CHAPTER 14
Clarke's POV
I watched the exchange between Lexa and Madison. It was kind of weird seeing Lexa having an authoritative figure in her life. She even had a family now. I was grateful they left to tell the rest of her family about the transition. I honestly wasn't ready to talk to Lexa's mom or refer to her as my mother-in-law yet. Everything just seemed too soon and surreal.
Later that day, I went to go see Octavia and Raven.
"Hey." I said as I walked in on Octavia and Raven chatting about something in the tech center.
"Why are you smiling so much. It's kind of weird." Octavia said.
"Octavia." Raven scolded.
"What? She's been such a Debbie downer lately. Is it weird if I ask what's with the sudden change?" Octavia asked.
"True, I guess. So what happened?" Raven asked as two pairs of eyes focused in on me.
"Lexa's back. She transitioned into Alicia's body." I told them truthfully.
"What? Where's Alicia then?" Raven asked.
"They merged, and don't worry Alicia agreed on it before it happened. I've noticed Lexa's been acting a little differently she has Alicia's qualities and she isn't as formal as she use to be." I said.
"I mean if you're happy and there's no damage to the human race, it's good. Maybe now I can have Lexa train me since Alicia and I were friends. I use to be too afraid of Lexa." Octavia said.
"RAVEN! You here? I have the stereo." Lexa said as she walked in. She was surprised to see Octavia and me.
"Hey. Lexa." Raven said smirking.
"You told them already?" Lexa asked me as she placed the stereo on the floor. She walked over to my side.
"Kind of scared to say what I want to say now that I know your Lexa." Octavia said.
"Well you'll never know unless you do it," Lexa said before giving Octavia a wink. A wink. Ha! I scoffed in jealousy. Octavia walked over to Lexa. Lexa raised an eyebrow in anticipation.
"I missed you Leeshy boo boo. I'm glad you're okay." Octavia said before giving Lexa a hug. Surprisingly Lexa hugged back and smiled. Wait Leeshy boo boo?
"You guys have nicknames?" I asked a little jealous.
"Yea! Lex and I have deep talks, deep, deep, deep ones." Octavia said flirtatiously as she trailed a finger down Lexa's abs. I knew she was trying to get me jealous and it was working. No one touches my girl, not even O. I pulled Lexa by the waist closer to me and held her there circling my arms around her waist. I burrowed my head into her neck. Lexa just put her arm around my shoulder. Rae decided to break the tension.
"Oh Alic... I mean Lexa. Abby approved the dance night." Raven said.
"Really. Oh my god that's awesome. You better get ready to dance because I'm going to rock your world Rae. Alright, I have to go and talk to Indra now. Clarke. You coming?" Lexa asked. I grabbed her hand.
"Yea, let's go." I said. We separated our hands when we went into a public area. Now that Lexa was back as the commander, she couldn't shoe favoritism to one clan. We went to the room that Indra was waiting in. Lexa crossed the room and held out her forearm.
"Indra com Trikru my right hand, my advisor, my friend. I'm back." Lexa said.
"It really is you."Lexa said as she reached out and grabbed Lexa's forearm. Once Indra did that, she used her strengthen and flipped Lexa. I winced.
"Indra!" Lexa said enraged.
"Are you trying to give her another concussion." I said as I went to pick up Lexa from the floor.
"What I need to make sure you're Lexa. Now get up and spar with me." Indra said. They spent 30 minutes going at it. When Indra was finally satisfied by Lexa's skill level she called it.
"We need you Lexa to talk to the clans. Clarke said there will be repercussions to destroying Alie's world. We need to prep everyone." Indra said.
"What did you find out Clarke when you had the flame?" Lexa asked me.
"There will be radioactive meltdowns again in the next month just like what forced us up into space years ago. They were doing genetic engineering and we're changing the human genome. The fit survived while we had to go up to space." I said.
"Do you think it's possible that the genetic tests happening in the past created the infected in my time? Like bio warfare. Maybe this was all created by Alie. The bio warfare was probably the test before the radioactive nuclear meltdown. It makes sense now. It was Alie working in 2015 before she created the flames. How do we stop a computer program that was made years ago?" Lexa said.
"We need to say something or come up with a plan to calm the clans so we can buy time." Indra said. Lexa brought a hand to her forehead she looked stressed. The weight of so many people were back on her shoulders again. I felt bad for her.
"Could you just give me a day or two to just be normal before I step back into my commander duties? I'll come up with something during the time. I just want to spend some personal time with Clarke and my family." Lexa said.
"Sure." Indra said.
After Lexa edited the commander books on nightblood spirit transfers, I took Lexa's hand back into mine and left the room.
"So you ready for the date?" Lexa asked on our way out.
"First date. Already. I'm not dressed though." I said nervously.
"Don't worry I couldn't even plan much because I was with my family and your friends most of the time today. It's going to be so authentic" Lexa said with a smirking smile. She led me towards the kitchen and sat me down by the counter. I watched as she took ingredients out and started cooking. Wow. Lexa was being domestic. God I thought I'd never be able to see her like this. Thank you Alicia. I always thought it would be me cooking for her when she came home. It was a warming surprise because I could not cook.
Her domestic side made Lexa look submissive. I kept thinking about one thing. Sex. Sex. Sex. From the last time we had sex, I was the dominant one and Lexa was the submissive one. We battled at first who would be on top but we both knew that I'd be the one on top. I couldn't wait to have my way with her. To touch her. Say dirty words. Hear her scream my name. Mmmm I moaned unconsciously.
"Get your mind out of the gutter Clarke. Dinner's ready." She said as she served me and shook her head. Damn. How'd she know. I failed at controlling the blush that had reddened my face.
We sat down at a table, and Lexa lit a candle. We started eating in silence. Something about the word first day got me nervous. I know I shouldn't be. Lexa's already seen all of my bad sides already, yet still there was something about tarnishing my reputation now.
"There's been something I wanted to talk to you about." Lexa said in a very serious tone.
"What is it?" I asked concerned.
"It's about where I went right after the transition was complete." Lexa said. I totally forgot about that. I was so caught up in the fact that Lexa was back that I ignored that detail of her return.
"Where'd you go?" I asked.
"I went to see Aiden and the other nightbloods at the graveyard. I felt so completely helpless and sorry watching them get slaughtered by Ontari while I was in the spirit world. I felt like I failed them. They were my children. I raised them, and I ultimately wasn't strong enough to protect them. I let them fall." Lexa revealed to me.
"Lexa you couldn't do anything. You trained them the best you could and gave them life long values. There was nothing more you could do. It was just that your conclave was younger and less experienced then Ontari. Your conclave loved you, love. They would've done anything for you. I saw it in Aiden's eyes." I said.
"I just miss them." Lexa said.
"I know you do. I know you do." I said as I reached out and patted her hand.
"Would you ever want children?" Lexa quickly added in. Woah. That was quick.
"I never thought about it, you know, since we're in this dangerous world, but that doesn't mean anything. You're my family, and if you want to add to our family, I'd love it too. I'd only ever want kids with you, Lex." I said.
"Really!" Lex said with way too much enthusiasm.
"Why the shock?" I asked smiling.
"I don't know. I just thought I'd have to do a little convincing tonight, but I mean if you agree. I guess I won't have to now." Lexa said nonchalantly. Wait convincing? As in sex?
"What kind of convincing?" I said slyly.
"You know the one that includes you screaming my name, but I guess we won't hear it tonight." Lex said. I smacked myself in the head.
"Wait! I say no to kids. Now convince me. Pleaseeeee..." I said desperately. Lexa stood up and we headed to her room. I was so excited. I went to kiss her. Mmm... Wait. Wait. I pulled away.
"Did you talk to your mom? I don't want her walking in on us again." I said.
"Don't worry. I told her I was going to sleep in this room tonight. I need to catch up on my duties and you were helping me out here. I promised I'd take it easy and she seems pretty convinced. And as for anyone else I locked the door." Lexa smiled trying to recapture my lips.
"But do you think she likes me, cause I don't think so," I said.
"Don't worry love, I've dated worst and my mom's been okay with them." Lexa said.
"Ahem. Others? Lexa." I said.
"Nothing. Now, what can I do to convince you to have kids with me." Lexa said as she pulled my shirt off me. She pushed me onto the bed and pinned my arms above me.
"Keep them there... Now, Commander of Death. What will it take for you to say yes?" Lexa whispered into my ear as she kissed the back of it. God. She knew my weak spots. She trailed her lips from my ear to my neck. She started sucking. Mmm... That's very Lexa. She liked to mark. I couldn't help it, my hands went to her ass and squeezed. Lexa's face came up to meet mine. It was a blank face but still desire in her eyes.
"I'm in control this time." Lexa said as she placed my hands back above my head. I whined. She went back to kissing my body and trailed down my abs until she reached my pants. She tore them off. She went to my breast and pulled off my bra. She tended to one in her mouth, while the other she expressed the same amount of love and care. Every swirl of her tongue on my hard nipple made me wetter and wetter. I couldn't help but buck my hips and groan. She switched breasts. I had enough of this. She's playing me and I just want her in me I want all of her. I wanted to feel her. I wanted us to be one.
"Lexxxaaa!..." I said hoarsely.
She didn't move her head she just looked up at me. She stared for a few seconds before getting up. Seriously Lex. But then she started stripping and that was marvelous. She did it slowly keeping her eyes on mine,except mine were on her body. That fine body.
She took my underwear off and threw it across the room and straddled me. She rolled. That contact and that movement made me throw my head back.
"So Clarke... Whose better? Niylah... Or ... Me?" Lexa said with each word paired with a roll of the hips. So this was what the long build up was for. Lexa was jealous...of Niylah. I sat up.
"Lexa I snuck out after the sex with Niylah. I'm here with you. You mean so much more to me than her. With you it's just not physical. It's real." I said looking into her eyes and rubbing her lips with my thumb. She smiled and kissed me. It was a loving kiss that soon turned back to passion. Lexa went back to tending to my body.
"Yes... Yes... now fuck me Lex," I screamed at her.
She leaned down licked my clit. I closed my eyes from the tingles of pleasure. She rubbed my opening with two fingers. She went back up to face me.
"I'm not fucking you. I'm making love to you." Lexa said before giving me a kiss.
"Make love to me then love." I said and with that Lexa's fingers went into me and worked its magic while her thumb rubbed my clit. She felt so good. I've never felt the amount of pleasure, love, and excitement from anyone else before. I only ever get this feeling from her. I was putty in Lexa's hands. I had hit my peak quick as I felt my walls clenching onto Lexa's fingers more and more.
"Look at me." Lexa said. My eyes met hers as walls clenched down onto Lexa's curled fingers. I came hard. I screamed out Lexa's name in ecstasy. It was amazing and so so hot.
Lexa gave me a kiss after I came down from my high. I wanted to give her the same pleasure she just gave me. I rolled on top of her, but before I fully could she rolled me back onto my back.
"I want this night to be about you. I'm sorry I left. I knew that was hard for you. You're like me. We never get to be selfish and show our feelings to the outside world. When we're in pain we have to suck it up because we're the leaders. I'm so lucky to have found someone that understands and I can finally be vulnerable with. I love you." Lexa said. Awww... Lexa is such a softie I smiled. She loves me.
"I love you too," I said before kissing her. And snuggled into her. We drifted into beautiful dreams of us together.