Hi so here is another chapter, I managed to finish two before I went away which is a huge improvement for me.

This chapter consists a lot of what happened in Breaking Dawn, a lot of the conversation is based on the Wolf Pack's parts which aren't much especially in the second half.

I think that this is the halfway line, the background for this story is done and therefore the following ten chapters will finally see Shay making her debut probably and the fallout from Rachel's decision five years ago. And probably Renesmee.

Disclaimer-Nothing is mine.

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I Would For You

Paul/Rachel Fanfiction-When Rachel Black left La Push nearly four years ago to go to college she was carrying a secret. When she returns to pick up the pieces in the aftermath of her brother's disappearance she has no idea of what fate has in store for her and the effect it has on her life.

Chapter 10-In My Veins

Paul's Point Of View

I didn't even have to go over to Billy's house to know she was gone. The bond that had been strong and vital between the two of us even more so after the previous night had been lax for most of the day, the wolf moaning and groaning inside me at the thought of letting my imprint go.

But there were three teenagers turning into wolves. Jeremy had calmed down somewhat and managed to turn back even though he was shaking like a leaf in the kitchen of Emily's house wrapped in a blanket. Keaton had come back his body turning from the dark grey fur into his tiny eleven year old body. His best friend Rory now a light chocolate brown wolf was still in the woods somewhere but Jared was with him and I finally changed back, threw on a pair of jeans and a grey shirt that might have belonged to Sam at some stage and bolted to my car throwing myself into the fastest gear possible.

"She's gone" Billy said at the door. "She packed up and got the nearest plane back home" there was a long pause.

I blinked. I had known always in the back of my mind that Rachel would react by running, the way she had done so before, it didn't stop the hurt from kicking in like a slow poison.

"Oh" I said finally blinking back the sudden sharpness in my eyes. I would not cry in front of Rachel's father. Pride wouldn't let me-if I ever got a shot at getting Rachel back I needed some level of protection and breaking down around her father was probably not going to get me anywhere.

"I am sorry son" Billy said finally his voice soft and filled with something that could have been pity before his voice and his expression hardened. "But I still have to ask a very interesting question that I think I have the right to ask. What the hell happened that night of your Prom between you and my daughter?"

I blinked again head snapping back. Of all the things I had expected the old man to ask me about that wasn't one of them. I didn't think that Rachel would tell him about Prom. I knew that she hadn't told him before today. The old man and Jacob would have both let me know about it and I had kept that part of my past separate from my wolf's mind so not to clue in the almost always angry Jacob. And it was his bluntness that stunned me into truth.

"We had sex...that night..." the awkwardness was making it easier to breathe.

Billy Black raised one eyebrow with a rather sickening expression on his face. "Oh" he said finally. "Did you make her leave the first time? I mean..." he gestured changing his words. "I know she was leaving anyway but...she never really came back after that night"

I nodded feeling utterly miserable. "I changed that morning. Went out to get breakfast and changed...saw something and it set me off...you know" I gestured and Billy nodded again because he did know. Jacob and Embry, Quill, Seth and Leah had all told him enough about the unpredictability of our condition. Emily had shown him the damage we were capable off.

While I would cut my own balls off before I let any harm come to Rachel I could understand his aversion when it had come to having me in his family. "And by the time I had gotten my shit together she was already gone." I shrugged again.

Billy sighed again running a hand over his face. He looked old and careworn and beaten and just...tired...I couldn't blame him. And I got that. He had one daughter safe in Hawaii that he barely got to see, a son who was putting his life on the line to protect a vampire baby that nobody knew how dangerous it was gonna be and a daughter who had ran again after she had realised the depth of how badly the lies in this town ran deep.

"I'm sorry" I said finally. Billy nodded. "I know son" he said heavily... "And..." he paused as if each word was costing him pain. "I don't totally hate the idea of you being in the family"

I blinked. "Thanks" I said finally. Billy smiled bitterly "She'll come back eventually" he said though I could tell he was trying to convince himself rather than me. But there was no answer. Because at that moment the wolf howl that I recognised as Sam's was howling loud over the forest. Billy's face shuttered. "Go" he said finally. "Paul..." he said as I turned to drop my pants.

"Don't be a stranger...I want to know what's going on...and Paul" the look on his face was serious. "She will never forgive you if something happens to Jake...remember that"

I nodded swallowing hard. It was a horrific thought, whatever our differences I liked Jacob as a pack brother and I loved Rachel with everything despite the fact that she had left me again. Seth was a sweet kid even if a little annoying and Leah...well I didn't want Leah dead despite her bitterness that might have been well-deserved.

Murder...murder wasn't something I had signed up for. Even when the newbie vamps had arrived last year they had been uncontrollable, the Cullen's...for the most part they were decent people.

'Apparently were not attacking' Embry said carefully. He was watching Jared and Sam converse in their human form with Seth in the area of the forest we had long ago designated as neutral.

'Why?" I asked. Embry snorted.

'Jake's imprinted' I blinked. Well that was unexpected. Trust Jacob to do the unexpected, then it registered with me...

'On who?" I gritted out. Embry snorted with glee.

'On the kid...she's a girl...and Bella's in the process of changing into a vampire as we speak. Edward Cullen's up there with her and Leah's in the wind because the blood was so bad. But it means were not attacking...we don't attack imprints remember? So I think there working out a treaty"

Embry sounded thrilled and I realised that he had almost been forced into killing his best friend and a girl he had known comfortably. It had been hard on him I realised being caught between a rock and a hard place, Quill had had Claire, and Embry had had nobody, nothing, and no one.

'Gee thanks Paul' Embry said looking irritable even in wolf form. 'I didn't know you cared that much'

But none of it mattered because Rachel was gone.

Christmas was coming with all of its sickening horrible cheer, I was waiting until the two packs had managed a comfortable relationship and then I was going to take some well-earned time away go to Hawaii and beg Rachel to give me a second chance.

I'd spend my days fantasising about what I would do if they got a second chance with her. If she wanted me to I would move to Hawaii, stop phasing and live a normal life with her. I could go back to school and get myself a degree, I could be happy...we could have kids.

The words 'Our Daughter' sometimes kept me up at night. Wouldn't it be nice to have a daughter with Rachel? A little girl that looked like her that was a smart as her and as quick witted. A girl who was so beautiful like her mother that I would have to hit all the boys with sticks to get them to look away.

Oh yes I had plans.

And predictably that's where they all fell to shit.

The Vol...Whatever they were, were coming. Vampire Royalty and they wanted the (admittedly very cute) Cullen baby. Jacob would of course be standing side by side with his imprint and Seth and Leah with him and Sam didn't need Edward Cullen spelling it out for him. These Vampire's liked to collect and collect big...and God knows we were big.

The thought was enough to make the stomach roll.

And then we were gearing up for a fight, we were gearing up to die. Emily and Kim were walking around with beaten looks on their faces preparing for the inevitable. In addition to Jackson, Jeremy, Rory and Keaton we had three more wolves turn each as young as the other...these kids...Andrew at age eleven, Jamison at age twelve, Max at age thirteen and perhaps the worst Noah at the tender age of ten.

It was hard enough that we were in the mix. Jacob, Embry and Quill were all still in High School...Sam and Emily were engaged. Kim was graduating this year, Colin and Brady were chatting about girls all the time and beginning to stress out over assignments due in school...all these milestones that were taken away from us, all of these every day simple things, that could be taken away from us should we be left with no alternative but to fight.

I swallowed back the bile in my throat the morning of the conflict. Some days the only things that mattered were those moments where Rachel was in my head. Images of Hawaii, the sand, the beaches and the sun. Of Rachel's skin and the smell of her shampoo, of her quick and cleaver fingers. I thought about this all day blocking out most of the talk that took place between Doctor Cullen and what looked like the Vampire King.

'You disgust me' Jared said finally when the Vampire's seemingly took a break.

I gave Jared a montage of all those thoughts he'd had of Kim including some of the more racy ones as revenge.

'Knock it off' Sam growled pawing the floor. The seven little wolves (nicknamed by Quill) all giggled in their heads.

Ugh. Children.

And as it turned out much like we were with Jacob and Renesmee and Bella Swan we were wrong about the Royal Vamps as well...perhaps it was the fact that Bella Swan now had some freaky vampire power or whatnot. Because out of sheer dumb luck that had kept the wolf gene alive for so many years and what had I supposed given so many of us second chances, we managed to survive again.

Un-Fucking-Believable.

But it did create some paths clear to me, now that death wasn't an option anymore I could sit and think without a ticking clock looming over me. Christmas was over, the New Year was in and the snow was fresh on the ground.

And I had formulated a good, solid plan.

I would help Sam with the newest wolves until Jared and I were both comfortable with them running patrols without some form of graduated chaperone, I would make sure that my home was safe again and then I would go to Hawaii unaware of what was waiting for me there and ask Rachel to give us a third go.

But as it turned out I had no idea what that New Year had planned for me. For my Imprint, for my relationship. I had no idea the other huge bombshell lurking round the corner one that would leave me in pieces more than any other. My transformation, my imprinting, all the fights I had been through, the managing day to day with a single goal in mind.

Nothing.

And as it turned out I didn't have to go to Hawaii to gain this information. I didn't have to go to Rachel.

Because unknown to me, Rachel Black was coming home to finish the fight that we had started five long years ago.

And let me know what you think, I am going on holiday soon so this will be the last update for a while, a big thank you to all and I will see you soon for another Rachel's point of view.