I got side tracked, and instead of finishing the chapter I planned, I've written this. (Though, i will definitly have that chapter!) He he :3 Enjoy!

DATE AND TIME: AUGUST 4TH, 12:00 pm

POV: Hikaru

I had left the school after my meet with Kyoya.

With so much confusion in my mind, how was I supposed to do my job as a host? I sigh, leaning my head on my hands and gazing out of the window as buildings and trees whizzed past. Luckily, my complaining about a headache had gotten me sent home.

I am lost in thought.

I had kissed Kyoya and it had felt all wrong, not at all like the time I'd kissed him before.

My heart didn't race when I saw him.

I felt nothing.

Nothing but confusion, that is. I sigh again.

"Young master, are you doing alright?" The driver asks, flicking his eyes to the rear view mirror. I shrug, rubbing my temples in false pain, grimacing slightly to add to the I-have-a-headache effect.

As the car comes to a stop in front of my house, I jump out, grabbing my bag, and bounding through the front door. A maid jumps in surprise, dropping the dusting rag she had in hand.

"Young master, where have you been?" She asks, eyes scolding me.

"I have a headache." I snap. "I'll be in my room resting."

She says something else but I ignore her, running up the staircase and throwing open my bedroom door.

Someone yelps in surprise, and my eyes take in the sight of Kaoru, still in his pajamas, playing a video game.

"What the hell are you doing here?!" I shout, mostly in shock than in anger, though my heart aches seeing him. He looked terrible, dark shadows under his eyes, wrapped up in a quilt, his hair going in every direction.

"I'm taking a day off." he replies curtly, avoiding my gaze. "What are YOU doing here?" he asks accusingly.

At the sound of his voice, my heart pounds.

"I-I have a headache." I mutter, making my way to the farthest side of the bed, trying to get as far from him as possible.

He pays no attention to me, continuing his game, sitting in a black beanbag chair, his back to me. I stare at him, the tension in the air heavy.

I want to touch him.

The thought comes without warning but with it, I can't stop the images from flickering in my mind.

My hands through his hair.

My lips on his neck.

My arms wrapped tightly around him.

I look away, turning so my back is facing him. I pull the blanket over me, tugging it close, as if I am freezing, though my body feels so hot.

I clutch the blanket closer. I couldn't be thinking of my brother this way. It was wrong. And...Kyoya..was the one..

I grimace, knowing I was only lying to myself, but refusing to give up on my feelings. I knew I loved Kaoru, more than anyone.

...

I mean...Kyoya.

I mentally kick myself. What the hell was wrong with me?!

I close my eyes, trying to force sleep to take over. I am unable to rest fully with Kaoru in the room, but finally, I doze off...

And awaken minutes later by a movement on the mattress. I keep my eyes shut, pretending to still be asleep.

"Hikaru..." Kaoru's voice, closer than I had expected it to be. "Are you awake?"

I don't respond, trying to make my breaths more even.

"Hikaru, I just.." He swallows. "I'm sorry. For confessing to you. I shouldn't have, I knew, but I couldn't help it." He sighs, frustrated. "I wanted so much to be yours...for you to hold me in your arms...to kiss me.."

His breathes begin to shudder, and I know he's crying. God, I hated when he cried.

"To kiss me...like you loved..me...as a...lover...not..not a b-brother.." he sobs quietly. He is silent for a moment and his breathing begins to even out again.

"I want to run my fingers through your hair...and I want to touch you...all over...and I want...to..to..feel you inside..of me.." He moans but I hear him clamp a hand over his mouth. My heart is beating so loudly, I am afraid Kaoru might hear and my body..is so hot..I'm afraid he might feel the temperature.

That urge to touch was so strong, I could barely stand it.

I hear him as he moves away from me, off the bed and towards the bedroom door, opening it. I hold the blanket closer to me.

"Hikaru, I love you." he says, so sensually..

It was the last straw.

(authors note: graphic images ahead! skip to the next line to skip this scene!)

"Wait!" I shout, throwing the blanket from me and almost running towards him. I'm on him in a second, lips meeting his urgently, the door slamming shut as I push him against it.

I knew in the back of my mind, I needed to stop, but I couldn't. I can't get enough of his taste, his lips, so familiar, so welcoming.

My tongue forces its way into Kaoru's mouth, and in a moment, his tongue is dancing with mine. I feel Kaoru as his hands travel up my shirt, feeling my stomach, my chest, my back, his touch eager. I move my lips from his to his neck to breath, traveling up and down, tasting the salt on his skin.

His touch moves from my stomach, lower, towards my waist, and past that. He clutches my groin through my jeans, and I groan. I look at his eyes, the want almost identical to mine. I kiss him again, pulling him back towards the bed.

As I fall back on the soft mattress, Kaoru doesn't hesitate, my clothes are off in an instant, and, unable to contain myself, I remove his as well. He jumps on me, meeting my lips with hunger, bare skin rubbing against mine.

He kisses my neck, sending shivers down my spine, then down, my chest, my stomach, then, even lower. He takes me in his hands, not hesitating any bit as he brings his lips over my hard-on, sucking, and bobbing his head up and down on it.

I moan in pure ecstasy, a shiver of pleasure running through my entire body.

"W-wait..." I hear myself saying. Kaoru does as he is told. "Let me...do it to you instead..." I watch as his face turns a bright red. I pull him back up to my lips, kissing him gently, and then rolling him around so I was the one on top. I kiss his chin, his shoulder, his chest. I stop to bite his nipple slightly, and he half moans, half gasps, in shock.

I grin to myself, and then trail my kisses lower, then lower. I hesitate, not really knowing what to do, deciding to do what Kaoru had done, I take him in my hands. He was hard. Really hard. I lick up his shaft, wanting to tease him slightly, for the fun of it.

"A-ah...Hi-Hikaru..please.."

I kiss his tip teasing it with my tongue, when, suddenly, he bucks his hips up, ramming himself into my mouth. I gag as he hits the back of my throat, and try to move away, but he clutches my hair, keeping me in place as he continues to thrust into my mouth, groaning.

He tenses up, and hot liquid streams into my mouth. I swallow the salty liquid, pissed off.

"What the hell, Kaoru!" I shout, face steaming at with embarrassment. He looks at me with puppy like eyes.

"I'm sorry. I just couldn't hold back any longer.." he explains. I calm down.

"Well, that's okay.." I whisper. I take two fingers and stick them in my mouth. This part, I had done some research on. "I will just have to..." I push his legs back, exposing his ass. "...pleasure myself." I jam both fingers into him, making sure I stretched him out just enough.

"A-h-wait...wait..stop...Hika..."

I couldn't wait. I remove my fingers and shove myself into Kaoru, moving my hips roughly against him. He whimpers, and moans with more pain at first, but then slowly with pleasure. Looking at his lewd expression only made me thrust harder, faster.

I rock into him, feeling myself coming to a climax. I moan, cumming inside of him as he tightens around me. Breathing hard, I remove myself from him, surprised to find that Kaoru had come again. He reaches up and smashes my lips to his.

"I love you." He says when he releases me. I panic.

"I-I..um.."

"It's alright." Kaoru smiles lovingly at me. "You don't have to say it back. Not until you're sure. Until you're ready to." I grimace. How could I have sex with him but not be able to say such simple words like 'I love you too'?

"Um, we should probably..clean up.." I say, realizing the mess we've made of ourselves.

"Do you want to shower with me?" Kaoru laughs. I glare at him, embarrassed, but I nod slightly.

He smiles widely, and I can't help but to kiss him once more.