Thanks a lot for the reviews, I really do love getting them, they're so fun to read! This chapter isn't the longest (it's one of only 3 chapters under 1000 words, dun dun duuuh, lol), but I hope you enjoy it anyway.
Disclaimer: I don't own Skins...if I did season 3 cast would be in it forever and ever.
The door closed behind her and she felt a sense of freedom mixed with a new hope for the future. She had just finished her last counselling session and she felt clearer than she ever had before. It felt easy to talk to Maria, she had welcomed her openly and even though it was her job she actually seemed like she really cared about what she was saying. It was easy to tell her about Naomi, about her sexuality. She didn't feel judged and Maria didn't feel threatened by it. It was weird to think that it was easier to spill her heart out to a stranger than to friends and family. But that was what her counselling sessions were like.
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That final session she had talked about what she was going to do next with her life and they'd created an action plan setting out the things she wanted to do and a timescale to complete them. The first thing on the list was university; after Naomi talked about it, she decided she had to make some decisions about her future. She had never completed the application. It was late in the day for applying but Emily had decided to do it. She probably wouldn't get her first choices, as the most popular would have been filled up months ago. But she didn't care if it was the best course or the best uni, she just wanted to do something to move forwards with her life and the first step was getting a good education. Her other first step was to finally settle the score with Naomi. She'd tried to talk to Emily, tried to have a conversation where they could really talk and both times Emily had turned her away. It was the right thing at that time, but Emily needed to sit down with her properly and be honest with her feelings, to tell Naomi exactly what she felt. Most importantly to let them both move on with their lives knowing that they wouldn't be holding each other back.
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More than anything Emily wanted to stop taking pills, to stop feeling controlled emotions. They were getting better, she could finally feel anger and hurt, but she didn't feel them fully. She wanted to feel...something that was hers and not something that was held back by drugs.
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Katie stood up and hugged her sister, congratulating her on completing her counselling. Emily found the whole thing amusing since Katie had commented on how crazy it made everyone think she was. Emily had a sneaking suspicion that their mum had played a part in Katie's comment. It didn't matter where it came from though, because Emily felt like it was a job well done and that the congratulations was appreciated.
"Wanna go get some lunch?" Katie asked as they walked out of the clinic.
"No," Emily answered abruptly without even thinking. Katie looked upset so Emily re-evaluated her answer and tried again.
"I want to, but I have to do something first, can I meet you in a couple of hours?"
"You're not going seeing her, are you?" she asked, the emphasis on her making it apparent who. Emily nodded.
"How can you do that?" she looked flabbergasted. "Do you have a short memory or something? She put you in this place."
"So much happened between us and I need to make a few things clear, every time we talked one of us was angrier than the other. Now that I'm feeling better, I need to do this, I need to know that I've done everything I can to deal with the situation."
"The situation is over,"
"No, it's not, not while Naomi still thinks she can win me back."
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Katie begrudgingly let her go. She wished that one day Katie would just accept her choices and let her make mistakes of her own, instead of feeling the need to protect her at all costs. Emily was thankful for Katie's protectiveness, it was nice at times to feel that someone was out there constantly watching your back. But other times it was stifling. Emily remembered the conversation she'd had with Maria a couple of sessions previous. She'd told her that people who were protective just wanted to feel useful and part of the life of the person they were protecting. Emily knew that since before Naomi had come along, she'd been pulling away from her sister, trying to break the invisible rope that held them together constantly. Katie didn't. She carried on going at full speed, pulling Emily along with her. They had a tug of war going on from time to time, but now Emily was still pulling in the direction away from Katie, with the rope growing every time she pulled away. Sometimes she had to remember to pull herself back in and give Katie what she needed to feel wanted.
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