, do you understand? If everything bad will happen to you I don't know what I should do". He never talks to me like that. I like him too, but only as a friend… I didn't know if I should let him know about that. Maybe Valariya was right and I am more as a friend for him. But I don't want that… "Yeah, thank you. You are also important to me", I said with a slight smile. "Good to hear that. Well, I have to go now, maybe we will see each other after dinner?", he asked. After dinner… I have no time after dinner because of Kili, but I couldn't let him know that. "Well, maybe tomorrow because I have still many things to do, my room is messy and yeah…". "Okay, then when you have time", he said and went back into a building. I felt bad because I couldn't talk with him about Kili. Actually I couldn't talk with anybody about him. I mean, when I tell Valariya about him she would say that I am weird. I decided to make a long ride with Levana. Riding was a thing that always calmed me down.
When I was at home again I quickly ate something for dinner and took a shower. I dressed as fast as I could and sat down on my bed. Then I waited… and waited… and waited. It felt like I spend days of waiting for him. I got darker and darker outside and he still wasn't here. It was horrible. Then there was a knock at the door. Finally! "Who is there?", I asked. Of course I knew that it was Kili but I wanted to tease him a little bit. "A big, ugly troll who will eat you if you don't open the door", Kili said. I had to laugh. "Well, then come in. I don't want to be eaten by a troll", I yelled. The door opened and Kili came in. He was handsome as always. He smiled while entering the room. His smile. Wow. It was so beautiful. "Good evening my lady", he said and bowed. "Stop it or do you want me to die from laughing?", I laughed. He was so funny. He smirked. "May I sat down?", he asked. "Of course, come over here", I said with a smile. He sat down beside me on the bed. "How was your day?", he asked. "Well, it was one of the most boring days in my life, and yours?" "I counted the minutes until now so I think I was quite busy". I has to laugh again. In my eyes he was perfect. When I talked to him I always had to smile like a little child. But then I had to ask the question. "What did your uncle said?" His smile was blown away from one second to another. "Well… he was not very happy about the message. He said that it was a big mistake to come to this place and stay for such a long time", he said seriously. "Such a long time? Which long time? You are here since a few days", I said. "I know and if I would lead the group I would stay longer but Thorin want to set off when the sun rises. He don't want to seek refuge at our enemies' home any longer he said angrily."
"Enemies? I am not you enemy!", I complained. "Keona, I know that", he said with a soft voice. "And why are you not trying to convince him from that? Why do you and your people are always do what he wants?", I asked. "Because he is not only my uncle, he is my king", he said. I looked down sadly. "Hey, look at me", he said quietly. "What?", I asked a little bit annoyed. He looked deep into my green eyes. Then he laid his hand on my cheekbone. I looked at him questioningly. He smiled at me. Then he kissed me softly. It was wonderful and I got goose pimples at my whole body. When I loosened my lips from his he kissed me again. This time a little bit more passionately. "That's not right", I whispered. "Yes it is", he whispered with a smile and kissed me a third time. I felt so good. I forgot about everything bad that happened. When he loosened his lips from mine he smiled at me. "Come with me", he said. "I-I would like to, but I can't…". "Why? I will protect you, when we have recaptured the Erebor you can live there, I will treat you like a princess". He was so cute, but I can't go with him. "That sounds wonderful, really, but I have to stay here. After all the things Elrond did for me it would be rude to simply disappear", I said. "He doesn't own you". "I know, but I am loyal you know. He gave me everything, risked his life for me several times", I explained. "I understand…", he said sadly. "Maybe we will meet each other at another time", I tried to cheer him up. "Yes… But maybe it's too late then". "Why too late?", I asked. "Keona, my uncle is Thorin Oakenshield. If we ever manage to recapture our mountain he will marry me with a girl I don't even know. You can come with me now and I will talk to Thorin, explain him everything. But when we are already at home it's too late", he said. "Kili, you can't image how much I would like to come with you, but I really can't". He stood up. "Well, then it's time to say goodbye I guess. I hope you will find your luck. Take care of yourself okay?", he said with a slight smile. I couldn't say a thing. When he closed the door behind his back tears were rolling down my face. I will never be able to kiss him again, I thought. His kisses were so wonderful. Although I haven't been in a relationship until now I kissed a boy one year ago, but it was not the same not in the slightest. Kili is perfect. And I destroyed the only chance to be with him. Wonderful Keona, wonderful, I thought ironic. I laid down and tried to sleep a little bit, but I couldn't. I had to think about my crappy answer all the time. I started to cry again. I cried myself into sleep.