Chapter 15

Waking up, was the best part of any day. Going to sleep was the worst. Trust me if you could have a vision forcing you into a coma, leading to your death, you would be terrified too.

Jacob wanted to make my days fun, but not much I can do with my head hurting, my limbs feel like steel and to top it all off, I just wanted to relax. I didn't like the fact every day I'd wake up with Jacob poking me, I wasn't dead, but he was scared. I hated putting him through this kind of suspense.

"Good morning my love." Jacob whispered lightly brushing his hands down my exposed stomach, his eyes never left my face. "Sleep well?" He asked feeling his hand up my stomach touching my face carefully.

I just glanced into his dark eyes; his smile wasn't the Jacob Black sunshine smile, it was something glum, forced on my behalf.

"I slept and woke up; I think that was well enough." I didn't mean to sound harsh, but it was hard to keep a calm manner. It was like feeling every breath, every blink, but most of all my head getting heavier.

"Jacob, I think I need to see Bella." My voice calmer than I planned it to be, but then Jacob stared at me his expression said it all.

"But you said, they are going to want to turn you." His voice was panicked. I didn't know what to say.

"Jacob, I talked to Edward, last night while you slept." I tried to avoid his eyes, but it was hard to focus. "His promised me, that I will no be turned." I then placed a hand onto his, but his eyes avoided mine. "Jake. Please."

"Louise, you know how I feel, but if this is what you want." His eyes fell, but his hand kept tight in my own. "Then it's what we will do…"

Driving back to the Cullen's was quiet, Jacob kept focused on the road and I kept my eyes out the window. I didn't know what was going through his head, but I knew that there was a good reason for me to return to the Cullen's; I said my goodbyes to Emily, Sam and then pack. I knew for some reason this was going to be my last travelling. I wasn't afraid of death, dying didn't strike fear into me, I just wanted to say my last goodbyes, I wanted to be at peace. I felt it was something I needed to do.

"Lou, you know I am going to love you, even if you want to not be one of them." His eyes finally meet mine parking in the Cullen's garage. I turned to face them dark eyes, his face focused on mine. "I just wish this wasn't happening so soon." His voice weak, I reached my hand to touch his face softly. "Jacob, you know I am going to be with you forever, in my death my spirit will stay with you." My voice calm, but Jacob moved in the driver seat to me quickly, I didn't understand until my hands covered my head. I didn't know what I was seeing but it was Jacob a wolf running, I felt his pain his lose, but I also saw him imprinting again, I felt the love of a new. I smiled feeling the world slipping to black; I felt my body finally relaxing. It was my time.

I watch her eyes closed, I felt my hands holding her close shaking her. "Lou, baby wake up, please!" I cried trying to not shake her too hard, my hands was trembling. I wanted to no phase and hurt her, I wanted her to be ok, but I knew what was happening.

I kept still holding her close; I didn't notice Alice and Jasper enter the garage. Alice face was dull, her eyes staring deeper into my own. "Jacob, it's time to let her go…" She spoke softly, Jasper opened the car door and my hands gripped onto her.

"Go away!" I snapped pulling her into my arms, I wanted to hold onto her and I wanted her to show them she is going to be awake soon.

"Jacob please?" Bella was now the other side of the car, her eyes freaked me out even more now, but I kept hold of Louise close to me, I could hear her breathing slow and calm.

"I am sorry Jacob." I could hear Edward, he had opened the drivers side of the car, his eyes focused on mine, I felt sick looking at him.

"She's gone." He finally added, but I felt my arms loosen, Alice moved Louise from my grip and she cradled her like a small infant.

It was hard watching Alice and Jasper carrying her away, Bella sat next to me, but I avoided her, I always avoided looking at her.

"Jake, she's in no more pain." Her voice was soft; it was like wind chimes of a soft summer breeze. Her hand touched mine, but it was ice cold, burning my skin. I pulled my hand away.

"I hate you!" I spat at Bella, I'd never thought I would say that, but I did. Bella recoiled from me.

"I can't be here!" I said now running out the Garage, my body trembled into the change I ran, I phased running into the forest.