I know i only posted a chapter yesterday, but my computer has crashed and well i had a chance to get on the laptop today and didn't know when i would be able to post again so wrote a quick chapter today too. next update will probably be at the weekend depending if i can use the laptop as my pc has pretty much died on me :(

When Troy woke up he instantly felt sick. The beer in his system was looking for a way out and as he bent over the bed realising everything from his system he started to remember last night. Ryan underneath him, Ryan's body thrashing under him in protest, Ryan begging him to stop... That was enough to make Troy throw up more.

Troy headed downstairs once he had stopped throwing up but he was scared of what he'd find. He was relived when he saw that Ryan wasn't on the sofa where he vaguely remembered leaving him last night. His eyes started to water as he stared at the sofa. Ryan was never going to forgive him for this.

-x-

"Chad, I'm sorry." Ryan mumbled as Chad sat next to him. Ryan had fallen back to sleep and had woken up soon after.

"It wasn't your fault." Chad promised.

"I should have pushed him off more." Ryan mumbled. "Shouldn't have drunk the beer..."

"It wasn't your fault." Chad repeated louder this time.

"But..."

"No, Troy is sick for what he did to you. He... he is supposed to be my best friend why would he do that to me!"

"Chad it was me he did it to what are you talking about?"

Chad hadn't heard him he was still rambling to himself. "He knew how I felt about you and he... I'm going to kill him!" Chad got off the bed before Ryan even realised he was moving.

"Chad!" Ryan shouted and got off the bed too. He stood in front of Chad who hadn't really looked at him since Ryan told him what happened. Chad continued to move pulling on his trainers. Ryan grabbed hold of Chad's hand but the bigger boy was quick and pushed him away, his arm hitting him square in the face out of temper.

"Ry..." Chad said the impact on his fist had knocked him out of his senses and he stared at Ryan who was now crying with his hands covering the right side of his face where Chad had punched him. "oh my god, Ryan I'm so sorry." Chad moved closer to Ryan who moved back. Ryan stared at the floor his eyes watering with no control as his face stung.

"I'm sorry, Ry." Chad said softly before walking out of the bedroom, through his tears Ryan heard the click of the front door shutting.

-x-

Chad walked around the block his head was spinning. He had no idea what to do. He walked to the small park on the corner and sat on one of the swings, his legs kicking the air aimlessly as he got lost in his thoughts. Ryan was... Ryan was hurt because of him. Even though it was an accident he had still punched the already hurt boy he cared about so much. He stared at his knuckles, he knew he had hurt the blond boy as his knuckles were still stinging. But that didn't anger him as much as his best friend did. No Troy didn't anger him. He repulsed him.

Chad pushed harder on the swing and let his tears fall. His best friend had practically raped the boy he was crushing on. He knew he would have to have a long talk with Ryan but he was too scared. He had no idea what to say to him. And he had no idea what to say to Troy.

As though Ryan could hear his faults Chad's phone started to vibrate he picked it up and looked at the text he had received; Come home, please. Don't do anything stupid. Ry. X Chad pocketed his phone after sending a text saying he'd be home in a bit. He liked how Ryan called it home, Chad hoped that one day when everything was sorted out with his family that Ryan could still call it home. He didn't want the rich boy to go back to the simple life once everything was sorted, he didn't want to have a room on his own any more.

When Chad opened the front door he was instantly attacked by Ryan in a strong hug. It was clear from the state he was in that Ryan hadn't stopped crying since he had left and looking up at the clock Chad realised he had been gone for almost two hours. "Are you okay?" Ryan cried.

"I should be asking you that," Chad said pulling Ryan away at an arms length so he could look at the blond boys face. Ryan looked down to the floor and Chad lifted his chin up and stared in shock at the large bruise already forming over Ryan's eye. "I'm so sorry, Ry."

"Not your fault." Ryan insisted. Chad softly moved his finger against the bruise and Ryan leaned into the gentle touch.

"I'm sorry I hurt you." Chad whispered and hugged Ryan tighter. "I wont ever do it again." Ryan didn't say anything just held on tighter. "Are you hungry?" Ryan shook his head. "You haven't had anything to eat today, you need to eat."

"Don't want to, I feel sick." Ryan said quietly.

"It will help, I promise." Chad said he held out his hand which Ryan took nervously. "I'll make us both something and then we can talk, yeah?" Ryan nodded his head, though he was scared about what they were going to talk about.