*sigh*
DATE AND TIME: AUGUST 3RD, 11:40
POV: Kaoru
I lie in bed, going over in my mind my confession to Hikaru.
I could still hear his words, fresh in my mind.
"I'm sorry."
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
The words echoed. I wanted to cover my ears, but instead I let the words absorb me, fill me.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I held myself tightly.
Maybe if I did this, I wouldn't fall apart.
I hear the bedroom door open and I quickly shut my eyes, steadying my breath to make it look as if I was sleeping. I recognize his footsteps as he went about the room, opening and closing drawers, the rustling of cloth.
As he walks back to the bedroom door to leave, I get the nerve to call out to him.
"Leaving?" I ask, whispering so my voice wasn't noticeably shaking. I don't look at him, choosing to face the wall. I don't know how I'd react if I did look.
"Y-yeah." Hikaru whispers. He sounds like a kid who just got caught stealing.
"For how long?"
"It's none of your business, Kaoru!" he shouts, breaking through the quiet air. I squeeze my eyes shut.
"I'm...sorry." he sighs. There are those words again. "I don't know when I'll be back."
I hold my breath, letting the silence go on for a moment.
"...Okay. Goodbye then." I whisper.
He takes a step.
"I love you." I add, a small hope in my chest.
Maybe he'll turn around. Maybe he'll respond to me.
He runs.
I hear his heavy foot steps down the stairs and the slam of the front door.
I let the tears run down my cheeks silently.
I hold myself tightly.
But I still felt myself falling apart.