Chapter 13
I woke up feeling better, and I knew the morphine was doing its job. I turned and see Emmett smiling at me. Rolling my eyes I stared to the TV and game conical.
"Emmett what are you doing here?" I sat up lightly, and he moved quickly to help me. I cringed feeling his cold hand under my arms lifting me to a better sitting position.
"Well Carlisle wants to test you hand eye coordination." Emmett laughed holding up the guitar hero guitar. I laughed watching his face.
"So you think I'm going to lose." I raised an eyebrow taking the guitar from him.
"Well I hope so, cos well you can't beat a vampire." He laughed again putting the game on, and I tried to hold the guitar right.
"Is Rosalie, happy about you spending time with me?" I asked while watching the game start up.
"No, not really, but then she doesn't like the idea of you and Bella both being part of the family." His eyes focused on the game.
"I haven't made my mind up yet!" my voice sharp.
Emmett faced me finally.
"I don't care what you say; you get an inch near death. I'll change you myself." His voice I'd never heard to be so determined.
I didn't want to fight, and started up the song Dead! By my chemical romance, and Emmett looked smug when the song started.
My head wasn't hurting as bad as before, but I was laughing finishing off the song. Emmett was getting frustrated that I was beating him.
"You're cheating, vision girl!" He threw the guitar down, and it smashed into tiny pieces, and I bit my lip trying not to laugh.
"Nope! All skills Emmett. All skills." I lightly rub my guitar like it was a pet.
"Well I think you're a Guitar hero!" he then sat down on the bed watching my eyes,
"Lou, you know being a vampire you can still be with Jacob." he spoke carefully, and I shook my head.
"For someone who lives forever, you fear death more than those it comes naturally to." I spoke softly brushing my hand on his. The cold of the Cullen's not bothering as much as it used to.
"When did you become so insightful?" Edward broke the silence entering the room, and I avoided his smug smile.
"I've always been." I replied seeing Bella follow Edward holding his hand in hers. I avoided to look at there affection for each other. I was still trying to remember my options.
"Louise Jacob is running around the house." Edward spoke softly watching my face fall.
"Edward I…" I trailed off watching Bella's face, and I didn't understand.
"Louise, Jacob can't phase back." Bella said, and she turned to look at Edward.
I rubbed a hand over my face, and turned to Emmett. I didn't know what to say, but I sharply pulled the IV out my hand.
"I'm going to need to talk to him." I simply said trying to get out the bed.
Edward placed a hand on my shoulder. I stared up at him, and I just wanted to go and find Jacob. Bella took Edward's hand off me, and then turned to Emmett.
"Bella can you help me please." I asked watching Emmett quickly pick me up in his arms. I smiled to him, and Bella coughed. "Emmett please can I." she held her arms out for me, and Emmett passed me to her.
Bella now move out the room, and rushed from the house.
At the edge of the forest I asked Bella to put me down. I walked carefully holding onto the trees to steady my weight. I felt drunk, but I just focused on finding Jacob. I listened to the brush of the breeze through the leaves, and I took a deep breath listening to the sounds around me.
"Jacob… Jacob please listen to me." I walked deeper into the forest, and I listened to the small howl, and I knew Jacob was close.
"Jacob you know I always find you." I spoke softly, and I see the great wolf walk towards me, and I smiled holding out a hand. The wolf got close, and I brushed my fingers into his fur. The wolf whimpered watching my face, and I leaned in kissing the forehead of the warm fur.
"Jacob, I don't know what to do." I whispered quietly, and the wolf howled in pain.
"I know… I know I just can't." I felt the tears splash onto my arm. I hugged the wolf as hard as I could.
"I love you. Forever Jacob Black." I spoke softly feeling him phase back into his normal body.
"Louise Swan, don't leave me." he spoke slowly watching my eyes. I bit my lip and eyes blinked tears.
"Jacob, if I become a vampire. I won't be me." my voice sure for the first time.
"Louise you won't be dead!" he snapped and I jumped back. I never thought I'd hear him speak like that.
I bit my lip trying to stop myself saying what I was thinking, but he knew it already.
"Louise, I can live forever… I just have to keep phasing." He spoke softly running a hand trough my hair pulling me closer to him.
"But Jacob, I'll be one of them, your enemy." My voice shaky and he kissed my forehead. "I'll be cold, and hard. Not the Louise you feel in love with." I added his fingers gripped onto me.
"Then you will be dead, and I can't live without you." His voice breaking down and I nodded.
"Jacob please, don't make this harder for me." I lightly ran my finger into his hair, and his eyes focused on mine.
Jacob kissed me with so much passion I thought I was in a dream, but he let me go watching my eyes.
"If it's what you want, then I'll have to let you go." He whispered lightly kissing my lips softly lifting me up into his arms. He started to head out of the forest.
"Jacob, pants." I said lightly, and he laughed.
"Oh yeah forgot about that." He quickly placed me down, putting his cut off jeans back on and carried me back to the house. I just wrapped my arms around him smiling at the thought of making up my mind, and I was going to try and make my last day's happy ones, for the both of us.