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DC: I Don't Own Inuyasha!
Chapter 20:
I Just Didn't Believe
Kagome ran all the way to the Sacred Tree. She glared at it. Visions of Inuyasha being pinned to that tree came into her head. She continued to sob. 'He betrayed me. He was suppose to...' Her thoughts were cut off when she saw Inuyasha running over. Without a second thought she fired two arrows and pinned his haroi to the tree. Miroku and Sango gasped. Inuyasha looked at her with fear. Even Kagome herself was shocked. 'Did I just?' 'NO! He betrayed me! He deserves this!'
"K-Kagome?" "Shut up." She growled. "I trusted you. I stood by you time and time again while you left me to see her. Always I was put second in your heart." Inuyasha blinked. 'Kikyo? What does she...oh shit.' "Kagome no! You don't understand!"
"I said SHUT UP!" She fired another arrow that barely missed his head. "It's YOU who doesn't understand! You should feel ashamed of yourself! You let me go for a walk! And then you left to see her!"
Sango ran over to Kagome. "Kagome stop! Inuyasha didn't leave the cave! It was a trick by Naraku!" Kagome pushed Sango off of her and readied her arrow at Sango. Kagome glared down at her, 'She deserves it to...'
"And where were you? It's all YOUR fault I'm like this! You made this entire group SWEAR never to hurt Kohaku. Well I never hurt him and now look at me!" She ripped off her shirt leaving her in a purple bra. Her giant scar across her stomach, her scar on her chest and the scars on her arms were very clear with the rising sun.
Sango looked away, ashamed. "Kagome! She's telling you the truth about Inuyasha. I was with him." Miroku stated. Kagome looked at him. She lowered her bow. "Okay Miroku. I'll bite. What if Inuyasha didn't go after Kikyo, even though, heh, let's face it. Him not going after her, is like the sun not rising. But let's say he didn't. Inuyasha, tell my then, my dearest friend. Why the FUCK I DIED! Where were you? I must've screamed your name a hundred times! Begging, PLEADING for you to save me. I looked like such a fool. Crying out your name while Naraku laughed. He knew you weren't coming. I was a fool."
"Kagome you're wrong!" Inuyasha yelled. "How could you think that!? Kagome when have I ever left you? I ALWAYS come." Kagome glared. "And the one time I needed you most you were fucking around with her!" Kagome cocked back her arrow. "I should've never released you. God why didn't I listen to Kaede. She knew the hell and heartache you caused. I hate you Inuyasha. I hate you to my very core."
Inuyasha's heart broke. His ears lowered. She hated him. And this all could've been avoided if he had told her how much he cared for her sooner!
"Kagome, I'm sorry for what I've done in the past." "Sorry isn't good enough this time Inuyasha. I excepted your pathetic sorries every time you came back from her. And why was that? Because I was in love with you!" The group gasped. Inuyasha's eyes widened. "I was waiting! Hoping that one day you would go and tell her that you loved me, and then it would be over. Three years I waited, and looked where it's brought me. I'm only being held alive by these fucking shards! And I'm 5 second away from sealing you back to that tree."
"Kagome don't!" Inuyasha growled. Struggling against the arrows. "Give me one good reason I shouldn't!"
"Because....Because...Because I did go and tell her that! The day you died! I told her that I wasn't going to hell with her! That's why I didn't want you to leave the cave! I wanted to tell you that! But you're just so fucking stubborn!"
Kagome looked at him. "W-what?" "Kagome, look at me! You know deep down that Naraku tricked you. He wanted to kill you and use you against us. Which he's doing now!" Kagome walked closer to Inuyasha. She walked up the roots and got right up to his face. 'He's LYING!' Her head was screaming over and over again. But her heart said she wasn't. She looked right into his eyes.
"I don't believe you." She stated, almost shocked by her word.
'That's not what I wanted to say!?' 'You know he's lying to you.'
Inuyasha looked wide eyed at her. "Kagome don't....please." He knew she was about to purify him. "You broke my heart." She cried. She dropped her bow, but kept the arrow. "I'm sorry." He whimpered. She looked at him. He was so close to her. He looked into her eyes. They held so much hurt. She looked so conflicted. 'What is going on in her head?' He wondered. He needed her to believe him. What could he do? He bit his lip, she'd probably kill him for this. But if he was going to die anyways. He reached down and kissed her lips.
Kagome gasped as she felt his warm lips press against hers. Instinctively she closed her eyes and returned the kiss. She placed a hand on his cheek. She broke the kiss, earning a whimper from Inuyasha.
Kagome looked at him her eyes wide. "I don't belong here." She whispered. Inuyasha looked at her. "Kagome?" "It's all because of me..." She got down off the tree, her mind screaming at her to finish him.
"You said that everything was because of me. The jewel, Kikyo, everything. And then last night, you said I don't belong here. You're right."
Kagome broke the arrow head off and held it to her stomach. "I'm dead. I don't belong here."
"Kagome no! Stop!" Inuyasha growled as he tried to rip himself off the tree. Sango ran over to stop her but a barrier hit her. "No Interference." Kagome said.
Kagome stabbed the arrow head in her. She cried in pain but felt for a shard. "KAGOME!" Inuyasha ripped himself off the tree, leaving his haroi behind. He ran to her and struggled to get through the barrier. Kagome tried to make it stronger, but she was losing blood, making it harder to hold up the barrier.
Inuyasha broke through the barrier and ripped the shard out of her hand. "Stop!!" He yelled and pinned her wrists down. He looked and saw one jewel shard laying in the grass. It was black as night. "I thought that....they were purified."
Miroku walked over. "When she remembered. Her heart was filled with hate. It must've tainted the jewel."
Kagome looked up at Inuyasha. She could hear him saying that he chose Kikyo. She could hear her mind screaming to kill him. To kill Sango. She whimpered and banged her head on the ground over and over again. "SHUT UP!" She cried. She could see it playing all over again in her heard. "INUYASHA!"
Inuyasha looked at her. He held her close to him. "Kagome I'm here." She continued to cry. Then suddenly she stopped. Her eyes became wide and dull. He looked at her. "Kagome?" She wouldn't answer. "Kagome!?"
Inuyasha looked up and growled when he saw Naraku and another man set foot on the ground. "So Kagome finally remembered did she? About time." Naraku bent down and picked up the jewel shard that was covered in Kagome's blood. He licked it. "Mmm...I'll never tire of her taste."
Inuyasha growled. "Naraku what did you do to her!" Naraku laughed. "Inuyasha I did nothing. It was all Maygosu's doing. He's a dream demon." Inuyasha looked over at the lifeless looking man. Sango gasped. "That's why she remembered and went crazy. He's controlling her thoughts." Inuyasha growled and looked down at Kagome's blank stare.
"She's in a trance." Sango continued. "Look at Maygosu, he's not blinking. He's holding his concentration. Break that and you'll break the trance." Inuyasha nodded and laid Kagome down. He pulled out his Tetsusagia. "Maygosu! Prepare to die!" The man said nothing he just continued to stare at Kagome. Inuyasha lept up and flew towards Maygosu. "Wind Scar!" Naraku blocked them with his barrier.
"Come on Inuyasha. You should know better than that!!" Naraku laughed. Inuyasha heard Kagome let out a cry. He growled. His Tetsusagia turned red. He glared at Naraku.
"I have always wanted to kill you Naraku, for what you did to Kikyo and I. But never as badly as I want to kill you for hurting Kagome. TETSUSIGIA!" He slammed the sword on the barrier. It slowly gave, Maygosu blinked and jumped back and disappeared. Naraku was blown into a million pieces once again, and flew off. Inuyasha panted and watched them leave. He was about to run after them, but whipped around when he heard Kagome gasping for air.
Kagome sat up and looked around. She winced in pain at her wound. She was still here? What had just happened. She looked and saw her stomach. 'Shit I didn't get them all. But those thoughts are gone now...'
She saw her group sitting there looking at her. Inuyasha looked like her wanted to run to her, but didn't. She looked at the tree, his haroi blew in the wind. She shivered at the cold. Blushing when she realized that she was only sporting a bra. 'I tried to pin him to a tree. I threatened Sango. Everything that I was trying to suppress, just flew out all at once. Why?'
She got up and cried and grabbed her wound. Blood still dripped from it. "Don't move!" Sango said, holding her friends shoulders. Kagome looked at Sango. What could she say? "Sango I...I didn't mean..." Sango smiled sadly and Kagome hugged her tightly. She cried into her shoulder and Sango began to cry as well.
After a couple minutes Kagome looked over and saw Miroku and Inuyasha attempting to retrieve his haroi. Every time they got zapped from the arrow. Sango laughed. "Idiots, you'd think after the first time, they'd stop." Kagome shook her head. "Take Miroku back to the village. Inuyasha and I will be there shortly." Sango nodded and grabbed the monk by his robes and began to drag him back.
Inuyasha tried to ignore Kagome standing there watching him as he continued to get zapped. "Y-You want me to do that?" She asked softly. Inuyasha feh'd, "I don't need your help." Kagome looked down. Inuyasha wouldn't come near her. Why should he? She was going to pin him back to that tree. Deep inside her. She had thought about it once. She knew that. Hell she was angry and when the last thing she heard while dying was him talking to Kikyo. Of course she was upset. But she would've never acted on those feelings. That just wasn't her. It must've been Maygosu. He was doing something to her. Replaying that memory over and over again and controlling her thoughts. She sighed and walked over to Inuyasha.
Inuyasha growled as he was zapped again. He couldn't look at Kagome. It's funny over four months of wishing to see her stormy blue eyes again and now, he didn't want to be near her. 'She was going to kill me...that look in her eyes....'
"Inuyasha!"
"huh? K-Kikyo...I thought...we..."
He shook his head. 'Why Kagome....'
He looked over and saw her slowly climbing up the roots. She got there and grabbed the arrows. There was a pink light and then the arrows disappeared. Inuyasha grabbed his haroi and threw it over his shoulder. He hopped off the tree and was about to leave. But he could hear Kagome grunting and whimpering. He was angry at her. But he still loved her.
He turned around and finally actually looked at her. His heart broke. She was standing there in a purple bra and jeans. The front of her jeans were covered in blood from her wound. The scars that covered her body. He winced at the sight of them.
Kagome attempted to get off the roots but was not having an easy time. She slowly climbed down, but slipped. She let out a shriek and awaited the harsh ground. But instead she felt a pair of strong arms grab her. "Stupid klutz." He muttered as he sat her down. She wobbled a little bit and held onto his shoulders to steady herself. She looked into his eyes. "Inuyasha...I...I'm so sorry." Inuyasha looked the other way. "Oh so your sorry is suppose to be good enough?" He growled. Kagome looked down as tears fell. "N-No...I j-just wanted you t-to know." She whispered. She held her stomach. The pain was horrible. She was starting to feel light headed from the blood loss. "Inu...yasha...I...I feel..." She collapsed in his arms. Inuyasha picked her up and ran back to the hut.
When he got there, Kaede was already sitting there, ready to dress her wounds. Inuyasha laid her down and sat at her side. "Poor Kagome. She has been through so much." Kaede sighed as she began to clean her stomach.
"We all have." Inuyasha stated while watching Kagome's face. Her face was all scrunched up in pain. "She lost a jewel. What will happen now?" Kaede directed Inuyasha to hold her in a sitting position while she wrapped a bandage around her. "I do not know. Kagome is strong. And she has several jewels in her. She should be okay."
"When we complete the jewel...what will happen to her?" Kaede didn't look at him. "Kagome is in this world only by the power of the jewel. When that's gone..." Inuyasha growled.
'There has to be a way to save her. There has to be.'
R&R