Why?

I suppose that's the question of all questions, so let me narrow it down.

Why was my son so foolishly stumbling along the path of the Quincy?

There is nothing to gain from it. The shinigami guide the wandering souls to the next life, they are better suited to deal with the hollows too. A Quincy is unnecessary and just a way to needlessly risk one's life. A single bite or scratch from a hollow and we might very well die, never mind that the wound could heal just fine if it came from any other source.

I would blame my father for indulging Uryuu, for teaching him what I refuse to even speak of, but I can't. I never told him why I gave up being a Quincy, the truth about Masaki, and I never intend to, so he doesn't know how I fear what being a Quincy can do to a person. I consider it sometimes, but I know that it would change nothing. I may have forsaken the Quincy way, but I have not forsaken the power, and hypocrites rarely get their way.

I thought my father might stop of his own accord when Kanae died from having her powers taken, but it seems to have had no effect. Can't he see that just because Uryuu's power wasn't taken that day doesn't mean it won't be taken another? It's not too late to stop my son from craving power, to go looking for it when it gets lost, because he will lose it. I'm not so foolish as to believe that my father won't give him the means to use Letz Stile, nor so stupid as to believe that Uryuu will never use it. When he does, I know that he will mope, be half alive. I've seen it in others who have used it and lost what strength they had. My father did not restore the power to all who lost it, he made sure they were worthy to stand amongst us again. And I know that in the end I will restore Uryuu's powers, regardless of my father's test, using what he taught me, because I will not be able to watch my son suffer.

I can see the foolishness of Masaki in my son, though I don't know how it got there. I don't know whether I should be happy or scared. He will put himself in danger, I have no doubt, and I will have to save him, even if it kills me, because he's the one thing I have to protect.

I have no interest, he has no talent, and yet we are still Quincies, still trapped in a world of spirits.


Author's Note

Another Ryuuken point of view. This one is inspired by Uryuu's flashback in chapter 124, volume 15 if you've got a collection to look at. I think that while Ryuuken wouldn't tell anyone about what really happened with Masaki that Souken would kind of understand why Ryuuken quit Quincy stuff. He certainly seemed to know that Ryuuken valued Uryuu the most, even if little Uryuu couldn't see it, but trained Uryu anyway because "what you think is right depends on what you want to protect" so he wanted him trained so that Uryuu could protect his "right". Ah, but that might be a different drabble to do. This is mostly why Ryuuken doesn't want Uryuu to do Quincy things and how much he secretly loves his son.

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