Sorry about the language in this, there is only about two swear words but still :) You can all blame Gemma (H20CasualtyiCarly) I think that's her name xD Maybe it's icarly then Casualty.. anyway. I asked her for another word for loser... and that's what she came up with :P
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Chapter 4
I grin at Avril when I see her in school the next day in her usual hang out place, the place where I will now be hanging out with, to the horror of Emma and Cleo. I grab a cigarette from her as I walk over to her, Avril nods at me.
"You look great." I look down at my clothes, grinning, black jeans and my normal red and black top, I copied her eyeliner and other makeup last night. I rolled my eyes when I saw Zane,
"Is that the twat that dumped you?" I nodded at her and just shook my head,
"His loss though, right?" She grins at me and nods,
"You're right there." She sighed loudly and inhaled the smoke from her own cigarette, I nodded and then looked at Zane once more, he was talking about me, anyone could see that. I tutted loudly and then stomped out my cigarette when a teacher started walking towards us,
"Come on, lets just go to our lesson." I sigh as we walk off towards English, I ignored the stares from Emma, Cleo and Lewis as I walked in with Avril, completely ignoring the seat they usually saved for me and instead sitting next to Avril and her friends. I spent the whole lesson ignoring the looks I was getting from my former friends as we all giggled and talked throughout the whole lesson. I realize, that this is how things are going to be from now on.
I sighed as I waited for my Dad outside the school, it was parents evening, a lecture I had not been looking forward to. I had been doing so well in school for a while, now I have gone back to my old routine of failing. It's going to be staying in and studying sessions again, he thinks that I should learn from him, and make something of myself. But that doesn't mean I have to get amazing grades like everyone thinks I should, don't they see that I am not even capable of getting above a C? I never have been and I never will be, they should all learn to accept that.. Especially tonight, when Dad is going to kick off about my lowering grades, I sigh as he gets to the door of the main building,
"Lets hope you get good results to make up for your behavior at home." I sigh and look away from him,
"Whatever." I fold my arms across my chest as we carry on walking, I don't care if he grounds me anyway, there is always the window. I will always win.
I walk over to Avril and Simon when we enter the main hall, Dad just tuts as I walk off from him and I see him go over to Mrs Gilbert and Emma. Sighing, I just turn my back on them and their gossip and grin at Simon. He was the one who supplied everyone with their drugs, he was older than us of course, but that's what made him so much more interesting I guess. I giggle when he puts his arm around me and watch as he slyly slips Avril something. She winks at me as she puts it down her bra and then starts laughing, I shake my head at her as I join in the laughter, ignoring the looks I keep getting from Emma and her Mum.
~ Emma ~
I stare at Rikki, I have no idea what has gotten into her lately, she has completely ditched Cleo and I, and it happened as soon as Zane dumped her. Maybe this is her way of dealing with it all, maybe she will snap out of it and realize who her real friends are after a while.. I really hope so. "Who is that guy?" I look at Rikki's Dad as he stops his conversation with my Mum and looks over at his daughter, I shake my head
"His name is Simon, he is rumored to be the local drug dealer."
"How old is he?"
"About 23 years old I think... I don't think Rikki would be doing drugs though... I don't think she would even think about it.."
"That was the old Rikki, I have no idea what is going through her mind at the moment. I guess I should have known this was coming." I sighed and looked at my Mum,
"I hope Emma's doesn't come anytime soon." She laughs, he nods and then looks back at Rikki.
"I wish she would start talking to me again."
"And me." I mutter, shaking my head and looking down at the floor, refusing to let the tears fall down my face.
"I don't know why she is hanging around with that Avril girl, and Simon. There is only one word to describe them two, and that is trouble." Mum whispers to us both, I nod and Rikki's Dad seems to agree. She is right though, and Rikki can only get into trouble when she is hanging around them, and I have this feeling that she is already in too deep, she is way out of her depth right now and nobody, not even herself, knows what to do about it.
~ Rikki ~
"They are staring at you." Avril laughs as she wrinkles her nose, I nod at her and then look over at the three people across the room.
"Let them, I don't care." I shrug them off and then look at Simon.
"I bet Emma's mum is talking about you," He nods and then laughs for a moment before going back to the solemn glance he keeps throughout any conversation anyone has with him. I laugh and then look back over to them, they annoy me so much sometimes. I have no idea what she has said to him, but Dad looks pissed off. He looks ready to kill me and he hasn't even seen any teachers yet, I sigh as I say a muttered goodbye to them both when he calls me over.
"If he grounds me I may be a little late, but I will see you later." I wink at them as I carry on walking ahead, dreading the evening ahead. I nod once at Emma, not smiling and then look at my Dad
"What?"
"We have to go around to see your teachers now, move it."
"I was having a conversation."
"I don't care Rikki Chadwick," Oh he was so annoyed, I almost laughed at his red face, if this was a cartoon there would be steam coming out of his ears right now, I close my eyes and picture the image, holding back the laughter,
"Now come on." He frowns at me, and I look at Emma
"What did you say to him?" She seems surprised by the question, but I know she has said something, otherwise he wouldn't be like this.
"Nothing Rikki, don't be so paranoid."
"Paranoid? You obviously did say something, tell me what you said." I clench my shaking hands into a fist as a warning and she looks at my fist to my face, and shakes her head,
"Nothing, we just told him that Simon was trouble."
"What? So I can't have other friends now? Maybe I didn't want to be stuck hanging around with you and Cleo for the rest of my school life, so how about you stop informing my Dad of everything and get a life. I don't care anymore Emma. But don't even think about trying to turn my Dad against me and my friends again." I grin evilly at her and then turn away, ignoring the look from Mrs Gilbert. I hear Avril laugh and I grin to myself, that felt so good, and the look on Emma's face...
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"How could you?"
"Oh whatever Dad, because you were so perfect in school!"
"I never said I was Rikki, that's the point."
"I don't care about school, it's like a prison. Now just leave me alone." I push past him and storm to my bedroom, slamming the door and turning my music up. A routine we have both been getting used to recently. I ran to the mirror and looked at myself angrily, I hated him so much. What gave him the right to lecture me on my grades when he is working in a dead end job with no hopes of a promotion? How dare he. I shake my head and then look around my room, grabbing the scissors on top of my desk. Smiling to myself, I think about how I need to grow up and how much I have to change. I nod and then sigh loudly, closing my eyes as I think about what I am going to do. It will look so much better, so much nicer... I nod and then grin at my own reflection as I take the scissors to my long, blonde, curly hair. I watch as the hair falls piece by piece, not letting the tears fall down my face. I have to do this, I have to change. I know that.
When I am done I look in the mirror, nodding in approval at my new hair style. It doesn't look that bad, not as bad as I thought it would. I grin and then look around for something to clean up the hair on the floor, before I escape out of my bedroom window to meet Avril. Settling on a towel to gather it all in, I take one last look in the mirror before silently opening my window and sneaking out. Grinning to myself when I breathe in the fresh air.