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Do you remember when i said i was going to update soon? Well…. I know I know, I suck for that but I guess real life really got in the way. Just issues that I am getting better at dealing with them so here I am.
This one is for all of you who have been patient enough to wait for an update. And to Lo for not giving up on me *giggles*
Also Erin and Janet. You guys are amazing! Thanks for your opinions and kind words. I love you xoxo
Thank you Thank you Thank you Susan for being my Beta! You rock!
And to my little Kat: I miss ya!
CHAPTER SIX
BPOV
Two weeks have passed since we were discharged from the hospital and well… it has been an interesting experience! My babies are adorable and they are growing up so fast! Emilia is very calm except when she is hungry or needs a diaper change and Elizabeth is my stubborn little girl. Of course, my dad says she inherited that from me. Haha, so funny, Dad. She usually goes to sleep when she chooses to, no matter how much time I`ve spent singing and holding her. It is kind of cute, but also exhausting. My mom helps a lot and my sister Alice as well; she is here all the time and keeps saying she wants another baby while Jasper and Luke only shake their heads.
And my dad? He is NUTS about Mily and Lizy, as he calls them. He comes home from work and immediately goes to the nursery to check on them and "talk" about his day. He often takes Luke with him and then talks about how he is going to build a tree house for them to play in, and that as soon as they learn how to walk he will take them to the beach to fish with him and uncle Jasper. We find that adorable. It really is a wonderful and overwhelming thing to witness because he will be their only father figure. I know that he is trying his best to make them feel safe and loved, just like their father should have done.
Sometimes I get a little sad about that, but I remember we have a lot of people that love us and care about my little girls. And speaking about loving them, there is a small person who absolutely adores and wants to come see them almost every day - Josh. That little boy could give my dad a run for his money when it comes about loving his "sisters".
I look at the clock and see that it`s almost four in the afternoon. Elizabeth finally fell sleep after crying and screaming for about half an hour. I almost started crying with her wondering what was wrong. It urns out she didn`t want to wear her socks. As soon as I took them off her she calmed down and fell asleep very quickly. Like I said: stubborn. Emilia actually has been sleeping for an hour already so that leaves me about one hour to take a nap or take a shower… I choose a nap.
Just when I`m about to fall asleep, my mom knocks on my door and announces that we have a visitor. I get up not even checking how I look in the mirror. I already know I look like crap, at least that's how I feel at the moment. Before I get downstairs, I hear him… and I chuckle at his words.
"But Daddy I wanna go see my sisters and give them the dolls we bought them as a surprise!"
Before I wonder who brought him today, I hear Edward trying to convince him to stay downstairs. "Listen Josh, we should wait here and ask Bella if the girls are awake. You don`t want to make them cry do you?"
I get to the living room and see them sitting there talking with my mom. Apparently Josh decided that he wanted to buy a doll for his sisters today. This kid is going to spoil them rotten and they are just tiny babies! He already brought them dresses, toys, and many drawings. He is just adorable!
"Hey miss Bella!" he yells as soon as he sees me. "Where are Mily and Lizy?" As soon as he heard my dad calling them by those names, he started using them as well. Then my mom started, and now almost everyone calls the girls by those names. Then he points at my shirt and asks "What`s that on your shirt? It looks wet." I look down at my shirt, unsure of what he could be talking about. But then I see wet spots right around my chest on my shirt. Oh My God! I am leaking! I feel my face burning and tears in my eyes, I am so embarrassed. "Shit!" I mutter to myself, or that`s what I thought.
As soon as that word comes out of my mouth Josh exclaims, "Miss Bella you said a bad word! And why is your shirt wet? Where are my sisters? Daddy, why is Miss Bella crying? Is she gonna get grounded for using a bad word?"
Before I can say anything, Edward says "Listen Buddy, why don`t we come back later? Maybe Bella needs some time," and then he looks at me "or maybe we can wait here for you? Really there is no problem if we have to wait, we are the ones disturbing you after all. We can hang out with your mom or Charlie when he gets here. It really doesn't matter." At this he takes my hand and then clears my tears. Now I feel even more embarrassed! I only nod and walk away, almost running up the stairs.
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I get in my room and grab a comfortable tunic, leggings, and my underwear and then get in the shower. I only take a short one just in case my girls decide to wake up. While in the shower, I start laughing at the absurdity of what just happened. I guess I was so sleepy that I didn`t notice I didn`t have my bra on! I guess my boobs are telling me is time to feed my kiddos. Still laughing, I get out of the shower, brush my hair, take a look at my face and see that I almost look human again. Yay me!
This time before I go downstairs I hear Josh and my mom`s voices coming from the nursery. I stay by the door and listen to what they are saying.
"Do you think Miss Bella is sad? Why was she crying? Do you think if I hug her she would feel better? My dad always says that my hugs make him feel happy and sometimes when I am really sad a hug makes me feel not so sad anymore." I sigh and smile. This kid is so smart and so honest! I don`t really know his and Edward`s life story but I am glad that they are in our lives now.
"I don`t think so honey, she was just tired and a little embarrassed because of what happened but she will be fine. Sometimes when women have little babies we can cry easily, but that doesn`t mean they`re sad. Bella is just tired and a little emotional right now."
I heard him saying okay to what my mom said and just before I enter the nursery I hear him again "But she will be fine? She won`t leave Mily and Lizy? My nana Esme says my mom was so sad that she couldn`t stay with me anymore that`s why I only live with daddy. She will be fine right? She won`t have to leave?"
I turn around to hide my tears and find a pair of teary eyes looking at me. Green eyes that belong to the daddy that little boy is talking about. The daddy who, I now know, is as broken as I often feel I am.
A/N Thoughts?
Don`t worry your pretty faces! I already have prewritten a couple of chapters so next week you will have more of this little story ;)