I woke up not feeling well. I went to the bathroom and vomited. I kept seeing his face, Mizuki's. I had killed him yesterday and the guilt was finally kicking in. It felt horrible. He tormented me all night scream and covering my hand with his blood calling me a demon. I washed my hands but I knew they would never be fully cleaned again. It will always be stained with blood. I left the house after I put on my clothes, not bothering to eat breakfast, not trusting myself enough to keep it down.
I was up all night, not being able to close my eyes without seeing Mizuki with a kunai in his chest and my hands covered in his blood. He would call me a demon every singe time right before he drew his last breath. So I stop trying to sleep. This is the reason why I'm starving with bags under my eyes. But I still refuse to eat.
I knew the emotions I was feeling was only human but damn did it really have to feel this bad. I'm a ninja so I was 100 percent sure that this was far from my last time killing someone. Was I going to feel this way every time I killed someone, that didn't bode well with me. I had took Mizuki's future away, all of his dreams, even if they were all bad. His heart would never beat again, nor will his lung drag breath. It was a lot to take in when you thought about it deeply.
"Get over it wimp. It was him or you", I thought to myself, but it didn't make me feel any better. I hated this down and vulnerable feeling I was having. It made me feel weak and that was bad. I'm a survivor, I've been alone by myself since I was a kid. I didn't get to play and enjoy my childhood like normal children. I didn't have any friends and lived by myself in a lonely apartment without adult supervision.
I had to mature faster than most kids. Living in my life meant I couldn't be weak or I'd be dead a long time ago. I walked inside my classroom while everyone was talking. They didn't spare me a glance, well everyone except Hinata did anyway. I walked to the back of the class and sat down. Everyone was talking about who they wanted on their team or what they thought or wanted their jonin sensei to be like.
After five minutes of conversation Iruka sensei walked in the classroom which made everyone quiet, which was surprising since he normally had to yell at them first. "Okay since I said this yesterday ill make it short this time."
" There's a first time for everything I suppose."
"As of yesterday you guys became official genin of konoha", said Iruka as he got some cheers from the class. "But remember that you are still the lowest rank. You all have dreams and ambitions that you want to fulfill. Train hard and accomplish those dreams and don't slack off unless you want die that's all."
"Okay so listen up for your names, Ill be telling you what the teams are right now. Team one will be..." I sat there patiently waiting for my name to be called. I wasn't interested in who the teams said so far consisted of. They were nothing special. The only thing that interested me was the names of the jonin sensei. "Team seven will consist of Uzumaki Naruto", I listen closely slightly interested in who I was going to get stuck with. "Uchiha Sasuke", Iruka continued. "And Yamanaka Ino."
I clogged my ears with my fingers, predicting the incoming scream that did come from Ino's mouth. "AHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm on Sasuke-kun's team. Take that for-head."
"IRUKA SENSEI WHY IS INO-PIG ON SASUKE-KUN'S TEAM AND NOT ME", Sakura screamed. Saying Sakura screamed as loud as a banshee is a bit of an understatement if you ask me. I'm pretty sure she was louder.
"Sakura the hokage is the one who made the teams so if you have a problem take it up with him", said Iruka clearly annoyed with the pink haired girl.
"See even the hokage thinks me and Sasuke-kun are meant to be for-head", Ino said giving Sakura the loser sign while sticking her tongue out.
What the hell, like seriously what the fucking hell was the old man thinking. This is enough prove to show that the old man was losing his mind in his old age. I mean he just put a Sasuke fan girl on the same team as Sasuke. That was a bad idea, a really bad one. Fan girls didn't listen to reason and were totally delusional. I mean some of them change but the percentage of fan girls that change are EXTREMLY LOW. This team wasn't going to work. More or less the duck ass Uchiha wouldn't want to work together thinking that he's better than me and a fan girl would only help to boost his ego agreeing with him all the way.
I was blowing a fuse on the inside but on the outside it appeared as though I was nonchalant. This day really couldn't get any worse. I put my head down sulking about my team when jonin sensei's started to pick up there teams after Iruka finished announcing the teams. My team was the only team left in the room. In fact were the only people left in the academy. Seeing as our sensei, who Iruka forgot to tell us the name of because of Ino's and Sakura's interruption was late. I decided to get some long over due shut eye. Hopefully it would work this time.
THREE HOUR LATER
Three hours later I woke up still feeling like crap. It was just that this crap was actually willing to eat, throwing up be damned. I was woken up by the sound of the door opening. Our sensei had finally arrived. Naturally I would be mad but his tardiness if you could even call it that, I mean who shows up three hours late for something. Anyway him being late got me some time to sleep so I guess we could call it even.
Our sensei was tall. He had white gravity defying hair. He was wearing a long sleeved navy blue shirt with a green jonin vest over it. He wore the same color pants and wore standard shinobi sandals like mine that of course was navy blue. He had a mask covering his mouth with his head band covering his left eye. The mask and head band were navy blue. Ino blew a fuse and screamed, "Your three fucking hours late." I couldn't blame her for that one, I mean who wouldn't be pissed at a person who showed up three hours late for something.
"Yo, meet me on the roof", he said ignoring Ino's out burst before disappearing in a puff of smoke. We took the stairs up to the roof before we saw or sensei reading an orange book that was called icha, icha paradise.
"Okay how about we introduce our selves", said the jonin with an eye smile.
"How about you go first sensei", suggested Ino in a bitter sweet tone.
"Okay I'm Kakashi Hatake, my likes are, well your too young to know about my likes", I rolled my eyes. I knew what Icha, Icha paradise was. This is a prime example of how they train us to be killers but treat us like children. "Well I don't have many dislikes, and well dreams for the future hmmm, never thought about it", finished the now dubbed Kakashi with another eye smile.
"Wow typical jonin being all secretive even if we are allies", I thought.
"Okay your up blonde", said Kakashi.
"Which one", Me and Ino said at the same time.
"The one who's molesting the Uchiha." I laughed at Kakashi's joke but Ino gave him a scowl.
"My name is Ino Yamanaka. I like my parent, working at my flower shop and Sasuke-kun. I dislike perverts, for-head aka Sakura, and Naruto-baka. My dreams for the future is to become a powerful kunoichi and I also want to be the leader of my clan." Kakashi sighed, he had gotten a fan girl, but she had some potential to change or at least he hoped so. You can never know with fan girls.
"Okay, how about you go duck ass." I was glad to see that I wasn't the only person to notice that the uchiha's hair style was shape like a duck's ass.
"My name is Sasuke Uchiha", Sasuke said with a glare at Kakashi who only eye smiled at him. "I don't like a lot of thing and I hate most things. I have a dream, no its an ambition to kill a certain man and restore my clans honor."
"And last person to introduce themselves is you blonde who is my favorite student so far."
"Or soon to be student", thought Kakashi.
"My name is Naruto Uzumaki. I like ramen and the owner of the ramen stand. I also like his daughter. I also like the old man hokage. I hate most of the people in konoha and the three minutes it take for ramen to cook. My dreams for the future is to find out who my parents were."
"He's an interesting one, sensei's son."
"Okay now that we have all introduced ourselves how about we get down to business. Tomorrow there's a survival exercise that you guys will do. Before you ask any questions let me finish", Kakashi said seeing Ino ready to shout. "This test will decided if you truly become a genin. The bad part is that this test has a sixty six percent rate of failure." Ino raised her hand and Kakashi pointed at her.
"So what was the test in the academy for?"
"The academy test was to weed out the little failures who had zero chance of passing this test and becoming a ninja", said Kakashi with an eye smile while Sasuke, Naruto, and Ino sweat dropped. "Meet me at training ground seven tomorrow at 8:00 am and you might not want to eat breakfast or you'll throw up, bye", Kakashi said while he disappeared is a puff of smoke once more.
Since the meeting was over I left heading towards the hokage tower when Ino called my name. "Where are you going Naruto."
"What do you want Ino", I said not even trying to hide the fact that I was annoyed. She ran up to me and whispered in my ear oblivious to the fact that her chest was pressing against my hand.
"Play along so I can get Sasuke to go out with me." I rolled my eyes but before I could reject her she was already with Sasuke. "Sasuke-kun now that were on the same team I thought it would be cool if we got some lunch so we can get to know each other. Don't you agree Naruto?" I didn't even bother to answer her and just starting walking away. "Wait Naruto get back here. No Sasuke-kun don't leave, awwww. Naruto-baka you messed everything up. STOP IGNORING ME YOU IDIOT".
I couldn't help but laugh at how Ino was raging as I walked away. Anyway I ran to the hokage tower to quickly get away from the raging bitch. I walked inside the building before going up all those flipping stairs until I was finally in front of the old man's office door. I knock on the door twice before I heard a muffled "Come in", from the inside. I opened the door and walked in.
"Hello Naruto", said the hokage. I saw how he look at me in concern, I still had bags underneath my eyes and all.
"Hi old man." I could feel how awkward this conversation was. The hokage was struggling to find a way to start a conversation telling a teenager why the whole village hated his gut since he was born and wanted him dead. It wasn't the easiest conversation to start you know. After two minutes of silence we finally started. "How about we just cut to the chase", I suggested.
"Great idea. Do you want the short version or long one?"
"Short would be good."
"Okay so basically the fourth hokage wasn't strong enough to beat the nine tail fox so he seal it into a new born baby that was you and the village see you as the Kyuubi."
"Really this is the shit I've waited all my life to figure out. I'm actually pissed that I didn't figure this out myself", I thought while I mentally punched myself.
"Well that's something I guess. So like who are my parents and don't tell me you don't know who they are because I know you do."
"Sigh. Fine but I'm only telling you who your mother is." I shrugged my shoulders.
"Better than nothing."
"Your mom is Kushina Uzumaki former jonin of Konoha. She retired when she was pregnant with you so she could spend time with you, but your father remained a ninja. She was the former Jinchuriki of the Kyuubi also. She died the day it attacked." I smirked not only because I got information about my mom but also because I figured out who my dad was.
"I Don't have a picture of her but you should be able to see the picture she took when she became a ninja."
"Okay that's cool" I felt good and proud of the fact that I was the son of a legendary ninja and a small part of me wanted to rub it in people faces but that would be a bad idea since the hokage has tried keeping it secret for so long. That and iwa would probably have me killed before I could blink. My dad was the fourth hokage. I figured it out because 1 the old man was willing to give me my mom's identity but not me dad's which meant that he was an important person that everyone would know. 2 because I look like him, have blond hair and I'm not from the Yamanaka clan and 3 because he choose me to seal the Kyuubi inside of.
"Thanks old man I feel ten times better know who my parents are than I did not knowing."
"Your welcome Naruto."
"Okay see ya later old man."
"Bye Naruto", said the old hokage. Ten minutes later. "Wait did he just say parents. nah couldn't have", Thought the old kage as he went back to completing his paper work.
After talking with the hokage I sprinted towards Ichiraku Ramen refusing to deny my hunger any longer. "How's it going Naruto", said Teuchi as I walked in.
"Everything's great", I said with a large smile on my face.
"What can I get you today?"
"Glad you asked ummm can I get five bowls of miso ramen, five beef ramen, five pork ramen, and five chicken ramen please. Teuchi chuckled.
"Coming right up." It was almost torture when I smelted the ramen being cooked but knew I still had to wait to devourer it. Luckily Ayame came in and made some conversation with me. It made the wait somewhat easier.
"So how's life Naruto-kun."
"Huh, oh everything good. Graduated from the academy recently and I was place on a team with the Uchiha and one of his fan girls. Well I guess things could be better but you know I've had to deal with worse."
"Well that's good to hear." Teuchi came in with a tray that had ten bowls of ramen on it, five miso, and five beef.
"Here you go", He said as he place the tray in front of me. I grab my chops stick, put my hands together and gave thanks.
"Thank you for the meal." I dug in. I broke my record of two minutes and finished ten bowl of ramen in one minute and thirty seconds flat. Luckily by then the other bowls of ramen were ready to be devoured. I quickly finished the next batch, eating the last bowl of chicken ramen a little slower so I could saver the taste. I let out a loud belch, making sure I covered my mouth. "That hit the spot." I grabbed my wallet that looked like an oversized frog because it was full. I took out money and handed it to Teuchi before dashing out again.
"See ya", I yelled behind me as I ran.
"He's been busy a lot lately normally he would spend hours here talking with us. The kids growing up", Teuchi said with a smile.
I went to the forest to train hoping to meet Tenten there. It was late in the evening and night time was closing in. I wanted someone to talk to about the things that happened today and I knew she would listen. I was wondering about the test I was taking tomorrow as I walked toward the clearing. There was only one thing I knew that Kakashi sensei was looking for and it was quick thinking. I mean he told us we had a test but not about what the test was about. He wanted us to analyze the situation and react quickly and accordingly. I made it to the clearing and for once Tenten was there when I wanted her to be. She was doing squats.
Tenten quickly picked up on my presence and turned around. "Oh hey Naruto, how's it going." I walked over to where she was and sat down beside her.
"Things are good I guess. I just met my jonin sensei."
"Really, who was it."
"Kakashi." Tenten finally stop squatting and gave me a disbelieving look.
"Your kidding right?"
"No its really him. The white gravity defying hair, the mask and he had that orange book with him too."
"Yup that's Kakashi alright. Who would have thought that you would be on my sensei's rival's team."
"Small village I guess."
"So you want to have a spar?"
"No not today I just came for a light work out", I lied. I really just came to talk to her. I Laid down on the grass, my hands behind my head. Tenten sat down beside me.
"Are you okay, you've never turned down a spar before." I stayed quiet for a while contemplating if I should tell her everything. I decided to tell her everything except about the Kyuubi and my father.
"I had my first kill yesterday."
"Are you okay."
"I don't know. At first I didn't feel anything but after a while all this guilt and shit came rushing in. I Thought about just trying to forget but for some reason I felted like forgetting was wrong. Its like running away from the responsibility and I don't want to do that but I still don't know how to cope with the guilt."
"Who'd you kill."
"My assistant academy teacher. He tried going rogue with the forbidden scroll." It was quiet for a while apparently Tenten didn't know how to help me which was honestly quite disappointing. "Have you ever killed someone Tenten." I looked up at her and only to see guilt on her face.
"Twice, I've killed two people."
"How'd you cope with it." Tenten put down her head in shame.
"I went to my sensei to ask him for advice. He comforted me but in the end he told me all ninja dealt with the guilt in different ways and that I had to figure it out myself. I tried, I really did but I just couldn't find an answer so I just, I just."
"You forgot them", I finished and she gave me a nod. I put a reassuring hand on Tenten's shoulder and gave her a foxy grin when she looked at me.
"Don't worry since we both don't know what to do we'll just have to figure it out together, so don't worry you wont have to shoulder this by yourself." Seeing a nod from Tenten I decided to move on to a happier topic.
"I have some good news too. I figured out who my parent are." And so I went on, and on talking and talking and saying some jokes here and there that made Tenten smile. I kept ranting and eventually told her about my father but not the Kyuubi, I didn't want to spoil the mood. We talked all night, well I did Tenten just listened until we fell asleep together in the grass, deep in the forest using each others body for warmth.