I am so sorry. I've been wanting to update for ages but I got a new job and so things have just been so hectic.

Jesse stormed out the theatre. She had been pretending like she actually cared about him. She had said the same words as when he had appeared in her Junior year, except this time she had said it in a vulnerable tone, but still it must all just be an act, she doesn't really care for him, she never did.

'Jesse, wait! Jesse!' Rachel called as she ran after him through the busy streets of New York, not even caring about the rain.

'Why, Rach? Why do you always act like you care about me and then leave me for some other guy?'

'Because it's easier than being with you. If you chose to you could hurt me so much more than any of them. You know everything about me and I just- I just, I can't stay away from you, but I always seem to hurt you.'

'Well I'm seeing someone else at the moment,' he said coldly.

Rachel stopped chasing Jesse, wondering how things could've gone so wrong and why he no longer loved her. She had been sure that their old spark was still there, that they could be just as in love, if not more so than before and yet the way he had spoken to her just then said differently.

Jesse wanted to turn around and chase after Rachel, take her into his arms and never let her go, but he needed to know that she wasn't just going to use him to get back at Brody.

Later that day….

Jesse opened his apartment door to find Kurt standing there.

'I didn't even know that you knew where I live.' He stated raising an eyebrow as he did so.

'Well whilst Rachel and you have only been talking to each other at rehearsals, I've been making new friends, friends that know where you live, where you like to eat, and hang out.' He paused before carefully continuing, 'she told me what happened earlier.'

'Look I don't want to talk about it, I just want some rest before opening night tonight.'

'Just listen for a minute.' Jesse didn't say anything so Kurt took it as a cue to continue. 'She didn't tell you why Brody and her broke up did she?'

'Yes she did, she told me that he proposed and when she said no he left her.'

'Well, actually he proposed and she did say no which he wasn't too happy about, but they actually got into a fight.'

-Flashback-

'No one will ever love you like I do.'

'You only ever want my help with your music, it's never been about spending time with me has it Brody, besides I had love once, real love and this pales in comparison.'

'This is about Jesse isn't it.'

'Well I'll have you know that yes he is the one that I used to love, but that is over now, and will never be again.'

'Pffft, what's so special about him anyway. He's an ok actor and a mediocre singer.'

'That's exactly why he beat you for the lead role isn't it.'

'The director was just biased that's all.'

'No, he wasn't , the director is very fair.'

'Well if you're so in love with Jesse why don't you just date him instead of me.'

'I think I will. I should have broken up with you 2 years ago, you never really loved me for me, it was always me changing things to suit you.'

'Fine as if I need you anyway. I can do much better.'

- End of flashback -

Jesse sat back stunned at the news he had just heard Kurt was telling him that Rachel had left someone else for him. He allowed himself a tiny bit of hope as he entertained the possibility that maybe she does love him, and maybe just maybe at least some of it was real.

Jesse walked to his music room intent on letting out at least some of the emotions that he was now feeling, and as easily as breathing the music flowed out.

Still framed photographs of you and me together

Is all I have of me and you anymore

We were so in love and we thought it'd last forever

But in the storm, we were torn

The storm was just an oversized, low IQ boy with no talent known as Finn Hudson, he thought bitterly.

And I won't forget you

I don't regret you

But the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you

And I wonder why we both walked away

I've tried without you

Cried about you

Now turn around, come back, so I don't dream without you

And I promise I will make you want to stay

I want her like I want to breathe, I don't think I can live properly without her.

I'm digging deep to find a way that we can both be

Wrapped up in each other's arms for one more day

We've had our time to think we're still feeling empty

When you say that you won't stay

And I won't forget you

I don't regret you

But the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you

And I wonder why we both walked away

I've tried without you

Cried about you

Now turn around, come back, so I don't dream without you

And I promise I will make you want to stay

I'm sorry for all I did

What I said

And the things I hid

I'm finally over me

The past is through

I can't imagine where I'd be

If you had never rescued me

You gave me hope to live, now I need you

'Cause I need you now

She saved me from the state I used to live in where everything was done to further myself. The cold world without feelings that I never thought would change.

And I won't forget you

I don't regret you

But the hardest thing I have to do is live without you

And I wonder why we both walked away

I've tried without you

Cried about you

Now turn around, come back, so I don't dream without you

And I promise I will make you want to stay

'Well I would say it's obvious how you feel about her, so what are you going to do about it?'