Authors note- Hello this chapter is a little skip so yeah.
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1 and a half years later
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BPOV
The months went by fast after I came back from Europe. Edward turned twenty on a few monthes ago. When he turned twenty I got him the Vanquish he of course whined about it but eventually got over it. We have been dating for about two years and two months.
He has been in medical school for two years. Alice and the rest also went to college while I sat alone just waiting until one of them went on break. Charlie had been very oppupied with fishing and work.
It was October and Edward and the rest had a four day Halloween break. Carlisle was picking him up from the airport.
With my extra time I have been writing more songs. I have so much extra time that I spend it sleeping.
Lazy? Yes but what am I supposed to do. I was alone in a small house with nothing to do. I laid in my bed with all the blankets over me. I heard my door open. I threw the blankets off me. I looked up at my godess. He smiled at me. I jumped in his arms.
" Edward I am going crazy in this house." I whined
" I know sweetheart." He said. I leaned up and kissed him. I breathed him in. He smelt like Esme. I pulled away laughing.
"What?" He asked.
" You smell like Esme." I commented.
He sighed " She didnt let me go for about ten minutes. She said she missed her baby." He said
" I missed my baby." I said. He chuckled
He leaned down and kissed me. He moved me backwards and I fell on the bed. I giggled against his lips. I wrapped my arms tight around him and his hands went to my lips moved insync.
I heard my door open and someone clear their throat. Edward pulled away. I saw Charlie. I Immediatly stood up and straightened out my clothes.
"Yes dad?" I asked
" Sorry I just wanted to let you know that I am going out I wont be back til' tomorrow alright." He said
" Gottcha." I said. He closed my door.
" I really need my own house." I said.
" Then you would be all alone." Edward said
" Im alone now. Well not now tecniclly but when you are gone so is Charlie I never see him anymore so whats the difference." I said.
Yes it may sound like I am whining but I realy missed everyone. As I said I do wish that sometimes I wasnt famous. I could go to college and be with the others. Obviously fate has something had something better planned.
" Sorry I'm whining its just sometimes its really hard for me." I sat on my bed and leaned against my headboard.
I wasnt eighteen anymore I couldnt have fun and just play games my way. This was the real world its not fun and games anymore. I just started taking a breakfrom singing. I made a small speech telling people that I was going to take a break from everything. Yes they get pissed but, look at Britney Spears. She needed a break also. I took a deep breath.
" Well what can I do." He asked. I could hear some anger in his voice.
" Edward I dont expect you to do anything." I said
" Well I obviously have too. Your miserable I just... I cant take it. I dont know what to do I cant just quit medical school to spend time with you." He said
" Edward I dont want you to do that." I said.
" Bella always upset and it tears me apart because I cant do anything." He yelled.
"Please dont yell at me." I said
He ran a hand through his hair " I'm twenty one not eiht I can do anything I want." He said sternly.
" Whats your problem?" I asked
" You...Not exactly you but it has to do with you. I cant handle this anymore." He yelled
" Well I'm sorry.I cant just go off to college and be with you guys. I cant drop my singing career just like you cant drop your medical career. I wish I was normal sometimes but hey you cant have EVERYTHING handed to you on a silver platter. So I am sorry if you cant handle me." I yelled back.
" I cant handle this anymore. I cant handle you or anything." He said
" So what throw away everything we have like its nothing." I asked. Tears threatened to spill.
" I think we need a break." He said
I looked up at him. I stood up. " If thats what you want." I said.
It was something I didnt want. Tears streamed down my face.
" Well you obviously dont want to fight for me." He said angrily.
" You think I want this" I yelled " As I said I cant have everything handed to me on a silver platter. Obviously you cant handle us." I finished.
" I cant. I'll tell you the truth I cant handle us. I cant handle the pressure. I cant be here whenever you want me Bella." He said sternly.
" I know that. Then whats the problem?" I asked him.
" Bella. I think we need a break. A break from eachother until everthing is figured out." He said.
(a/n: This is where my tears started coming)
I looked down at my arm
Edward and Bella Forever It read.
Maybe it wasnt forever. Maybe we thought that we could make it last forever.
I though thathe was my soul mate but maybe we arent meant to be. And now I have a rememberance staring at me in the face on my arm.
I nodded and tears fell down my cheeks. I heard my door slam. I looked at the door. I laid in my bed and sobbed. My phone buzzed. I grabbed it.
Bella,
Sweetheart whats going on?
-Alice
I cried and ignored her texts. I heard my front door open and slam then footsteps coming up the stairs. I ignored it. I heard my door open.
" Bella. Honey." I heard Alice say. I just laid in my bed and sobbed.
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I dont know how I stayed like that. Alice rubbed my back.
" Bella what happened?" She asked once I finally settled down a little.
I told her everything that happened word for word. Slightly stuttering.
" Bella, Im really sorry. Bt hey maybe this break will make you stronger." She said
" Alice, I am nothing without him." I said my voice hoarse.
She sighed. " Well, I have to head back home alright. I'll see you later okay honey." She said
I nodded