CHAPTER 2

Clarke's POV

The morning light woke me. I just laid there, on Lexa's sheets. The world just didn't seem to move anymore. I didn't want to think anymore. I just wanted my mind, my body, and everything else to remain still.

I sighed as I heard the sound of stomping boots gradually become louder. I sat up when Lexa's doors swung open with way too much force. It was Indra and she looked pissed.

"YOU! You stupid girl! She's dead because of you. She gave everything she worked for to you, her reign and her life. Ever since I saw the way she looked at you when I brought you to her tent, I knew this meant trouble for her. She neglected her trainings and became a lovesick girl. You took away her fire and the rigidity she needed to be our commander. You made her weak. I tried so hard to help her with her decisions and every consult I gave her, she rejected. You implanted ideas in her for the sake of your people even though you knew that it would be detrimental for our people and Lexa's reign. You knew that she would accept your ideas wholeheartedly because they came from you. You just kept pushing her until it was too late and now my Commander is dead. You know she was like a daughter to me? I raised her! And now I'm just an injured warrior without her daughter because of you. I should kill you myself right now and here. If you were just Lexa's lover I wouldn't hesitate to end you, but because you're the last Commander's houmon, I won't." Indra said in disgust.

"Houmon? I'm Lexa's houmon? What is that?" I asked.

"Really? You really don't know?" Indra asked confused. I shook my head.

"She swore fealty to you, Clarke Kom Skaikru. She knelt before you. The commander kneels before no one, but she did for you. She swore to treat your needs as her own. You accepted and rose her from her knees. You accepted her proposal. You are Lexa's houmon, her wife," Indra said.

I crinkled my forehead as she tried to piece everything together. I was Lexa's wife? I mean I am Lexa's wife? We were married? I felt the water building up in my eyes again. Knowing that Lexa was my wife made everything hurt even more. I started to think about what Indra said. Did I really place my peoples' lives over Lexa's and her people? If I had known that we were married, would I have done everything differently? Oh my god! I'm such an asshole. I led my baby on a path to her death. What is the matter with me. All Lexa ever did was appease me to try to make me happy. Appeasing me was probably her way of showing me that she loved me. Ughh! The amount of times Lexa gave in was literally her declaration of love for me. I am a stupid girl and I am selfish. How could anyone ever be so blind? The pounding on my chest grew with ever second. I wanted it to stop. I wanted everything to just stop. I closed my eyes to try to shut out everything, but all I could see in the darkness were those green eyes. Those beautiful and passionate green eyes. I opened my eyes and looked at Indra, who honestly looked too drained and sad to even keep standing up.

" Indra. Maybe you should kill me. This is the best thing for everyone. I wouldn't put your people in danger anymore and I'd get to reunite with my houmon." I waited for Indra's response.

Indra was a bit taken back by my request. She didn't move or speak. All she did was stare back.

"Please. I'm ordering you as Wanheda. Take my life now." I commanded. I got off the bed and walked over to the far right of Lexa's room, where I knew she kept all her special weapons. I grabbed the sharpest sword and walked back to Indra. I took her right hand and shoved the handle of Lexa's sword into her palm. I closed her palm onto the grip or the sword and took one step back. I kneeled down and closed my eyes and waited for the sword to meet my neck.

"Swing." I said. After a few seconds, nothing came. I opened my eyes and saw Indra staring me down. She looked like she felt sorry for me. But I didn't want anyone's sympathy. I didn't deserve it. All I could think about was leaving all this suffering from this life behind. All I could think about was getting back to Lexa and holding her.

" I SAID SWING!" I shouted. Indra raised the blade over her shoulders and positioned herself. She took a breath and swung, but the metal never met my skin.

"Clarke! Clarke! Wait what the hell?" I heard. I fixed my eyes to the door and saw Bellamy literally witnessing my own death sentence. Well, it looked more like Indra trying to murder me. Indra dropped the knife on the floor with a klank. I heard her breathe out heavily, probably glad she wouldn't have to kill me. She took a few steps away from me.

"What Bellamy?" I yelled a little too angrily. I couldn't help myself. He just stopped me from getting back to Lexa. What he had to tell me better be good.

"It's just the Trikru troop that we had sweep out the area. Octavia went with them and she radioed in. I think the found something. She wants to talk to you, Clarke. She said it was urgent." Bellamy said.

Great another problem. I took the walkie talkie from Bellamy's hand.

"What is it Octavia?" I asked.

"I don't know how this is possible Clarke, but I think..." Octavia was cut off by radio silence. Her walkie talkie must've died, but not before Indra and I heard the distinct background sounds from the talkie.

"Indra did you hear what Trikru was chanting?" I asked. I waited for Indra to respond. She kept pacing back and forth, not making eye contact.

"That's not possible there's no way. Why would Trikru be chanting Heda? This doesn't make any sense. There's only one possible reason why they are chanting Heda," Indra said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"We, Trikru, only ever recognized one person as Heda. It's Lexa." Indra said confidently.