"Many roads to take, some to joy some to heartache, anyone can lose their way,
And if I said that we could turn it back, right back to the start.
Would you take the chance and make the change.
Do you think how it would have been sometimes,
Do you pray that I'd never left your side."
"What If." by - Kate Winslet.
"Because I care about her…...a lot more than I'm supposed to." The words playing over and over in her head.
She could see his face as he spoke them, his eyes locked with hers even though it was tearing them both apart. After his confession they swapped places and she took her turn to answer the questions. The only difference being her wording.
"He means more to me than just being my CO." The words coming out in a near whisper.
As he stood by her side and removed the strap from across her head they locked eyes, the fear, and desperation evident on both their faces.
"It doesn't have to leave this room, sir." She blurted out, not really sure what she was supposed to say under the circumstance.
"You sure?" He asked, just as shocked and surprised at the turn of events.
"Yes, sir." The walls coming up instantly between them.
After that, things were different, both unsure where they stood with the other. They tried to deny what was there, even managed it for a short time. Yet now, when she needed him the most he was out of reach. The walls built between them stronger than before, to strong for her to catch a glimpse of what he was really thinking and feeling.
As he walked out her lab she watched his retreating form, her heart sinking so far it was sat somewhere in her toes. They were done, he was letting her go to another man. As she looked at the ring box she wondered what would have happened if the room had never been locked, if their feelings had been free to flow.
Putting the box back in her jacket pocket she wished that they had made different choices now.