I walked into the bedroom and started to pace back and further. What was I think, I can't go to a party. At least not with him,I don't even have anything to wear, but that doesn't matter. I went through my luggage and found a pair of light-washed ripped jeans and put those on and my brown knee high boots. Now what top to wear. I decided on a white tank top, and just left my hair down. I put on a little make-up just really covering pimples, and lip bomb.( cgi/set?id=199489453 like this) Should I bring a jacket, nah its summer.

I went out into the living and started to pace again, oh god, what am I thinking, I shouldn't go. I should fake being sick or something, I was interrupted from my thoughts by a knock on the door, FUCK. My hands started to shake as I went to open the door, oh god.

"Ready to go" Finn asked, with a Small smile, he was wearing jeans, sneakers, a flannel with a white t-shirt underneath(it's not button, sorry she doesn't' have xray vision). I guess I was staring a little to long,cause Finn waved his hand in front of my face.

"Uh yeah" I replied with my checks turning red. We walked in a silence to the party, this is the first time I have left the tribute center since we get here. I walked a little faster to catch up to Finn and asked him

"Hey, Are you okay?"

"Yeah,I'm Fine" He was lying

"No your not"

"Lets not talk about it" I just nodded my head, I feel bad, I want him to laugh, and smirk. I want him to tease me, not this.

I know, I shouldn't show my feelings for him but I couldn't help myself and I grabbed his hand, at first he was going to pull his hand out of mine but I made sure he couldn't. Right when our skin touched my skin tingled, and beautifies started in my stomach. I smiled up at him, and he smiled back down at me with a huge smile, that was perfect.

The party was at a place in the capitol that no one has been to in years, Snow mansion. My grab on Finn's hand tighten as I realized where we were, I can't believe they decided to hold a party here. Out of all places you had to pick the one were so many were tortured, including my dad and Finn's mom.

"Lily" I heard Finn say, next to me, I didn't move, I just stared a head. I stared at the place that makes my dad have nightmares at night, the reason mom wakes up scream peoples names at night, the place they tortured my dad to the point that he didn't love mom like he used to. This is were everything happen,even the last place Prim was at well in front of. I was in a daze when I felt Finn's arms go around me and he pulled me into his chest. I sometime forget I'm not the only one who feels pain here out of us,Finn's Dad did die somewhere underneath us.

"Its okay Lily" Finn said I just hugged him, its the first time in a while I actually felt safe. It had been like a minute or so, so I pulled away and grabbed his hand.

"Lets go" I said, now over my fear and more curious about the inside of Snow's mansion. We walked through the gates and the first thing you see was probably once a beautiful yard but it hasn't been cared for in a while. Then we get to the doors, oh god, Finn squeezes my hand to reassure me. I smile up at him, god I could really care for this boy but I'm scared to fall for him. Finn opens the door and holds it open for me and inside is huge and its so beautiful, but its all white weird. There was teens and some young adults everywhere. A group of people waved to Finn, I'm guessing they were his friends, he just waved and we walked around looking at everything and everyone.

"Hey, I'm going to go get us some drinks, Stay here okay ?" I nodded by head at him and looked around at all the people around me. I don't belong here, I shouldn't have come. I wasn't even paying attention and didn't even notice a group of capitol girls walk up to me.

"Hey, aren't you the girl who come here with Finn?" Oh god

"Um.. Yeah"

"OMG you are so lucky, basically every girl here wants to be you right now"

"Oh yeah"

"You don't sound that excited"

"Well it's just Finn, I don't see the big deal"

"The big deal seriously,he super hot and every girl wants him if you know what I mean. I don't even get why he's here with you he could do so much better"

And there it was, what a surprise some girl telling me that I'm not good enough for Finn again.

"Um yeah whatever, I need to go get some air" I replied as I walked to the nearest door that looked like it went outside.I found a bench outside and sat on it, It was just me for a few minutes but then I heard foot steps behind me.

"Lily" I heard a voice say, I turned around and it was Sebastian

"Oh Hey Sebastian"

"What are you doing here? More importantly why are you outside?"

"Uh just need some fresh air thats all, and it's a party duh."

"Well you don't look like you are having much fun"

"Oh yeah"

"Come on lets get you inside" Sebastian walked me inside and we were in a room were they had some music playing, rather loudly and people were all over dancing to it. Sebastian dragged me to the middle and made me dance with him, and honestly it was so much fun. The rest of the night went in a blur, until Finn found me.

Finn's pov

I found where the drinks were and grabbed two, then went to go found Lily again. Knowing her she isn't where I left her but I checked is when a group of girls come up to me and started to flirt with me, what a surprise this happens everywhere.

"Where's that weirdo you come with?" one of the girls asked

"Excuse me what did you just call Lily?"

"Well she's clearly a weirdo and a hoe. I mean like she has you but she is dancing with some other guy right now" one of the other girls said

"I don't know what you are talking about, but she is most definitely not a hoe like you" I said an then I walked off to the dance floor, oh Lily where did you go and who with?

It wasn't that hard to found Lily, she was with what a surprise Sebastian. I walked up to Lily,

"Oh Finn, I didn't see you coming, well you know Sebastian" Lily said

"Hey" Sebastian said with a little wave

"Yeah I know him, but I thought I told you to stay were we were before so I could found you"

"Yeah, but I need some air so I went outside and found Sebastian"

"Oh, well next time found me and tell me where you go" I was so pissed with her, I know I shouldn't be but I was.

"Oh shit the time" Lily said looking at her watch

"I need to go" Lily said point at her watch showing the time. She grabbed my hand and started to push through the crowd of people, leaving Sebastian behind. She made it all the way outside pretty fast. Then she just was walking extremely fast and it was only a like 15 minute walk from here to the tribute center and she had a half an hour. I pulled her back,

"Finn, what are you doing?"

"Lily, You shaking and your freezing. Here" I said taking off my flannel off and putting it on her,she mumbled a she tried to start walking fast again but I pulled her back again.

"What now Finn, we need to be back in 20 minutes." I could resist myself, I cut her off but how couldn't I she just so beautiful and she is so cute in my flannel and I kissed her, I was kinda surprised when she kissed me back. We pulled away after a few seconds and put our foreheads together. Then I heard words I didn't want to hear from her

"I can't do this." she said before letting go of me and running as fast as she could towards the tribute center. Crap I thought, what did I just do?