a/n: I own nothing.
You know the old saying 'time flies when you're having fun'? It is definitely true my friends. Before I knew it two months had gone by, and things were going great. Edward and I were officially a couple as he put it, and we spent a lot of time together. So much time, in fact, that it was becoming increasingly difficult to continue with business. Rose and Alice had told their boyfriends, you know Jasper and Emmett, about the business and surprisingly enough they were okay with it. Luckily for me, that meant they could take on a few of my clients as well.
The one they could not take on was this Saturday night, and I wasn't too excited about it. It was weird to not be with Edward on a Saturday, but he had some kind of conference for work to attend. Today, Thursday, I was hanging out with my two best girls. We hadn't been able to spend much time together lately. I had big news tonight, and they couldn't wait to here it. So, we ordered Chinese, grabbed a few bottles of wine, and planted our butts firmly on the couch for a long overdue gossip night. We chatted aimlessly for a while, and then I couldn't take it any longer.
"I'm in love with Edward." I blurted out and quickly took a big drink of my wine. When I glanced up, they were staring at me, both of their mouths forming a perfect 'O'. It would have been comical, if those faces were aimed toward anyone else but me. "I knew it!" I exclaimed, jumping off the couch to pace in front of them. "I knew this was wrong! It's too soon isn't it? I shouldn't feel this way already right? I mean, in reality it's only been a couple of months! I just…I wanted it to be so bad, that I just forced myself to feel this way right? It's not real is it?" I bombarded them with all these questions, and more were threatening to spill out. I just walked back and forth in a circle, around the coffee table, not daring to look at them.
"Bella, this is…amazing." Rosalie finally said. "Yeah, it's great." Alice chimed in. I looked up a little too soon, and stubbed my toe on the table. "OW! SHIT!" I yelled, hopping on my good foot, clutching the throbbing other one in my other hand. And because God loves me so much, I fell flat on my ass. Alice and Rose were laughing hysterically at me, and at first I was laughing with them. And then suddenly, I was crying, and they were sitting with me on the floor. The truth was that I was petrified.
"I can't tell him guys. What if he doesn't feel the same? Or worse, what if he does?" I whispered, still crying like an idiot. "Bella, trust me, Edward loves you. And what's so bad about being in love?" Alice asked, rubbing my back in circles. "My parents loved each other too, and look how they turned out. Love is …fake. It's all a lie, to get us through this miserable existence. But in the end, doesn't love makes us twice as miserable as we would have been on our own?" I responded, wiping angrily at my eyes.
"Bella you such a cynic." Rosalie snapped. "Look, what happened to your parents sucks, okay? But, that's just one couple. And yes, that happens to plenty of people in the world, but what about all the other happy couples? Like Alice's parents who've been together their whole lives. Or my grandparents, they've been together for fifty years." She explained, squeezing my hand for comfort.
"Yeah, I know some people are lucky. I have never been lucky in my entire life! I know what's going to happen! We're going to be happily ever after for a short time, and then bam! It'll all come crashing down on top of me just like always. I don't think I can survive that." I whined, more tears making their way annoyingly down my face.
"Bella, sweetheart, it'll only happen that way if you let it. Love is not easy, it wasn't meant to be. But if you really love him, then you fight for him, and for what you have together, and it'll all work. I promise." Alice replied, kissing my cheek. "What if it doesn't work out? What if I'm wrong?" I whispered.
"Bella, if you were wrong, you wouldn't be crying over this or freaking out about it not working. You're scared to lose him that means something. When you know you know." Rosalie answered. "Now, get up and let's celebrate this moment. After all, hell just froze over." Alice exclaimed sarcastically. Rosalie began to laugh again, and I pushed her on her ass. Little whores. I loved em' though.
For the next couple of hours the girls told me about their recent sexcapades, including pool tables, and a parking lot. I'll give you two guess who was who, and the first one doesn't count. We decided that tomorrow night; our guys would finally meet each other. They called their dudes, and I …just sat there. We agreed to meet here, and drive together to this new urban club in Brooklyn. Edward and I had talked about going, but so far we hadn't made it there. So I figured why not? I just wasn't going to call him at two am to ask him to go. We were all about to turn in for the night when there was a knock at the door. I told the girls to go on to bed, and walked, angrily to the door fully prepared to yell at the moron knocking at two am.
I swung the door ajar, and just stared. "What are you doing?" I asked a huge smiled plastered across my face. "You have been at my place every night for the past two weeks; did you honestly expect me to be able to sleep without you now?" Edward replied, kissing my forehead. It was useless to try to not smile after that remark, so I didn't even bother. I just took his hand and led him upstairs. We'd been staying at his place because it was more…private. I felt bad for making the girls leave, even though they insisted they didn't mind. But once I found out Edward lived alone, we just stayed there. He had asked me to move in with him two nights ago, but I declined. Partially because I thought it was too early, mostly because I was a chicken.
The girls were right, as always. I loved him, this was right. I knew it from the bottom of my toes to the top of my head. I loved him completely, more than just with my heart. It was my heart, mind, body and soul all combined together. It was both the most exhilarating and most terrifying feeling I've ever experienced, no wait, telling him would be the most terrifying. No, I would not tell him tonight. I was too chicken shit to do that, but I would soon. Very soon.