CHAPTER 9

Clarke's POV

I went to Raven's station because I I heard Alicia was here yesterday. I wanted to see if she would be there today too.

"Hey Rae is Alicia here?" I asked.

"No she went to get clothes with Octavia." Raven said.

"What you guys let her go out of Polis with just Octavia? Someone could recognize her. She could be in danger right now!" I yelled. If Alicia was killed Lexa wouldn't be able to make the transfer. All my hopes of seeing Lexa would be gone.

"Don't worry Clarke. I took care of it." O said as she strolled in.

"What do you mean?" I stared at her.

"We were attacked by the Ice Nation again. Well it was a single man so it wasn't an attack from the entire Ice Nation. I'd say he was a loner just looking for a fight. I covered Alicia behind me so he couldn't recognize her. We ran back after the incident. Everything's still okay. By the way I think I really like Alicia. We talked. She's really soothing." Octavia said.

"Yea, right? It's not just talk. It's like real talk. Alicia's very innocent and good intentioned from what I got from my day with her. She's also really funny and has awesome music taste, except for that one selection." Raven said as she giggled to herself. Is it bad that I was jealous. Raven and Octavia both spent a day with Alicia and got to know more about her. Why is she avoiding me only? Maybe it's for the best. I don't want to get too attached to Alicia anyways, not when the transition could happen at anytime.

(DAY 6)

ALICIA'S POV

My brother and I use to cook together for our family. That was our family bonding time with our dad back then. We met early in the morning to cook for the people of Polis. The ingredients we were given were strange but we made use of it. I was honestly smiling so much today.

"Nick. Doesn't this feel good. You. Me. And a kitchen. Just like old times." I said. Minus dad I thought, but I left that out so I wouldn't kill the mood.

"Yeah, it does sis." Nick said. Nick and Chris lifted the food to the serving areas. I stayed back in the kitchen to clean up. I had just finished when Indra walked in.

"Alicia?" she said.

"Yes. Hi, Indra. Can I get anything for you to eat or drink for brunch?" I asked trying to be as polite as possible. I was afraid of Indra to be honest. She looked like such a badass all the time. I still wanted to get to know her though. It was a weird combo.

"Yes. If you could," Indra responded politely. I made her a plate and a drink and served it to her. We sat on a table in the kitchen.

"What's up?" I said with a gentle smile.

"You remind me of her. She was like a daughter to me, you know. I helped raise her. Sometimes when I see you my mind tricks me into thinking that it's her coming over to talk to me." She said. Wow. I honestly had no idea. How did this girl have such an impact on basically everyone in Polis. Who was she to even affect the badass of Polis. I was surprised that Indra was opening up so quickly to me. I guess I just have really bad first impressions of a lot of people. I also didn't know that the badass Indra could have a mother-like side. She looked like she'd be great at protecting her child, for sure though.

"I didn't know the girl, but I'm sure she appreciated you for everything you did for her, even if she didn't say it out loud." I tried to soothe her. I rubbed her back until her breathing went back to normal.

Indra, Octavia, Raven, and Clarke all had some kind of experience with the look-alike. Maybe I'm a bother for them to have to see me all the time. I went and got a stereo and my iPhone. I needed to find a room to dance and clear my head. I just let my feet do the walking and I ended up in front of a bed in a massive room. I turned on the song, Who You Are by Jessie J. I danced contemporary (Dance: check out Katherine McCormick's version on YouTube. That's what I was going for). I closed my eyes and just moved. Each movement told about my conflict of who I was in the past, who I am now, and the people of Polis's past image of who they wanted me to be. I just let it all out on the dance floor. Before I knew it the song was finished.

"Hi," a raspy voice said.

"Hi," I gave a weak smile.

"That was beautiful. I didn't know you danced." Clarke said.

"Well you don't know a lot about me. Do you?" I said.

"No, I don't, but I want to, if you are open to it." Clarke said.

"Tell me about her first. Then I'll tell you about me." I said.

"Okay. Her name was Lexa and she was the commander of the thirteen clans. We didn't get along at first actually. I kind of despised her actually, but I respected her too. We were professional when we worked together. She betrayed me once but there was a reason why she did what she did and I eventually forgave her. I think I always was falling for her but it didn't hit me until I saw her rule. She'd do anything for her people even if it meant sacrificing her happiness for them. She even tried to abolish violence under her rule, but people that break tradition usually are killed and that's what happened to Lex. She was my one and only. I don't think I'll ever find a love so strong again to be honest. By the way this is her room. I was surprised to see you in it." Clarke said.

Hmmm... Commander of the 13 clans. And I thought Indra was a badass.

"Here's a drawing I did of her sleeping once." Clarke said as she handed me the paper. I looked at it and we were literally splitting images of each other. Usually when people say you remind them of someone or you look like someone it means you share some features. I wasn't expecting to be exact twins of each other! It made sense now. Why I made people emotional, and... my dream..? Just like in my dream? Was I not dreaming about me? The person in my dreams with Clarke was actually Lexa.

"Wow, we really do look alike." I said.

"Ok now tell me about yourself. Have you ever been in love?" Clarke asked.

"Yes. I've been in three relationships before. The first two I fell hard for but I broke up with the both of them. My first love was with one of my childhood friends; he was sweet, but he always thought that he didn't deserve me. The second one was dangerous. He was fun and passionate. We even had the same friends at school, but he just took things to the extreme and I couldn't do that anymore. I didn't like the person I had become being with him, so I knew it was time. The last one I dated was not a long relationship. We had just started when our relationship was cut short and he got sick and died. He was the best and the most optimistic person ever, but the relationship was too new for me to say that I loved him. I'll always remember them. For me, I was planning on going to college before all this. I was heading to UC Berkley to get away from my dysfunctional family. I also taught some dance classes in my home town to get some spending money. Life was good." I said.

"And Travis and Chris?" Clarke asked.

"My father left our family and my mom remarried Travis. That's what happened and that's basically my life so far. Anyways it's getting late. I should probably get back to my room. My mom's probably waiting for me. Good night Clarke." I said.

"Good night Alicia. Wait! Alicia I heard about the attack when you went with Octavia to get clothes. I think it would be best for your safety and your family's safety for you to show up tomorrow for a training session. You need to learn how to defend yourself. Trust me everyone needs a little protection in this world," Clarke said.

"Sure, I'll see you tomorrow." I said. I walked back to my room and went to bed. When I went to sleep I was expecting another dream of Lexa and Clarke, but all I got was darkness. There was no dream just black like the night sky.