Rachel watched Jesse walk into rehearsal the next day with a familiar blonde girl and felt her heart break. He walked up the director to ask something and then next thing she knew the director was calling for a change in plans.
'Take five everyone whilst I figure something out,' he announced much to Rachel's annoyance.
'Why am I so annoyed, he told me that he was seeing someone else.'
This felt exactly like the first time when he had said goodbye.
-Flashback-
She heard footsteps behind her and turned to ask them to leave stopping only when she saw it was Jesse.
'Yes?' she asked raising her eyebrows.
'Rach, just let me explain.'
'Why? How could you do that? Nothing you say is going to make it better.'
'I have to at least try and explain.'
'Fine.' She said narrowing her eyes at him. 'I'm listening.'
'I never wanted to hurt you Rach, I was stupid, and I got caught up with the rest of the choir. I have to win this year to have the best chance at getting into NYADA and I cannot do that with New Directions.'
'You still hurt me though Jesse. I think you should leave, Noah and Finn want to hurt you.'
Jesse felt his heart breaking when she mentioned Finn and so held out his arms to hug her one last time not wanting to let go. He held on until she finally broke the hug took one last look at him and walked away trying not to cry.
-End of Flashback-
'No I won't think about that.' She thought to herself, I'll just sing instead.
She snuck out of rehearsal into the abandoned theatre nearby without realizing that Jesse was not far behind.
Sung:thoughts
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
I made so many bad choices when I chose Finn over Jesse and then when I dated Brody. I've hurt him so much.
Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh
No matter who he dates I'm always going to have these feelings for him and so I'm going to continue to get hurt over and over again.
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
Whoa: No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
No matter how much it hurts I'm going to be happy for him because that's what friends do.
Jesse could see the tears in her eyes and just wanted to reach out and make it all better but knowing that he couldn't right at that moment he snuck out of the theatre leaving her by herself alone on the stage.