Writings and ideas of 11 year old me…
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Chapter 5: The Confusion, and the Confession?
After about 2 minutes, he finally arrived at Agasa's house. As soon as he reached there, he hurriedly opened the door, left his skateboard on one corner of the wall, and found Professor Agasa with the passed out Haibara lying on the sofa.
"Agasa! Tell me!! What exactly happened here??!!", Conan yelled apprehensively.
Agasa replied in a perplexed tone, "Um…well, you see Shinichi, I also don't know what really went down. I was just walking outside of her room while drinking a cup of coffee, and, I had already passed her room, but still, something was giving me a bad feeling, and so, I turned around just incase. Her room was half opened, so, I just peeped incase something wasn't right, then, that's where I found Haibara- san's unconscious body on the floor."
Conan replied with great disappointment, "I see." When Conan was about to get near the weak Haibara lying on the sofa, Agasa stopped him first and said, "Um…Shinichi, there is something important that you should know." "Huh? What is it, professor?", Conan asked with curiosity. Agasa answered, "Well, when Haibara was unconscious a while ago, right before I had talked to Ran- kun, she…she was somewhat delirious. She was calling out someone's name."
Conan asked with curiousness, "What??!!! Whose name did she call out?" Agasa mumbled and replied, "Well, um…..um…..she….she called out….um….a…a…..y…y….your n…n…na…name!!!" Conan, with great shock asked, "H…h…how? Why??!!!! Haibara." Agasa responded, "I, too, was shocked when I had heard her call. She was shouting- Kudo!!! Kudo!! Help me!!! And, she also said something at that time which will give you great stun."
Conan asked with unease, "Wha…what?" Agasa retorted, "She…um….she…said that she loved you. She said that she loved you so much!!!" Conan with great surprise questioned, "Haibara? But…why?" Agasa said, "Well, I guess that is the thing that has been adding to her pain. I think it is that pain when every time you asked her what was wrong, she would just say that it was nothing. I think that she had loved you ever since she met you. She just couldn't get to tell you even though you were friends. It is because she knew that you love Ran and she didn't want to cause confusion for you. She just kept it deep down to herself."
Conan's face reddened. He was indeed with great confusion. He mumbled, "I should have known. I should have known from the start that she loves me because of the way that she acts around me, and whenever she tell me about her true feelings but at the end just turns it into a joke, all of those were already signs!!! I am a great fool! Baka dayone atashi!!? Baka dayone, hakase? I am no detective!! The greatest mystery was right beside me, and yet, I wasn't able to find out the truth!! I am not a real Sherlock! And also, I have also hurt Shiho's feelings. But, what is it that I can do? My heart truly belongs to Ran and I don't think that I can replace her with anyone, not even Shiho. She is a good person and I care for her too much, but not as much as how I feel about Ran. I am very sure with my feelings and I don't think that it would ever change. I think we would just remain good friends. "
Conan was disappointed because he wasn't able to find out a great mystery and had hurt her feelings. He was filled with confusion. But, he had to ignore his feelings and go take care of Haibara's feelings instead. Agasa looked so sad for Shinichi. Agasa advised, "You know, Shinichi, you and Ran have been close for a long time and she loves you as you love her dearly. I think that relationship can never be changed no matter how much obstacles you two encounter, and I think it is the same with Shiho. She loves you very much that even though you love Ran and not her, she still loves you. And the best quality of Haibara is that in spite of her hardships, she does not become envious or angry towards Ran or steal you away from her. Instead, she even tries to make friends with her and try to make temporary APTX antidotes for you so that you can talk to Ran in your true form in times. That shows that she really is an understanding person. You don't really have to show affection toward her, but, instead, just show her that you are a friend who cares. Who knows, maybe someday you, Shiho and Ran will be a good group of friends including that Naniwa high school detective and his girlfriend, Hakuba Saguru, the detective who currently lives in London and even the bubbly Sonoko. Maybe all you teenagers could even be a group of best friends."
"You are very right, hakase. Shiho and the others could most likely be my close friends someday. But, Haibara looks so pretty right now while she is sleeping. She seems to be irresistible. And, if right now, she is already pretty, then she would be ten times prettier in her real age of 18, like me. What should I do hakase, maybe, just maybe that I might actually fall in love with Shiho? She is so beautiful and so smart. She has such tough personality and so brave as well, unlike Ran, sort of childish. Ran is cute and humorous while Shiho is beautiful and mature. What shall I do hakase? I have never experienced this kind of confusion before. I always thought that Ran is the only person for me, but, now, there is another. Arrrgh!!! Darn!! I am so confused!! I just said to you that I can never change my feelings for Ran, but, now I am blurting out to you that I might love Shiho instead!? You must think I am a great fool. I can't think straight!!! I mean, Shiho is not a bad person….but…but Ran is….a…an…angel?? I always thought of her that way ever since we were kids….an angel. She was the brightest angel in me….I…..I…..Darn!!!!! I don't know what to think anymore!!! Arghhhh!!!!!"
Agasa smiled at him and commented, "No, Shinichi. You are not a fool. Everyone gets confused sometimes, even great tanteis like you! Well, I don't know who the one for you should be. However, all I can comment to you is to choose the one who needs you more and who completes you more."
Shinichi, upon hearing those words seep into his very ears, smiled and said, "Well, if that is so hakase, I think I know who it is. Who is it the one for me. Her description fit yours perfectly. However, what about the other?", he asks turning confused once more. Agasa smirked and retorted, "Well, just follow you heart, Shinichi!!!" Suddenly, Haibara deliriously murmured, "Ku…kudo- kun! Shin…Shin….Shinichi!!! I am sorry!" Her eyes began to form tears again. Conan sat beside her.
He used his hands to gently wipe her tears. Haibara slowly opened her eyes. She noticed that Conan was gently holding her face. She blushed and spoke softly and questioned him, "K...kudo? What happened?" She was too weak to be able to move.