Ryan was quiet on the way to Troy's house, he wasn't even sure why he had said yes in the first place it wasn't as though he had anything in common with the basketball Captain. Troy looked over at Ryan and smiled. "You okay?"

"Yeah... thanks for you know..."

"Don't worry about it, honestly." Troy smiled.

Ryan looked around Troy's living room as he walked in, the house was cosy and made him feel warm. It was perfectly tidy and the cushions on the sofa were fluffed and welcoming. He liked it but he couldn't help but compare it to Chad's. Chad's house was smaller and messier but it felt like home to him and he suddenly missed it.

"We can watch some films if you want." Troy suggested he could tell how awkward Ryan felt and he wasn't too sure why.

"Okay, cool yeah." Ryan smiled. Troy smiled at him and grabbed a few DVD's from the shelves in the living room and handed them to Ryan.

"You pick, I'll order us a pizza what toppings?" Ryan told him what he wanted and Troy headed to the kitchen. Ryan looked at the films and picked a comedy.

After an hour they were both sat watching the film laughing together as though they were best friends and eating pizza. The awkwardness Ryan had felt earlier had gone and it felt at ease.

"Do you want a beer?" Troy asked.

"Are you having one?" Ryan asked nervously.

"Yeah, I just fancy one. Want one?" Troy asked as he got up from the sofa. Ryan nodded without really thinking. When Troy came back to the the living room he had two bottles of beer in his hand, he handed one to Ryan who stared at it before taking a hesitant sip. It tasted horrible in his mouth but after a while the taste wasn't so bad.

"So is it true?" Troy asked.

"Is what true?" Ryan asked as he took another sip of his beer, he was surprised when he realised it was half empty already.

"You're feelings for Chad." Troy said bluntly.

Ryan instantly felt his cheeks burn crimson. How did Troy know? Then he groaned loudly, of course Sharpay must have told everyone by now. "It's okay, I mean... you can't help who you crush on can you?"

"I guess not." Ryan sighed.

"But you do know that Chad isn't gay right, nor is he bisexual." Troy reminded him.

"Yeah I know."

"He doesn't like you like that. He's just a caring person." Ryan felt his heart ache, he had always deep down knew that Chad could never and would never feel anything back for him, but it didn't mean that hearing it from Chad's best friend hadn't hurt.

"I know." Ryan mumbled.

"Do you want another beer?" Troy asked and Ryan nodded because the beer even though it was a little bitter did make him feel a bit better. Troy smiled and headed to the kitchen and Ryan downed the last of his beer his head spinning a little.

As the night progressed, Troy and Ryan were on their way to slowly getting very pissed. They had stopped watching films and were now just drinking for the fun of it, laughing together. "You should forget Chad." Troy slurred.

"Yeah..." Ryan said his voice a little distant.

"You need to find another distraction from the drug thing." Ryan giggled at how Troy had called it the drug thing. "I could be that distraction." Troy purred in Ryan's ear and kissed him on the cheek.

"Troy..."

"So what do you say?" Troy asked as he moved his lips down Ryan's neck, kissing him, biting, licking...

"Stop..." Ryan slurred, he made an effort to push Troy off him but the basketball captain was a lot stronger then he was and it seemed he wasn't half as drunk as him.

"Chad's probably out fucking a cheerleader right now, you know that right?" Troy said harshly as he ran his hands up and down Ryan's skinny frame. "We could have our own fun right now, and forget Chad and the drugs... just for tonight... you and me?"

-x-

Chad sat on his bed his head swimming with thoughts of Ryan. He wished he had the guts to tell him how he felt, but then what would happen? Would he come out to the whole school, his mum? His friends practically already knew but what about everyone else? Did Ryan even feel like that for him? Or was he just glad he had a friend to help him out. Once Ryan was better was he just going to up and leave?

Chad sighed loudly and turned on his bed, he stared over at the bed Ryan slept in. He wondered if Ryan was sleeping right now, he wondered if Troy had told him stories to help him sleep or if Troy was asleep and Ryan was doing what he was doing, thinking about him.

"I miss you, Ry." Chad mumbled.

-x-

Ryan felt sick. Troy was big and hard inside him and it hurt. His insides were twisted and his arms hurt from being pinned to the sofa. "Mm so tight Ry," Troy groaned as he pushed inside him. It felt good, if Ryan tried to ignore the burning pain inside him it felt good, but it wasn't what he wanted. Not really.

He wanted to forget Chad, forget the drugs and just be Ryan. But Ryan didn't sleep with Troy Bolton and he knew the only reason he was pinned to the sofa, legs wrapped around Troy's waist was because of the alcohol. He had just replaced the drugs with something else.

Troy was sloppy and Ryan always thought that the basketball captain would have had a lot more stamina, he was a selfish lover and once he came he pulled out of Ryan and then fell against him.

"We should go to the bedroom, beds comfier to sleep in." Troy said. Ryan didn't say anything, the alcohol in his system seemed to have left him and he just felt numb. He pulled on his boxers and his jeans and Troy just walked up stairs naked.

Ryan looked up at the stairs and then fell back on the sofa, he didn't want to see Troy right now. He didn't want to talk to him about what had happened, he just wanted to forget.

He just wanted Chad.