AN: Well, i'm back! Aha, yeah whatever. No one cares :P So this is short. I just wanted to put something in. Right now i'm listening to 'sea of love' by cat power. The song makes me emotional, okay?! so don't be all "Why is this so corny?!?" well when i listen to music, i get all weird. So since i keep switching the genres of my music, expect some writing mood swings. Wait.. is there such a thing?

Disclaimer; don't own much. Just a pair of new vans. (:

This is a leedo after edwards death. I know... so sad.

bpov.

"I wanna tell you how much I love you"

Those lyrics ran through my head continuously. I did tell you. We didn't have enough time though. There's never enough time, is there? I imagined us. Being together until death had it's own thoughts. I imagined children, a couple of them being our own. I really wanted you to live. I'd do so much to keep your heart beating. So much to let you breathe again. I'd cut my own existence if that's what it took.

Edward, it's been three days. Come back to me. Please. I just need to hear your voice again. You were my best friend and you left me. How could you? You promised me that you'd always stay until i wanted you to leave. I don't want you to but you did. How could you have broken that promise, Eddie?

I know nothing last forever (An: now im listening to heard em say by Kanye W.) but really? Do you honestly have to go now? Why? You could've gone to college. Made an inevitable future. I wanted these things to be set in stone. If you weren't to have a future with me in it, at least i'd wanted you to be happy. I would want you to have a beautiful smart wife and kids. Successful with everything you put yourself to. If it wasn't me who was your companion, i wouldn't be mad. I just want you back. Could your... death... really be for a good reason? Is that just a saying that had no meaning? A saying that was used only to relax someone? Did you really have an honest reason to leave me -- No us behind?

Edward, i can't last. I'm upsetting everyone. I can't say your name without sobbing. Everyone want's to know what happened to you but i just can't create enough strength to speak. Since i haven't said anything, your parents along with the whole police force and more think you've gone missing. Everyones neglected me, Edward. Everyone. They think i'm to blame for this... incident.

My own father hasn't been concerned with me. For these past three days, i've been catatonic. I really haven't spoken in days. The only thing i've really had energy to do is cry. For days i'd cry thinking of the memories we've shared. I was almost better, Edward. I started thinking of the great memories and then i'd just come back to remembering how i couldn't create more of them with you. Charlie thinks I killed you. Me? killing You? I could never hurt you. Even if i tried, you'd be too strong for me to even make you say ow and mean it.

I finally stopped thinking about this. About Edward. About everything. An just before i knew it, my catatonic stage felt completely permanent. I felt my vision go black in despair.

An: I told you it was a really short chapter. I'm posting another one up later so no worries, k? Well, i hoped you liked. If not, tell meeeeee.
This really wasn't that emotional because i'm not good at making people cry. Well... in stories at least ;)
Oh well. Byeeee(: