A/N: I only own my own characters.
Olivia arrived at Hank's house, got out of the car and went to ring the doorbell. Hank opened the door.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"Come on in."
"Thanks."
Olivia went inside and they went into the living room after Hank took her jacket. They both sat on the sofa at opposite ends.
"When were you planning to tell me about your lady friend?"
"My personal life is none of your business."
"You promised that no one other than me would ever be in your life."
"What did you expect me to do? Wait around until you could make up your mind?"
"I'm just so confused about everything. I know I still love you. That hasn't changed in a year and a half. I miss being in your arms."
"You're with Tucker."
"You're with Lorraine."
"I haven't slept with her yet. She knows I'm still in love with you and probably always will be. What did you need to talk to me about?"
"After we had been together, I found out that I was pregnant. I couldn't have been happier. I wanted to wait until I was in the 2nd trimester before I told you."
"You never told me though."
"Yeah, I lost the baby. I had really hoped I could have carried it full-term because I wanted a baby so bad. I know I have Noah but having one that would have been a part of both of us would have made me so happy. I know I should have told you then but I couldn't."
Olivia had tears in her eyes and Hank had a stunned look on his face.
"We should have mourned our loss together. I am so sorry, Hank. Please don't hate me anymore that you already do."
"I don't hate you. Come here."
Olivia moved closer to Hank and then he put his arms around her.
"Hank."
"Yeah."
"This feels so right."
"I've missed holding you."
"I've missed it too."
Olivia put her arms around Hank and looked up at him. They looked into each other's eyes and kissed. Olivia got up and reached for Hank's hand. He got up and they headed upstairs to the bedroom. They got undressed, got on the bed and made passionate love. Afterwards Hank had his arms around her and she had her head on his chest.
"I love you, Hank Voight."
"I love you, Olivia Benson."
"I've missed this."
"Me too. I'm sure this still doesn't mean we can go back to there being an us though."
"I want to. I feel so happy when I'm with you."
"Do you love Tucker?"
"Yes but he doesn't make me feel the way you do. If I was truly in love with him, I wouldn't have let this happen."
"How long are you here?"
"Through the weekend."
"Good."
Hank kissed her again and they he started kissing her neck.
"What does Lorraine do?"
"She's an ER doctor at Northwestern."
Olivia started laughing.
"What's so funny?"
"Why would a doctor want to date you? Does she know you?"
"She accepts me for who I am."
"I do too."
"Sometimes you do."
They start kissing and were about to make love again when the doorbell rang.
"Don't move."
Hank kissed Olivia, got up, put his clothes on and went downstairs to answer the door. It was Lorraine.
"Lorraine."
"Hey. Can we talk?"
"Yeah, sure."
Hank let Lorraine in and then they sat down in the living room. In his hurry to get dressed, Hank didn't notice that his shirt was buttoned wrong and not tucked in right.
"She's here, isn't she?"
"What? Who?"
"Olivia."
"Uh, kind of."
"Just kind of? Your shirt is buttoned wrong and not tucked in right. You also have lipstick on your lips. You slept with her, didn't you?"
"Yeah."
"You won't sleep with me but the moment you see her, you two jump into bed."
"You knew I still had feelings for her."
"If you want to be in a relationship with me, you have to end things with her."
"You know I can't just do that."
"Isn't she here with her boyfriend or husband and son?"
"He's her boyfriend."
"Technically, she's taken and so are you. You need to make a choice, either me or her because I am ready to go to the next step in our relationship but I need you to be 100% committed to us. I am giving you until I get off of work in the morning to give me your answer. I am hoping you choose wisely."
Lorraine left and then Hank went back up to the bedroom.
"Do you want me to go?"
"Nope. Were you eavesdropping?"
"Maybe. Are you 100% committed to your relationship with her?"
"Hell no. I like her but I don't love her. There's a difference."
"You love me, right?"
"I tolerate you."
"Hey!"
Hank got dressed and got back into bed with Olivia.
"I have a problem."
"What now?"
"Guess who asked me to marry him?"
"Did you say yes?"
"Do you see a ring on my left hand? That was a dumb question."
"Technically, you could have taken it off."
"I said no. He's asked me several times already."
"If you want to marry him, don't let me stop you."
"I don't want to marry him. I don't want to marry the wrong man."
They started kissing and then they made love again before Olivia went back to her hotel and Hank went back to work. When Olivia got back to her room, she opened the door and went in.
"Hello."
"Hey. How'd your talk go?"
"It went fine."
"I take it you got the closure you needed, so now we can move on with our lives together?"
"No."
"What do you mean no?"
"I love him, Ed. I always have and I always will. I care about you but you're not the person I see myself with long-term."
"I see. Isn't he with someone?"
"It's not serious."
"I thought we were."
"Maybe you thought it was."
"I don't want to break up. I'm happy with the way things are and I want to marry you."
"I slept with him."
"A year and a half ago. I know about it already."
"Not then. Today. If I was truly in love with you, I wouldn't have let it happen."
"Did you think about your son before you jumped into bed with that guy?"
"I'm always thinking about my son."
"He is going to be devastated if we break up."
"I'll deal with my son. He did meet Hank a year and a half ago but he wouldn't remember it."
"Oh, well then I guess that makes it better."
"I expected this from you. You knew I still loved him when you and I got together which is why I was hesitant at first. He and I almost had a baby together, so how can I not still feel something for him?"
"You cheated on me, Liv."
"I am well aware of what I did. I know I should feel guilty about it but I don't. I love you but not the way I love him. It's been that way from the beginning."
"What can he give you that I can't? He's a Sergeant, I'm a Captain."
"This has nothing to do with rank."
"Then what is it? Is he better in bed than me? Is that it?"
"I'm not answering that."
"I think you just did."
"My heart and my head are telling me two completely different things. My head is telling me to be practical and stay with you because we're in the same city, while my heart is telling me I should be with Hank because that's where my heart has always been. I have to listen to my heart. If I don't, I'm going to be living with the 'what ifs' for the rest of my life."
"Fine. Do what you want."
"I'm sorry."
"I don't really think you are. If you were, you would have thought about me feelings and not just your own."
"I hope we can still be friends."
"I'll think about it."
Ed packed his stuff, called a cab and headed to the airport. In the meantime, Noah had woken up, so Olivia tried explaining things to him the best she could. She took him to the car and drove over to the District.
"Twice in one day, Lieutenant?"
"Yep."
Trudy let her in and she and Noah went upstairs.
"Hey, Lieutenant."
"Hey."
"Hank's in with Commander Crowley."
"Actually, I need to talk to her."
"How's Captain Tucker?"
"I just broke up with him."
"If it's because of Hank, he's in a relationship."
"He and I talked."
"You told him about the thing from last year?"
"Yeah. We're closer than we've ever been."
"So, you two actually slept together?"
"Yep."
"Is this for real this time?"
"As far as I'm concerned, it is."
"I thought I liked Lorraine but she is very possessive of him."
"She came over to the house and told him that she is ready to go to the next step in their relationship but needs him to be 100% committed to them."
"I don't think he's ever been completely committed to her. What did he say?"
"I asked him if he was 100% committed to their relationship and his answer was 'hell no''."
"That sounds like him."
"After she left, he got back into bed with me."
"He is committed to you and not her."
"She said she is giving him until she gets off from her next shift to give her his answer. She hopes he chooses wisely."
"If he's smart, he'll choose you."
"I want to talk to Commander Crowley about transferring here."
"Hank has cut down on being at scenes considerably since Justin died."
"Can you watch Noah for me?"
"Sure."
Olivia went to knock on Hank's door.
"Come on in."
"What can we do for you, Lieutenant?"
"I wanted to inquire about transferring here to Chicago."
To be continued…