A/N:ok i have been working hard on finding inspiration for my chapters, thanks everyone who reviewed i hope you like
this new chappy - britbrat
Disclaimer: i do not own instant star but i do own maitland
Chapter 9: I Cant Have Anything I Want
Maitland: why did you have to bring up the time i fell in the toilet and ruined my exspensive leather heel boots
Tommy: well you shouldent have been standing up on the toilet
Maitland: i liked those boots too, they were 100 dollars and now they are gone
Tommy: remind me again why were you standing up there
Maitland: so i could see if that little girl was okay she was sitting down on the floor crying
Tommy: and i bet she started laughing when you fell
Mailtland: tommy Q's own little cousin falling in toilet when she was 13, i can see it on the tabloids now
she said looking up at the ceiling
Tommy: i cant believe that was only last year
Maitland: me either, ive missed you alot
Tommy: me too girl
Maitland: i remember when we used to go out and have fun
Tommy: and get in trouble, dont forget about trouble
Maitland: yea like when i was 12 we made Daniella think we were gonna get married and have ten kids, she was 16 she fell for it good
Tommy: yep we got grounded for like 3 weeks for making her faint, but it was funny as hell
Maitland: mamaire almost kicked our asses for making her think we were really getting married
Tommy: i feel so close to you even though we are 10 years apart
Maitland: sometimes so close its scary, like when i can almost read your mind
Tommy: and when we were dared to kiss on the lips
Maitland: we are family, we ''kiss'' like that all the time
Tommy: but in front of a crowd of teenagers its just plain weird
Maitland: yea it is, so are you madly in love with jude?
Tommy: totally and completely
Maitland: i wish there was someone old enough at g magor i could date, im all alone, she started to pout
Tommy: well you could find someone to get together with
Maitland: but i want someone who is into music like i am
Tommy: well i dont know
Maitland: i hate being 14
Tommy: well i still love you
Maitland: me too
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at judes house
jude walked in to find kwest and sadie making out on the couch and starting to take eachothers tops off
Jude: i am so burning that couch
they pulled apart and put their shirts back on
Sadie: sorry jude
Jude: sorry wont cut it, im scarred for life
Kwest: lets just forget about this alright
Jude: thats fine with me but i will still have the disturbing image in my head
SandK: sorry
Jude: w/e im going upstairs, stay PG-13
jude went upstairs and collapsed on her bed
Jude: man tommys cousin is so cool shes 14 and she is so mature
jude fell asleep thinking about how her and tommy were so close, how she loved loving him and how she never wanted to part with him she always thought of tommy when she was falling asleep, she always felt so safe in his arms, he would never let any one hurt her ever
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at tommy's
Maitland: tommmmmyyy i love you so much
Tommy:what do you want mait?
Maitland: drive me home, i dont feel like walking
Tommy: okay lets go
outside...
Maitland: can i drive please tommy
Tommy: HELL NO your just as bad as jude, and i dont wont people endangering my precious little baby
Maitland: i had my permit in france, pleeeeaaaassseeee T.T.
Tommy: okay, which car you wanna drive?
Maitland: viper
Tommy: NO WAY IN HELL are you driving the viper
Maitland: FINE i wanted to drive the H3 anyway
Tommy: lets just go he threw her the keys and she drove to her house then tommy went back home and watched tv until he fell
asleep
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next day at jude's house
Jude: MOOOMMM? jude yelled from the kitchen
MH: im in the front room honey
jude ran into the front room and plopped down on the couch beside her mom
MH: why are you so happy, i thought you were still mad at me about marrying don
Jude: i am a little bit
MH: like i told sadie, some things are too good to pass up
Jude: yea mom about that, we need to talk
MH: okay im listening
Jude: well im in a relationship with someone
MH: really who?
Jude: hes over 18 though
MH: jude honey thats illegal
Jude: but we love eachother mom, im so in love with him its CRAZY
MH: well i guess its not that bad
Jude: hes all i think about from when i go to bed to when i waske up, i even dream about him, mom im really happy
MH: okay honey who is it?
Jude: uhm..uh..t.to...its tommy
MH: WHAT, jude he broke your sisters heart, how can you do that to her?
Jude: MOM, mom calm down. she knows and shes happy about it, and shes with kwest anyways
MH: im serious you girls NEVER tell me anything anymore
Jude: so what your mad at us now? she said with anger
MH: im mad because your 17 jude hes 24, you cant be doing this
Jude: MOM!
MH: and you and your sister are always keeping things from me
Jude: oh were not the only ones mom! she stood up, she couldent stand to sit now she was so angry
MH: you have no right to talk to me that way
Jude: YOU WENT OFF GOT MARRIED WITHOUT TELLING ME OR SADIE
MH: IM AN ADULT YOUR A CHILD, BOTH OF YOU
Jude: YOU NO WHAT MOM?
MH: WHAT!
Jude: I FEEL LIKE YOU LOVE DON MORE THAN ME AND SADES
jude stomped upstairs locked the door sat in the floor and strummed 24 hours over and over again until her fingers were numb,
she shouted the lyrics and had her guitar hooked on the amp as loud as it would go so she coldent here anything, her mom, don,sadie,her phone she dident care about anything right now accept tommy, she dident love anyone right now besides her dad and tommy and sadie, she even loved kwest so much, he was like her brother, she was so close to those 4 people so much, she was so pissed at her mom and don, she even thought about moving in with her dad and yevette
MH:sadie im glad your home
Sadie: and im glad your home too from ureope, oh hey don
Don: hello sadie
Sadie: whats all that noise?
Don: your sister locked herself in her room and keeps playing that annoying song as loud as she can get it
Sadie: 1 thanks and 2 it is NOT annoying
MH: sadie!
Sadie: sorry mom
sadie went upstairs and started banging on judes door
Sadie: JUDE LET ME IN
jude dident hear her
"i cant have anything i want"
they say im just too young but its not my fault
i'll find my own way home if i gotta
i'll make it all alone if i gotta
Sadie:LET ME IN JUDE
jude stopped and opened her door
Jude: WHAT! oh sorry sades
sadie walked in her room and shut the door behind her
Sadie: i know its hard but we have to get used to it
Jude: i know but i just dont like don
Sadie: me either, but mom is happier than ever since her and dad divorced
Jude: your right, maybe i should stay over at the rehersal space tonight
Sadie: why? and why are you so mad at mom?
Jude: because i told her about me and tommy and she went all crazy about how hes way too old
Sadie: oh well you stay at tommy's tonight and i'll try and talk things out with mom
Jude: ok thanks sades, i love you so much
Sadie: no problem, i love you too
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at tommys
Tommy: so shes pretty upset about us?
Jude: pretty? more like MAGORLY
Tommy: she'll get over it
Jude: yea i hope so
A\N: thats all i can get in my head, i know its not wonderful but im doing what i can, love ya-brit