Slowly, my mind started coming back to my own body. I felt so strange.
I tried to sit up, and that's when I felt a painful sting in my arm.
I had so many bandages on it, and I just looked them over, turning my arm around as much as I could.
I felt so emotionless… Empty.
I looked around the room. Familiar faces started filling my head. All the Cullens were there, and all except Rosalie had tears in their eyes that I knew could never fall.
Especially Edward. He was whiter than he ever could be… Than I ever thought he would ever be. He was sitting right beside me and looking into my eyes with a dark expression on his face.
He crawled into bed beside me and he held me close to him, being careful for my arm. I didn't know what emotion I was feeling. Was I on some sort of sedative?
"What happened?" I asked, my voice just barely above a whisper. Was that as loud as I could speak? That could cause some problems.
"You had a panic attack… You cut yourself so badly…" Edward told me brokenly. I had never heard him sound that way before. It felt so foreign to me… It was horrible to listen to. I just nodded in a response.
I whimpered in pain as I felt another slicing sensation inside of me. I felt my child scratching at me again.
I started coughing, and realized how blood was coming up with it.
Was that normal?
Edward looked at me in a nervous way, realizing what was happening.
"Carlisle! Carlisle, help her!" He shouted to his adoptive father.
Carlisle calmly walked over and motioned for Edward to come with him. I hated feeling his absence, even when I felt so much warmer when he was gone. I was so used to his body that I was extremely not used to having it leave my side. Not again…
I heard shouts from outside of the door.
But all I could really make out was "Bella could die… keeps the baby… it's killing her…" from Carlisle. And then Edward's louder than life response "Then give her a fucking Abortion!!!" I had never heard him use such language before. In all honesty, it scared me.
Edward growled once more, and then walked back into the room. Carlisle unhooked me from the machine and said that I could go home.
It was silent all the way there. Edward was the only one with me, and I all of a sudden felt like crying. My whole body was aching now, and I had no idea what I should do.
My body was shaking violently the whole car ride home, and I knew that Edward could sense this but he kept quiet anyways.
Suddenly a sharp pain ripped through my body, and I screamed. Edward suddenly pulled over and unbuckled me, all the while begging me to tell him what was wrong.
I held my stomach, and I felt something wet trickle down my legs.
"Bella! Bella, you're bleeding!!" He shouted, picking me up. He held me close to him and called Carlisle.
"Carlisle? Carlisle, come down her… Please, Bella's bleeding… No, from her.. Yes, her area… Please hurry, I'm right in the middle of route 35… Thanks… Bye." He said and hung up the phone.
He just held me close to him, his body shaking with mine as he dry-sobbed.
Carlisle was there in a matter of seconds. He helped me up and he ran me home, Edward leading the way.
Once we got home, he laid me on the couch and asked me to take off my pants and underwear. I did as I was told, and started crying. No one had seen me this way, or touched me this way since… My attack…
Carlisle was gentle with me, even though it still hurt so badly.
He pulled away from me finally, and went upstairs to do some tests.
Edward helped me get my pants on again and held my close to him.
A few minutes later, Carlisle came down with the test results.
"What's wrong with her?" Edward asked Carlisle nervously.
"I'd say she was having a miscarriage if I hadn't known better, but read this," He handed Edward a slip of paper.
A ware-wolf and a young woman can not mate.
But, if for some reason they ever had, the woman would go through a great deal to still carry the pup.
She will bleed for quite a while, for her body will not get used to the stress of a non-human thing growing inside of her.
She will have to eat meat quite often, or the pup will die.
"Where did you get this?" Edward asked.
"In one of my old notebooks."
Edward nodded thoughtfully.
"What about the tests?"
"She's still carrying a healthy pup, but her body is definitely not taking this well. She won't be able to be under any stress, or there is serious risk of her dying." I couldn't believe this. Death? I didn't know how much more of this I could take.
I screamed again; another searing pain.
"What about that?" He asked, hurriedly. "Is that supposed to happen?"
"A female ware-wolf's body is designed to carry these kinds of children. They are too strong and heal far too fast for anything bad to happen. Bella, however, is already under stress and was weakened by the rape. The child is slowly attacking her from the inside, which is why she's in so much pain," He explained to Edward quietly.
He just nodded. After just a while longer Carlisle had to leave to go back to the hospital. Then Edward went out to get the car and go for a drive. I knew he had to think about everything for a while, so I just let it go.
I went out for a walk myself, roaming back to the book store I was at three weeks ago. I was going to walk back inside when some very vaguely familiar arms grabbed me and forced me into the alley.
I felt his hands on my small bulge, and then his gravelly voice.
"Pregnant now, huh?" He asked, creating little scratches on my stomach.