Yay, finally another update! I'm really (times ten :P ) sorry!

As you all know, I have school, and won't be able to focus all my attention on the story (I really wish I could). You know how high school works. A lot more drama then there is learning half the time. Ok, sorry for my rambling. You can get onto reading the story now.

P.s., I will most likely only to be able to write a little bit on the weekends, so when i figure out a set schedule for when I will update, my writing and updating will take a while. So I apologize to everyone, and want to thank you all for being really patient :)

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*I do not, never have, never will own Divergent, Insurgent, Allegiant. Veronica Roth does. I also do not own any other books beside the copies of those books, and Haven, Mirage, and soon Eternal by Kristi Cook. (Again, sorry for my continuous rambling.)

** Warning: This is a really long chapter, so I hope that makes up for my extremely late update.

Chapter 19

Sienna's POV

Still night of the party

I can't believe that there isn't one single adult at this party. And no one even suspects that I'm pregnant, even when I have thrown up twice in the same hour. Connor hasn't left my side once. That includes when I went into Derek's kitchen to get a bottle of water, since I can't drink beer in my condition. Later, after a few hours of being at the party though, I start getting tired, and asked Connor if we could go somewhere, that isn't mine or his parents apartments, to go to bed.

After Connor took me to some old apartment that he cleaned up when we got there, we kind of didn't fall asleep right away. Instead, let's just say, we kissed a lot which, lead to further events, this time with protection, and now we are just relaxing in each others arms, my bare back against his bare chest. He has his arm around my waist and his hand is rubbing small circles on my stomach, where our baby is.

"Sienna." Connor says, bringing me out of my just-about-to-fall-asleep state.

"What is it, Connor? If it's about tomorrow, it can wait. Just, talk about something else, please." I feel him bend over my shoulder and kiss my cheek.

"I wasn't going to say a word about tomorrow. I was going to ask you what you want the baby to be before we go to check in a couple weeks." I sigh, and suddenly my whole body feels like it's on fire when he moves his hand lightly and slowly over my arms, to my stomach, and further down.

I turn around before he can do anything else with his hands, and press my chest against his, and have our lips barely touching as I speak. "I want a little girl, and have her name be…" I pause to think about it for a few seconds. That's when it hits me. "Violet." I see his eyes light up and he has a huge smile on his face that I don't think can get any bigger than it already is.

"That is a beautiful name. Just like yours, Sienna. In fact, I was thinking the same name as well. And if it is a boy, I was thinking we could name him Chase. How does that sound?" he asks, his lips brushing against mine before he kisses me. And, to answer his question, I moan during our kiss and try to get closer to him, if that's even possible.

"I take that as a yes then?" he says, smirking, when we break apart. I nod and kiss the hollow of his neck and start to fall back asleep with his arms wrapped around my waist and his hands on my back holding me close to him. He kisses the top of my head and that's how we fall asleep.

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Morning of Initiation Training

Will's POV

I wake up in the morning and go to Talia's room to wake her up for breakfast. After knocking on the door about 3 times, I just open it and see that she's not here. And it doesn't look like she's been in here for a whole day. "I wonder why..."

"Christina," I ask when I go back to my room to wake her up. "Have you seen Talia? She isn't in her room." She sleepily looks up at me for a couple of seconds, then turns around and covers her face with the blanket.

"Will, she's probably with Connor and Aria. Leave her be, and go make me some breakfast." I chuckle and go quietly towards the bed, so she doesn't hear me coming, then suddenly jump on her. She lets out a half surprised, half scared scream. Thankfully the walls are about 80 percent sound proof or so, or else there would be people banging on our apartment door to see what's wrong.

As the tries to playfully smack my arm, I go and kiss her full on the lips. "That's what happens when you tell me, instead of asking me, to make you breakfast." she smirks and kisses me again.

"I'm sorry. Can you please make me breakfast?" she says while dragging out 'please' and making a puppy dog face.

"Let me think about it." I say while making a fake thinking face. "Ok, but first," I lean down again, this time laying on my back, and bringing her on top of me so she is now face-to-face with me. "You have to answer a question for me." I tell her as she kisses up and down my neck,to my chest, and back.

"What's that?" she says between kisses, as her teeth just barely scrape against the skin on the side of my neck.

"You have to tell me what you want." I smile and feel her smirk against my chest. Then she tilts her head up so she is looking at me. She kisses me before answering.

"I want French toast with sugar on top. With a slice of Dauntless chocolate cake on the side."

I nod, and gently roll her off me and lay her on her back. Before I get up to make her breakfast, I lean down and hold both sides of her face, and kiss her one more time. And she returns the favor before pushing me away gently to make her food.

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After I made Christina and I some breakfast, I went looking for Talia. 30 minutes or so of looking, I go and check the unused apartments deeper in the compound. When I go and look through at least three abandoned apartments, I find a room that has some noise coming from inside. I try to quietly shut the door. It squeaks a little, but not enough to make myself noticeable to those in the other room. Once I shut the door, I can hear things more clearly, and I recognize it as someones voice that I wouldn't expect to hear coming form down here.

"No way. PLEASE let me be wrong and not let that be Talia Lucas is with!" I think to myself.

I walk around, and come to a door, which I'm guessing is the bedroom, and swing it open, only to find a shirtless Lucas, and Talia wearing a tank-top on. I'm extremely grateful that the sheet is covering the rest of them. Their kissing stopped as soon as I slammed the back of the door against the wall. And they look completely terrified and can't speak because they are so shocked. And at this point, my face is redder than ever, and it matches how mad I am at the moment.

"Talia Scott! What on earth are you doing down here? And with Lucas?!" I yell, probably loud enough to echo throughout half the compound.

"Sir. I- we-" I cut him off, not wanted to hear anything that has to come out of his mouth.

I just go over to the bed and grab Talia's arm and pull her out of bed. Thankfully she has shorts on. Suddenly, after I'm about to leave the bedroom with Talia's arm still in my grasp, Lucas is by her side. He also, thankfully, has jeans on, and takes my hand off her arm, which now has a big red hand mark on it and my eyes widen for a split second.

"Oh my god, I just hurt my little girl..." I think to myself.

But my shock evaporates quickly as I see Lucas move Talia to stand behind him. He puts up a brave front, I'll give him that, but that's it. Who knows how long ago they had put those close on.

"Lucas, step away. NOW! Or else you won't ever make it passed these doors even just to get to initiation. And Talia, you're coming home with me, right now!" And with that, as I step towards Lucas, he doesn't move away, but steps forward towards me and puts one arm behind him to keep Talia away.

"Mr. Scott, let me- us, explain everything." he says as he takes one step closer to me.

Just as I'm about to object to whatever he has to say, Talia decides to speak up. "Daddy, just listen to him. And if you don't want to listen or believe him, then listen to me."

I stand there, with no words at all. Stunned by the fact that my own daughter is defending this kid, who she just met yesterday! I give up and storm out of the room and out into the living room by the door. But I don't leave the apartment as I call to them. "Talia, let's go. Now!" three seconds later, she comes out with tears streaming down her face and shoves my shoulder out of the way as she runs down the hall, probably back to our apartment.

"Sir, nothing happened. I swear!" Lucas yells as he leaves the apartment but doesn't follow me.

"Save it, and stay away from my daughter." I tell him without ever looking back. My voice echoing through the hall against the cold stone walls.

After I don't hear any response from him, I quickly go straight back to my apartment. I must have caught up to Talia, because when I get there, I see the door loudly being slammed shut. I let out an exhausted sigh. "This is not how I imagined my day starting off." After I thought I calmed down a little bit, what just happened comes back into my head, and I'm angry again. When I get to the door, I go inside and slam it as hard as I can, and not 2 seconds after I did that, I hear another door slam shut and lock. Talia's door most likely.

I must have been really zoned out, because I didn't notice Christina come rushing over to me and placing her hands on my chest to stop me from going any further. "Will, what happened?! And why did Talia come running in here crying and slamming the door and knocking down everything in her way to get to her room?" she asks, clearly confused.

"Christina, I'm not in the mood to explain things right now. I promise I will tell you later." and with that, I just go straight to our bedroom, shut the door, and lay on the bed on my back with my hands behind my head and stare up at the ceiling. I sigh and think about what happened between Talia and I back in that room. The look of shock was all over her face when she looked at her arm that had a big red hand mark on it. Which I caused. I've never seen her look so scared and confused before.

"I can't believe I scared and hurt her like that. My own daughter. On top of that, now she is going to be stared at and questioned in initiation about what happened to her arm." I sigh again and close my eyes, and try to take a quick nap before my job starts.

Initiation Begins

Talia's POV

I can't believe he did that to me- us! And he didn't even want to hear anything that either Lucas or I had to say about what happened. On top of that, I also can't believe that he hurt my arm!

Looking in the mirror in my room after I'm done crying about what happened earlier, I take a closer look at my arm. It has a huge red mark on it in the shape of a hand. "I never realized that my dad has a really strong grip. Especially when he's mad."

A knock on my bedroom door startles me out of my thoughts and I jump backwards onto my bed. "Talia, it's mom, can I please come in?" she asks, sounding worried.

"Is dad with you?" is all I ask, and she just opens the door. As she steps into my room, I don't notice any sign of my dad, and I'm extremely happy for that right now.

"No, he left to go to work. I just came in here to remind you that initiation training is in an hour." I slightly nod, looking down at my blanket, and trying to keep my arm out of view from her. But I guess it doesn't go unnoticed, because she lightly gasps.

"Talia, what happened to your arm?" she asks, rushing over to sit on my bed and begins examining my arm.

I don't look at her when all I have to say is, "Dad." she drops my arm out of her hands, and she takes my chin lightly in her hands and makes me face her.

"Tell me what happened. Right now." her eyes and voice demanding yet full of worry. After I explain everything that happened, she started to believe me when I said that Lucas and I didn't do "it" like dad thought we did. Afterwards, she tells me to get ready for training while she goes off to look for my dad, and then go to work.

After a little while of being in training, I see a few people staring at my arm. "Ok people, walk away. Nothing to see here." is what I feel like saying to them. But before I can, Scott, one of our instructors, comes in the room, and throws a knife against the wall with a loud thud, and everyone stops what they were doing and pays attention.

"Alright initiates, make a line right here after getting 6 knives each from the table." He says as he draws a line on the floor with chalk. "I'll demonstrate once, and from there you'll practice your throwing."

Scott goes up to the line he drew for us, and he gets into a stand that he says helps keep his balance, and throw is knife directly into the center of the target. And that's not all. He even shows off enough that when he goes up to the target to retrieve his knife, he turns that target around and shows us that that the blade even went through the back of it. And we stand there in awe.

"Ok, get in line and start throwing. I'll be walking around in a few minutes to see how your progress is and then give you pointers if i see the need to." We don't move, still wondering how he made the knife go through the target. "Now!" he yells, and we all scramble to get 6 knives and start throwing and getting a comfortable stance to keep ourselves balanced.

About 10 minutes or so later, when he's done giving advice to the other initiates, Scott starts heading in my direction, closer to Lucas, who keeps an eye on me ever since I walked through the training room doors.

Skipping right over Lucas, who is throwing good enough to just get a "good work" from Scott.

"Talia, what's up with your arm?" He asks when he comes over to me while I'm practicing my aim and throwing.

"Nothing." I tell him, hoping he'll go away.

"Talia, you're the daughter of a very good friend of mine. And I don't want you to get hurt. So tell me who did this, and I'll tell your parents."

Now I'm annoyed. And what he said is all it takes for me to stop throwing knives at the target, turn around and face him with my knife pointed towards him. "I said nothing happened." My voice dangerously low, then I end up yelling at him. "Now leave me alone and forget about it!" Then I throw the last knife i have at the target. It hits dead center and I storm out of the room.

I hear heavy and fast moving footsteps behind me and I don't have to turn around to know that they are Lucas'. "Talia! Wait up!" he says, sounding out of breath. I stop, and look at my surroundings. I didn't realize that I ran so fast and without even paying attention to where I was going, that I ended up at the chasm. My hands are on the railing, and I'm looking down at the dangerously fast rushing water below me.

"Please, don't do what I think you're thinking about doing, Talia. Not now, not ever. Just come over here, and we can talk about what's going on." he sounds scared, like he's about to cry if I jumped. "Why would I jump? I'm trying to clear my head." I think to myself. But when I turn around, I start to realize that I didn't say that in my head, and he lets out a huge sigh of relief. Then he slowly starts to come towards me, as if he's worried that if he moves to fast, I'll get scared and jump.

So, in order to stop making him think that I will, I let go of the railing, and run into his arms. He hugs me so tightly that I can barely breath. "Can't. Breath." Is all I can say. He loosens his grip on me, but never lets me go.

"Talia. Don't scare me like that. I know we just met yesterday, but i don't think I could keep it together if you ever jumped." he says into my hair. I put the side of my face against his chest ad we stay like that for a couple seconds before he suggests that we head back to the training room.

On the way back, we are a few hallways away from the training room, he stops and gently presses my back against one of the walls. I have no idea what's going on. That is, until he presses his lips against mine.

"I'm so sorry about this morning." he says when we pull apart. "I shouldn't have taken you down there. What happened this morning, and what happened to your arm wouldn't have happened if I didn't take you there last night."

I shake my head, not wanting to talk about this until later tonight. "Let's just go back. We'll talk about that later." He nods, and we walk hand in hand back to training.

Sienna's POV

This morning, I woke up, got dressed, and suddenly I had a horrible feeling in my stomach and ended up having to puking in the bathroom. I tried not to wake up Connor, but that didn't work because he came running in and held my hair away from my face and rubbed my back.

"How much longer does this have to go on for?" I ask out of breath and leaning my back against Connor's chest. He was fully clothed so I couldn't feel the warmth radiation off him onto my back.

"I don't know. But I hope it's soon because I don't like seeing you sick, even if it's my fault this is happening." he sighs afterwards and so do I. I can't believe that he's still blaming himself for all this.

"Connor, this is as much as my fault as it is yours. So please stop blaming yourself." he nods and kisses the side of my neck. After a few seconds he stops and says that we should get to training.

We arrived a couple minutes late, so Scott, our training instructor, says that we will have to stay in training for the amount of time we came in late. Thankfully though, it was only about five minutes.

"Ok, since you two missed the beginning instructions, I'll have to explain them again. I told everyone that I would be walking around from time to time to see how your progress is and then give you pointers if I that you need any. Now get six knives and start throwing."

After I finally get the hang of throwing, three knives later, I see Scott go to Talia and they start talking. And then, all of a sudden, Talia starts yelling and points her last knife at him and he just stands there with a blank expression. as if he knew that was going to happen.

"I said nothing happened." She says with her voice kind low, but not enough that I couldn't hear her. "Now leave me alone and forget about it!" She yells at him then turns around and, not even looking at the target, throws the knife and hit hits right in the center then she storms out of the room. Then some random boy starts running after her.

I turn to Connor. "What was that all about?" He shrugs, then turns back to throwing his knives.

"I think it's because she was caught sleeping with that guy running after her just now. I heard my uncle talking about it with my aunt when we passed his office this morning on our way here." is all he says. I suddenly feel really bad for her. I can only imagine what went down this morning we her, that boy, and her dad.

Half an hour later, Scott stops us and says we can take a 10 minute break. As long as we stay in the training room, that is. As we are all resting up against one of the walls, Connor somehow manages to secretly put his hand behind my back and wrap his hand around the side of my stomach and starts rubbing it. "How are you feeling now from this morning?" he asks, whispering into my ear. His breath tickles my ear, but I don't turn around when I answer him.

"Better. I just want the puking to stop. It's quite annoying actually. And it must be annoying for you too, seeing as how you always have to deal with it when you're around me when it happens." He looks at me and just looks into my eyes before he gives me a quick kiss.

"Hey, as long as I'm with you when it happens, at least I know that it's supposed to be happening and that everything is ok." he smiles and so do I.

"Alright, listen up." Scott says, startling me and Connor from our little moment. "After lunch, which I didn't realize is in a few minutes so I don't know why I let you take a break, you all will come back here until 6:00 pm, and work on fighting techniques." We all nod, and just as we are all about to get up, his watch beeps, letting us know that it's 12:00 pm and time for lunch. "Don't forget to come back here in an hour!" he calls out to us as we all go running out of the room.

As soon as I open the dinning halls doors with Connor right behind me, I'm hit with so many scents that make my stomach turn. And I'm about to run for the hills if it wasn't for Connors hands on my shoulders and guiding me away from the doors and away from anyone who might be watching and listening. "Hey, what's wrong" he asks, sounding worried.

"Nothing. it's just that it seems like "someone" doesn't want to eat anything from there." he seems confused, but it's gone in a second and he gets what I'm trying to say, and he nods.

"Ok, so does that mean that you want to go somewhere else to eat?" I shake my head. "Sienna, you need to eat, not more than ever, because... well, you know why."I sigh and nod my head. "Want to go back to the apartments and see is we can find you something to eat?"

"Which one, your parents' or mine." I hope he doesn't say mine. "Well, my parents aren't home, and I'm sure there isn't anything to eat from the apartment we were at this morning. So I think we should go to yours." I sigh and just nod my head again.

"I really hope that my father isn't there and it's just my mom." I tell him as we pass his parents' place.

He looks at me for a second then back in the direction of the apartments. "Sienna, I think we should go to my parents' then if you're so worried about your dad getting mad again." he tells me, then me eyes start to water as I remember seeing Connor in the infirmary after what my dad did to him. Then I stop him and gently push him against the wall.

"You don't get it, do you Connor?!" I practically yell at him. "I don't want you around him because I'm afraid for you. Afraid of that he'll do something worse to you than just getting you put in the infirmary. If you didn't realize already, he would have ended up basically killing you by choking and suffocating you if it wasn't for your dad and his friends coming to help you." I'm fully crying now, and soaking his shirt that I didn't even realize I put my face on. "I don't want him to hurt you. Not again." God, how I hate these stupid hormones, making seem weak. He just warps his arm around me and kisses my head.

"Don't worry Sienna. If that ever happens again, I will not have been drinking and making myself weak. I can handle myself. And as long as I know that nothing happens to you, I will do whatever I can to win a fight against whoever it is. Even if it's your dad." and with that, he takes me to his place, and luckily his parents are home. And, since they already know about me, I won't be questioned or yelled at. I don't know about Connor though.

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I found out that Tris and Four have a day off today and that's the reason they were home. However, it seemed like we interrupted them from what ever they were doing, I don't want to take a guess. But I guess it's good that they were there because I was able to talk to Tris and get some advice, and she said that if I ever wanted to talk about things, like me being pregnant for example, I could talk to her anytime. So, with that offer on the table, I too that as an opportunity to ask her a few questions that were on my mind while Four talked to Connor in his room.

"Tris?" I asked getting up from their dinning room table and bringing my plate into the kitchen where she was filling the dishwasher.

"Yes, Sienna?" she says, not looking up.

I take a deep breath. "She's had four children, I think she is comfortable talking about this sort of stuff. Just ask her already!" I argue with myself in my head. "Tris, what is it like to raise a child?" she stops what she's doing and looks up at me with a slight smile.

"Come with me." she says taking my hand guiding me to the living room and tells me to sit down. "This isn't the first time I'm asked about that. Actually, it's the third time. My best friends asked, then my oldest son, Jake, asked that when his daughter, Simone, was born, and so did my second oldest, Jenna. She is going to have her first child in a few months and so I walked her through it every step of the way. It's just something that you'll have to get the hang of quickly. And actually, it's kind of easy. Well, during the pregnancy anyways. But after the baby comes, it's all you'll really have time for. Literally." she says laughing, I guess remembering what it was like when her kids were younger. "I can help you with whatever you need if you don't feel that you can ask your mother about these things for some reason. But there will be a time where talking to your mother is the only solution to a problem that I can't fix. Ok?" she asks, and I feel my stomach drop.

"How can I talk to my mom about this if she is only now starting to support me. That doesn't mean she wants to talk me through anything." I tell her, but she just shakes her head.

"Of course she'll want to help you through this. It's a mothers instinct, if you want to call it that, to help their children with these things when they need it. Don't worry everything will be fine." I nod and we get up and as Connor comes in, he just about runs to me and lifts me in his arms in a hug and spins us in a circle a couple times.

When he's done and he sets me back on my feet, he kisses me deeply, like last night in that apartment. "Connor, what has gotten into you?" I ask and he looks at Four, who nods at him. Behind him, I see Tris come up to his side, and take his hand looking confused.

"Four, what's going on?" she asks and he just tells her to watch.

I look back at Connor. "Sienna, there is a way that you don't have to do the fights in initiation." he says and I smile like there's no tomorrow and kiss him again.

When we pull apart though, I can tell that there is more to his news. "How is that going to work though?" I ask. Then he looks back at Four again, and he just nods. "What is going on between these two?"

"Sienna, you don't have to do the fights, but..." he pauses, then continues after a couple of seconds. "But you have to tell Scott, who will eventually ask both of your parents to sign off on that." And that's when my eyes go wide. "And if my prediction is correct, your dad won't and will make you fight. And I'm guess as a punishment for all... this." he says point at us and my stomach.

Then Tris enters the conversation. "Wait a second. You think that Sienna's father will basically force his own daughter to fight even when he knows she's pregnant?" Connor and Four nod.

"It's because he didn't take the news well in the beginning, so now I think that he will do something like that, that will make me go insane if Sienna and the baby gets hurt, and to punish Sienna because he thinks that she let this happen. Even when it was really all my fault."Not again..."

"Didn't I tell you not even 20 minutes ago that it's not all your fault and to stop blaming yourself?" he puts his head down and nods.

Then Four speaks up." I can talk to him and hopefully get him to sign off on it. And if he doesn't, i have other ways of making him do so." he smirks, and so does Connor and I. Tris just smacks his arm. "What? I'm trying to help an innocent kid over here who needs all the help she can get right now." he defends himself, and Tris just rolls her eyes before heading back to their room. But not before saying good bye that is.

We thank Four as he comes with us to the training room to talk with Scott. And no all we have to do is wait and see what happens next.

OK! Finally done with the chapter. I can honestly say that I'm not too happy with this chapter. It's just that I've been really distracted lately, and whenever I tried to write, I was always interrupted or had to go deal with other things. so again, I am very sorry for the very late updating and for the sucky chapter. Please let me know what you think about it, because if you don't then I don't know how I will be able to write another chapter that you all will actually like. Read, Review, PM me, and tell me your opinion, likes/dislikes, and I'll do my best in updating regularly if possible. Later! :)