AN: Haha, i updated twice in one day. This is another short chapter but i promise i'll make other chapters much longer -- if that's what you want. The shorter the chapters the more updates. That's only fair. Well, i'll stop talking. Thanks for reviewing and making me your favorites. (: The quote in italics is by Kate Winslet.

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I'm skipping a few months.. years. Nah' just one year. So that makes Bellllaaaa.. hm? I guess 18.

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bpov.

Loving someone is setting them free, letting go.

Why can't I just let go of everything? It's been so long. 13 months to be exact. I've been counting each and every waking day you're presence isn't around. I've concluded that the only person to show sympathy and compassion for me is Angela. A month after you were... dead, she came to my house and sat with me. She cried with me pleading that everything will presume back to normal. She tried so hard to make me happy again but always failed. She knew my pain after her boyfriend Ben died (an:in my story, ben died. sorry all ben fans.). Angela was honestly the only thing i cared for. The Cullens, The Hales, The Blacks, even my own father and other friends weren't of importance anymore. They didn't do anything to make me feel wanted. Angela had done so much. She came everyday, the same time (3:30PM) because i stopped going to school. Although this was the last year, i couldn't go anywhere Edward had been except my room. I can't even imagine all the pain i'd put Angela through. I told her sorry every time she came. The girl was a miracle. I would've died by now if she hadn't showed up. I promised her that as soon as i could function properly, i'd give her a token of gratitude. She deserved better from me.

Every time i'd be forced to go out of the house with Angela, Charlie would damn my presence. He'd always mutter about how it should've been my death because I killed Edward. It hurt me so much to hear him say those things to me. It would take even longer to get me through the door without breaking down. Angela tried her best and sometimes, she'd succeed. Today was one of those days i knew she'd force me.

We'd gone off to watch a movie.

"Angela, i'm sorry." I pleaded.

"Bella, look, i know how you feel. If you really wanted me to be happy, you'd stop saying that." She said, yanking my hand.

"Okay, i'll stop. Sorr- I mean er..."

"Haha, okay, look, i love you. Please just have fun and be strong for me. Kay? We're gonna watch some scary movies."

"Fine. But you'll understand if... anything happens to me, right?"

"Bella, i will. Just try today, for me. That's how i want you to pay me back."

I chuckled at that. "Hahaha, okay."

Angela froze, grasping my hand firmer.

"D-did you just laugh?!" She yelled.

"Yeah, i guess i did." I smiled. I hadn't laughed since .. No, i won't go back to that.

We both had a great time driving to Port Angeles. I even noticed my huge improvement. I knew Edward would want me to move on. If he couldn't live, the least i could do for him is to not keep my life so dull. He'd want me to be happy and this is what i was going to do for him. This was the least I could do.

This day made me realize how long i sulked for him. He knew i could be better. I will always love Edward but i had to lead my own life.

We finally made our way to the crowded theatre. We were buying tickets until I saw who was right next to us. She eyed me, giving a nasty stare. I wouldn't be fearful anymore. I'm done with being scared. I'm starting over. For Edward.

She kept looking at me, trying to think of an insulting response. Finally she opened her mouth, saying something offensive.

"Look who it is. The little bitch who killed my brother. No one wants you here, Swan. You've done enough damage. Edward wouldn't pity you -- Hahah, no wait, he DOESN'T pity you. Trust me on that."

I was so close to lunge at her. What's wrong with her?

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End of ch.
AN: Yeah, i know HORRIBLE cliff hanger. Can any of you guess who this is? Oh, ch. 2 had a foreshadow and this one does too. It's just little words that are helping.. well at least trying to help?

Well, i'll update again because i really need to get this story going. I know, it's kinda rubbish (I'm not even british :D) but bare with me, k?
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