Authors final notes: Ok so this is the end of this story, I know I switch it up a lot in this one, but the fact is, I planned this ending from the start and it needed to stay the way I envisioned it. I hope that you enjoy this story and look forward to more from me.
Chapter 17
I opened my eyes slowly, I felt weird stronger somehow. I tried to look around me, if this was death it didn't feel like I was on a fluffy cloud playing a harp. I sucked at musical instruments and don't even bother asking me to sing. I then blinked. I could see everything clear, colours I'd never thought to give names. I wasn't a girl to need glasses, but I must have been blind for now I had focus. Then I placed my hands on the bed, it felt real. The room was different, everything didn't seem real.
"Louise, careful now." A sweet voice spoke to me, I knew that mothering voice.
"Esme…" I whispered hearing the tone of my voice, it was careful it was musical. "No, No this isn't what I wanted!" I jumped amazed by how fast I moved, how quickly I rushed to a reflective surface. My eyes felt a blaze of anger. I stared right back at me, looking into my own eyes. I see that deadly crimson taken over my soft blue, my skin seemed like marble, I felt sick and I felt anger. Most of all I wanted to wake up. This was a very bad dream.
"Louise, Emmett he didn't want to let you go." Bella's voice was the one to answer my unasked question. Her hand reached mine and I let her hold it careful. I knew I was stronger than her and I was stronger than all the Cullen's. "I'm not happy Bella." My voice careful, I wasn't going to lie and Bella nodded.
"Louise, we left Fork, we brought you someplace." She pursed. I then knew what she meant. The packed wouldn't be too happy about my change.
"I understand Bella…" I now turned away from the mirror; I looked to Esme and Alice trying to decode my facial expression.
"Louise, Jasper he tried his best, but no one could stop Emmett." Alice voice was low, her eyes looked defeated, but I now quickly moved to be at her side.
"Alice you did your best and that makes me happy." I then looked back to my last vision, I tried to laugh, but it just coursed my heart that didn't beat to feel broken. The moment it stopped breaking, the imprint was broke. Jacob would find new love.
"Louise, are you ok?" I could hear Carlisle calling my name; I opened my eyes nodded slowly. His face seemed more beautiful, all their faces seemed to take my non needed breath away.
"I'm going to be ok…" I said quickly, I started to notice the new senses of being a vampire, the smell of every thing, the colours, but most of all the new love of the Cullen's.
I walked now, I knew there was one person I needed to talk to, he was sitting on the rock beside a river on the land the house stood. I wanted to make a mental note to where I was brought.
Emmett sat still his eyes looking out, I never thought him to be so still. Then again I never imagine Emmett to be so still. I coughed, not a real one, but to get his attention. When Emmett turned to face me, it was heart breaking; his face looked filled with pain.
"Lou, I didn't want to lose you." His voice was calm, his eyes focused. "So if you've come to punish me, I want you to know I don't regret doing it." His hands raised in submission. I move quickly to him and wrapped my arms around him hugging tight.
"I'm so mad at you Emmett Cullen!" I said harsh, but then pulled away to look into his Golden eyes. "But that you've punished yourself enough." I then gave a small smile looking over his confused face.
"I. I mean you're not, you're not going to kill me." He said trying to complete his sentence without seeming stupid.
"No…" I then sat beside him; I then turned to face him again.
"Can you tell me one thing?" I asked looking him up and down.
"Yeah shot." He replied laughing to himself, his hands folded across his chest.
"What made you stop?" I looked deep into his eyes, I didn't know why I asked, but it was what popped into my head first.
"Rosalie, she's fond of you." He then turned to look at me closer. "Don't tell her I told you that…" he laughed and I gave him a soft push, but not as soft as I thought watching him fall off the rock. "Oops sorry!" I covered my mouth giggling. My laugh sounded like music.
"It's ok." Emmett finally got to his feet, his eyes finding mine. "You're not hungry?" he asked, but I stared to him feeling nothing burning, no pain I thought every new born felt.
"I'm." I froze looking quickly to my side seeing the world blur away, I felt a sharp pain ripping through my arm, my chest.
"Emmett!" Bella called my name, I didn't mean it, I pulled off the limp body of Louise, she was still, her chest wasn't rising or falling, her eyes still. I'd killed her, I didn't mean to, but it had happened. "I'll Kill Him!" Jacob's voice rang from behind the door frame. I could see his skin ripple with his anger. I wasn't scared of the wolf, he could try and kill me, I felt the guilt sinking into me. I was meant to stop, I wasn't meant to kill her.
Jacob pounced as he shifted into the wolf and his aim was for me.
Bella was the one to stop him, her hands grabbed making the wolf cry in pain and I kept my eyes as his teeth snapped at my face.
It took Bella a while to convince Jacob to leave, but he wanted revenge on me, I didn't blame him.
I'd see him run away. Jacob had every right to be mad, but he promised if we didn't leave and soon he would have us all killed for Emmett's mistake, I felt like I was taking too much, I'd miss Louise so much, if I could cry I would have broke into never ending tears.
"Bella, we are getting ready to leave." Edward said to me softly, his hand touched my arm pulling me close to him.
"We need to leave her, Jacob wants to burry her here." My eyes found Edward's, he nodded in a way to understand Jacob's last wish.
I looked back on my life in Forks, we wouldn't return out of respect, more of my lose of my cousin and Jacob.
I'd run until my lungs felt sore, it was hard to get that image out of my head, I didn't want to think about it.
When I returned the next day with the pack, they were all gone. I could tell they left in the night, but I just didn't want to go into that room. Sam has gone into it, his eyes seemed filled with tears. Louise was loved by all of the pack. I could remember telling everyone what happened. Emily cried, Kim couldn't speak, but most of all Embry wanted blood revenge, he wanted to kill them, just like me.
When Sam exited the room, I noticed he wrapped her body neatly in a blanket, I didn't think any of us could look at her, she was perfect. I would never forget her smile, the way her nose crinkled when she laughed. I'd take these memories to my grave. I didn't want to live forever if I couldn't have her with me.
It was hard to sit through the service of Louise's funeral. Charlie cried while Billy was touching his shoulder telling him what a brave girl Louise was. I felt detached from everything, I couldn't feel, I didn't want to feel. I knew she was gone, I'd made a mental plan, I made sure to not phase and I could stop this thought deep in my head.
After the wake was easy to put my plan into motion, Billy falling to sleep quickly and I moved quickly around the small house. My bed still smelt of her, I remember her scent wild flowers on a spring morning just after a light rain. Then her perfume she always wore, it was a lovely floral scent. I could remember every thing we did together. I wanted to cry, but what I was going to do was impossible. I thought about over dosing, but I sweated out everything quickly, I thought about cutting my wrist, but after seven attempts and all I had was blooded sheets. I then got the last resort. I found the steel cable, the strongest I could get my hands on. I walked slowly into the forest thinking of all the good times I spent with Louise.
I wasn't living without her.
"Jacob Black you stop right there!" her voice was angry, but then I remembered her being cute when mad. I spun around looking to her, she wasn't all there, but I could see the outline of her.
"How can you do this to yourself Jake?" her voice now in pain, her blue eyes looked shimmering with the light of the moon.
"Louise I can't be without you." I whispered slowly, my hand reaching for her face. "I love you." I added watching her eyes stare deep into mine.
"I don't want you to kill yourself Jacob, It's not the way." Her voice smooth, I watched as the breeze blew past us, my hair moving in the wind but she was still.
"I am dead, it was meant to be, but when you die a natural death, we will be together." Her voice seemed to be careful; her eyes kept looking to the steel cable. "I want you to live Jacob, live for me." Her hand touched my face, I could feel the warmth from her hand, when you expected it to be cold and her spirit was beautiful.
"How do I live without you Louise?" I shouted, I couldn't look her in the eyes.
"Jacob, know I am always with you, I am waiting, I love you more than you ever know." Her hands brushed over my face, she leaned in kissing me. I felt her surrounding me and then kissing back I held her close. The last kiss was broken by the snapping of tree branches.
"His here!" Seth's voice called, I opened my eyes to see she was gone, but I smiled feeling her scent surround me.
"Seth, is he ok?" Embry's voice called after Seth.
I laughed, "I'm ok!" I then see the pack join me looking to the steel wire in my hands.
"Jacob, what are you thinking of doing?" Jared glared from me, to my hand.
"I'm not doing anything…" I felt my smile fade seeing Louise face smiling down at me from the clouds.
The rest of the pack didn't believe my story until I told them about Louise.
I then knew she was right, I would be with her again some day, but until then I was going to live, and be alive for both of us.