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CHAPTER 12

Lexa's POV

My legs led me to the graveyard of Polis. I walked towards the stone sitting in the center. I traced my finger tips over the names of the young nightbloods. My fingers slowed its trail when it reached Aiden's name. My sweet and obedient Aiden. I sat on the floor and started to cry. These were my children. I raised them to be great and knowledgeable. For what? To kill each other? What kind of a mother was I? Not even one of them survived.

All of them were dead at the hands of Ontari. She wasn't even a part of the conclave. She probably didn't even think twice when she slaughtered them. She didn't grow up with the conclave since she was young. She didn't make friends in the conclave. She had no followings or guidance. They were nothing to her. When each of the conclave members knew how difficult it would be to kill one of their own brothers and sisters. That is why. That is why Ontari was unfit of being the commander. She has no values, love, and support.

Those beautiful nightbloods. Any of them would have been better fit at being the next commander than me. I would've died if I had gone against Luna. I won by default. I wasn't suppose to be the commander. I was never the best. This is again proven with how I couldn't even protect the conclave under me. I shouldn't have taught them. I was unworthy. I hope you can forgive me nightbloods for my shortcomings. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you in your time of need. I'll try my best to live by the rules I taught you and make a better world. I hope you'll forgive me for the things I couldn't give or teach you. I hope you'll be with me in the next fight. May we meet again nightbloods. I placed my right hand and kissed it before placing my hand onto the nightblood dedication stone. Goodbye young ones.

The dawn had come while I was paying respect to my children. Their deaths had bothered me the most in the spirit life. Watching them being slaughtered by an outside and hearing their cries made me feel so helpless and completely powerless. I knew once the merge happened I needed to be here and beg for forgiveness and pay my respects. Even though, I was hard on them, I only wanted the best for each of them. But this... This was not what I wanted for any of them.

I wiped away the tears and put on the cloak that I had worn on the way to the graveyard. I did not want to be seen. I knew Polis and the secret pathways I could take to hide from the public when I didn't want to be seen. I noticed on my way back to my room that there were many of my guards and Skaikru guards walking the grounds. Clarke must've sent them to search for me, which means she had awaken before my return. She must be frantic. I'll go find her. Knowing her, she probably was on her way to my room, so I headed in that direction. As I was about to turn the corner to my room, I heard steps behind me. I turned around and saw a gorgeous blonde Wanheda. She was too frantic looking for me turning her head side to side but missing me who was right in front of her. Hmm.. she was probably looking for Alicia, not me. If she sent a search party, she probably doesn't know that the transition is complete. Clarke would've known better to send a search party for me; Alicia on the other hand would've probably been found by now. I wanted to surprise her so I hid on the other side of the corner and waited till she reached me.

Clarke's POV

Where the hell was Alicia? She has a freaked concussion. Where the hell would she even go or want to go other than being in the medical ward. This girl, ughh! Maybe she went to go dance again. I mean I ran into her in Lexa's room last time. Maybe she's there again. Let me check. I headed over to Lexa's room looking around on my way to see if she was anywhere in the halls.

Where could she be?... I was pulled from the side into Lexa's room. The door was slammed shut. I started to fight off the person, but I was pinned to the wall with lips pressed on mine. I stopped my squirming when that contact was made. It was those lips. Those familiar lips. They moved so much like Lexa's but that couldn't be. We quickly found a rhythm. Hands went to my sides and gripped on my clothes. Oh... I got lost in the touches. My eyes were still closed when those skilled lips pulled away. I opened my eyes and saw Alicia. I backed up. Shit. Why did I kiss her? My mind must've tricked itself into thinking Alicia was Lexa.

"Alicia stop I don't like you like that. I'm sorry but you're not her." I said shaking my head.

"Clarke." Alicia wait Lexa...? I heard the distinct curl of the k from my name. The only person that ever said it like that was Lexa, but... No, Alicia was still wearing her time period's clothes it wasn't Lexa. It was Alicia. Alicia started to take another step towards me again.

"Alicia, I'm serious. I'm not goin..." I was cut off.

"In peace, may you leave this shore. In love may you find the next." Lexa said. I knew it was her I kept thinking as she finished my final words to her before she died. She was the only person that would have know this. I whispered it to her. The only person close enough was Titus and that bitch was dead. I can't believe she's here. I cut her off mid sentence at may we... I jumped on her and hugged her.

"Lexa! Lexa!" I kept saying her name out loud to make sure what was happening was real.

"Oh, so now you think I'm Lexa. If you still don't believe me, I think I can convince you a little more." Lexa said. I felt warm lips nibbling at my ear lobe and smoothing it over with her tongue. Lexa finished me off with a kiss on the back of my ear, one of my favorite spots.

"Mmm," I moaned. I moved my head from Lexa's shoulder to her face. I looked at those eyes. They were filled with all the emotions that I was so use to seeing from my Lexa. She smiled. I melted back into those lips again. We made out like there was no tomorrow. God I missed her. I backed her up to her bed. My hands roamed her body but eventually found its place at the small of her back and her cheek. We battle for dominance, the dominance of who missed the other more. I heard Lexa groan in defeat. Sorry Lex but I missed you more. I pushed her into her bed and met her lips again. My hands roamed again and hit the hem of her shirt. I slipped my fingers under her shirt and felt the skin I was craving. Hmm so maybe early 2000s clothing did have a plus. Easy access. I smiled into the kiss. I felt her hands reach my breasts above my shirt and I couldn't help but moan. Damn Lex. Everything felt amazing, so right. I pulled back and moved so I could tend to Lexa's neck. I heard her moan. Oh that sound is gonna be the death of me. I flipped us over so Lexa was on top. I was about to pull her shirt off when I heard a knock.

I looked over at Lexa. She looked so hot right now. She had her sex look in her eyes and I had made her lips swollen from all the kissing. Her hair looked so ruffled. God the things I wanted to do to her.

While I was thinking about ungodly things, Lexa was already fixing me up and then herself. She walked over to the door and opened it.

"We still haven't found..." The guard stopped speaking when he saw Lexa who he presumed was Alicia.

"She's here. You can call off the search. Tell everyone thank you." I said. Lexa closed the door and sat back down next to me.

"Hey, you." She said.

"Ughh why did he have to interrupt us. I wanted to." I said with the raise of my eyebrows flirtatiously. Lexa pecked me on the cheek and laughed.

"Slow down Clarke. I'm not going to have sex with you now that I have merged with Alicia. She has steps she follows in a relationship." Lexa said.

"Wait merged?" I asked.

"Yea, during the transition our spirits became one in this body. I know everything about her just like how she knows everything about me. She just gave me the dominating role." Lexa said. I was so entranced by her presence that I wasn't even listening.

"So where were we?" I said as I went for her lips, but before mine could reach hers, she pulled back.

"Lexaaaaaa..." I whined. She laughed at my desperation.

"Fine, so what are these steps?" I asked really desperate to get to the sex.

"How's about I take you out on a date tomorrow, hmm?" She asked.

"What's a date?" I asked.

"It's like courting. Don't worry I'll plan it all though, okay." Lexa said.

"Sure, whatever you want Lex. Just get over here now. I want to hold you." I said. I laid down on the bed as Lexa crawled into my arms and laid her head on my chest. We stayed there for so long as I rubbed her back as I fell asleep to her heartbeats. Everything was just perfect.