As I got in my Volvo all I could think about was if Bella was happy… Maybe she would have been better off with Jacob… What if, me going out with her is making her unhappy…

Chapter 22:

BPOV

I laid my head on my pillow and slowly, I drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

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"Bella?" I hear my dad whisper from the small crack he had made between my door and doorframe. I had been up and reading since sunrise and was waiting for my dad to come. I knew the talk he was about to have with me - about Edward naturally.

"Yeh dad. I'm up." I told him. This was going to get really uncomfortable, for both my dad and me.

"Good, good. I didn't want to wake you." he said walking towards me. He sat on the edge of my bed and continued, "I wanted to have a little talk with you, but you probably already knew that didn't you?"

"Yeh I kind of guessed that you would." I said.

"So…" He started.

"Dad, just say it." I pleaded.

"What really happened between you and Jacob?" He asked accusingly.

Then, I once again explained to him, in great detail I might add, what had happened yesterday. I told him about how Jacob came to pick me up early, I told him how I nearly hit Nicole and then how we took Quil and Embry home. Then I explained how I wasn't in the mood to shop with Jake any more and I just wanted to go home. I then explained to him about how Jacob stopped at Wal-mart for no reason except that he was hungry, I told him how I told Jacob that I would make him something at home but he insisted I come in with him. After I explained that I started on the part about Jacob telling me that he wanted me to be happy and… gave me to him? Anyway, then I told him about Edward's family and how everyone was so welcoming and kind. I think they must have been expecting me because they all knew my name. Maybe Alice told hem about me? Maybe Edward told them about me?

Well then my dad just looked at me with a curious expression.

"What?" I asked him.

"So… did you really love Jacob or not?" He asked, still harboring the same honestly curious expression.

"Yes dad I did…do still love him, but just not the same way I like Edward." I said.

"So you don't love Edward?"

"I don't know just yet. But I think I do, not the same way I love Jacob though. I love Jacob more like a brother than anything else dad." I blurted out to him, but I really did mean it.

"I understand Bells." He replied.

"Thanks dad. I love you." I told him as I gave him a hug before he headed out my bedroom door.

"Love you too Bells." He called back over his shoulder.

I'm glad that my dad understands what happened, but he thinks that I should get back with Jacob because he loved me enough to let me go, but then again, Edward loved me enough to not ruin my relationship with Jacob and to leave me be. I love Jacob, I just wasn't in love with him. And as far as Edward and I go, well… I think I'm love him, but if I tell him… Will he be able to say it when I do? I don't know if I could handle it if he didn't.

So I got up and went to shower. When I came back into my room - clean and changed - Jacob was sitting on my bed.

"Hey Bells." He said.

"Jake…I'm sorry -" I started but he cut me off.

"It's ok Bells. I just wanted to talk to you." He explained as I sat down next to him.

He pulled me closer and we sat facing each other as Jacob spoke.

Author's Notes - Do you think Bella should say she loves Edward before he does??? Review and let me know who you think should say it first…