Hi so here is another chapter, each person has two chapters each covering Shay's arrival into the story and this is the first one for Paul. The next one will be Rachel and cover the conversation she has with Billy and Jacob and the aftermath of this chapter.

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I Would For You

Paul/Rachel Fanfiction-When Rachel Black left La Push nearly four years ago to go to college she was carrying a secret. When she returns to pick up the pieces in the aftermath of her brother's disappearance she has no idea of what fate has in store for her and the effect it has on her life.

Chapter 12-Didn't We Almost Have It All?

Paul's Point of View

The phone was bleeping. I swore every bone in my body creaking. I had spent the last night on patrol and my back was killing me. I had barely managed to collapse into bed just kicking off my shoes and shorts and wrapping the sheet around me and closing my eyes instantly. It felt like I had just fallen asleep when the phone rang and I was not in a good mood.

"Hey" said a voice over the phone. I recognised it as Jacob. Curiosity made me sit up straighter. While the packs had settled down in some way there was still a blanket situation when it came to communication. Embry and Jacob had become best friends again and the younger wolves all had their transformations under control.

The fragile peace had been disrupted when one of the younger wolves Jamison had imprinted on a girl in his class. She was twelve like he was and while the imprinting had freaked him out once Sam and Jared had got him outside and calmed him down and explained that nothing needed to happen for a long time he'd managed to change back and come back inside Emily's house for breakfast.

Now on top of hearing about Emily, Kim, Claire, and Renesmee we now had to listen to thoughts on Jamie's new imprint Morag.

My own thoughts of Rachel had took slightly backstage for most of the year. We had seven wolves to train up, we had two younger ones in Colin and Brady who were finally ready to be put on the Night Shift providing they were with an older wolf.

"Has another wolf imprinted?" I asked rubbing my hand over my face. I wouldn't put anything on another wolf imprinting and I was so not ready to deal with the drama.

"No...err...i don't know how to tell you this" he said over the phone and I sat up straighter something shivering down my spine. Because Jacob calling me in the late hours of the morning could be about many things, Jacob calling me in the morning sounding unsure and concerned was probably about the one thing that the two of us had in common.

"Is it Rachel?" I asked reaching for my jeans and desperately trying to stop my hands from shaking so I'd transformed in my small overcrowded room.

"Yeah...err...she's back" Jacob said pausing.

"Back?" I asked blankly before something hit my stomach, hope and excitement and bone deep aching relief sweeping all over me. "She's back...what to stay?"

"Yeah I think that's the plan" Jacob said carefully. "It's just...err...Paul I'm not sure how to tell you this over the phone, cause my Dad's only just stopped swearing and now he's drinking and I think I'm gonna need to talk to Alice about a new set of dishes because he's smashed at least five plates and that's before he hits the second bottle of scotch and..."

"Jake your rambling" I said reaching for my blue V-Neck. God what if she decided to come here again? Shit I was gonna have to clean up this mess.

"Look, she came back and she dropped the mother of all bombshells on us and...i think you need to be prepared and please don't kill her because she's my sister and then I'd have to kill you if we had another Sam and Emily situation on our hands and even though I wanna kill her...she's still my sister"

"You're rambling again" I deadpanned.

"I'll be over here as soon as I can"

There was a pause before Jacob sighted over the phone. "Ok" he said finally before I heard the dial tone.

I sighed rolling my eyes and reaching for my converse shoes. I had no idea what was going on but all I knew was that Rachel was back and apparently staying. Maybe we could recover from all the secrets and lies.

I got there just a little bit after ten and...Their she was.

Rachel was sat on the porch a mug of something clutched in between her hands. She looked as if she'd been crying and that didn't sit right with me or the wolf growling at the thought of someone hurting our mate. She was wearing grey jeans and a red jumper, her hair was shorter than the first time I'd seen her cut so that it rested softly against the top of her collarbone and layered gently. She didn't look surprised that I was here.

"You shouldn't be here" she said flatly watching me as I sat down on the porch next to her.

"Jacob rang me" I said casually. She still smelt like coconut and vanilla and I let the scent wash over me soothing me for the first time in one year.

Rachel snorted looking back at her coffee. I was surprised and more than a little worried when she looked back up her brown eyes swimming with tears.

"Rach what's wrong?" I asked moving closer.

Rachel took a look sigh.

"Five years ago I did something without telling you or my Dad or Jacob. I was hurt and I thought...it was before I knew about the whole werewolf thing, and I was depressed a little. My Mom and..." she shook her head leaning back her hair shifting down her back. The new length was kinda distracting.

"I did something that I knew would hurt everyone and I didn't care and now when I tell you I know that your either gonna turn and rip my face off or walk away and never come back and I don't know which one I'd rather prefer"

"Neither" I said my voice strong. "I will do neither to you, and I need to talk about something anyway. You left before I got a chance to explain about some of the other side effects of the werewolf transformation and I really need to tell you about it..."

"I got pregnant" Rachel said with the air of getting the worst over with as fast as possible and effectively cutting off my rambling.

I stared at her.

Pregnant?

She'd gotten pregnant? With a baby?

I stared in silence trying to wrap my head around the entire situation. If Rachel had gotten pregnant five years ago then there was only one...there could only be one potential father figure. That was what she was telling me.

And she was telling me that she had ignored me for five years.

"Mine" I said flatly already knowing the answer. Rachel nodded grimly her face set.

I nodded swallowing back the bile in my throat. Rachel was telling me that I was a father, she was telling me that I had a five year old child and that she had deliberately not told me about it. I blinked again turning to see Jacob's front yard in perfect detail. Suddenly it was all clear cut. I could feel the air and see the trees. It was like transforming the first time everything was clear and concise.

"Why didn't you...you had five years and you didn't think that I had a right..." I trailed off strangled.

Rachel swallowed. "You really think that you would have stuck around?" she said quietly. "You really think that we would have worked out, even if you hadn't been a werewolf or whatever I wanted to leave and you couldn't, don't think I don't know that I did a terrible thing but you presented me with the facts as I knew them at the time and I responded. I protected...our child..."

Our child. How many times had I thought of the past nearly six years of that? Of a child that was half me and half Rachel. And now she was telling me that I had one with her and that she had completely cut me out of it's life.

I nodded again but not really listening. I really wanted to hurt her even as the wolf was protesting the thought.

"I need to go" I said between numb lips. "I need to go because if I stay then I'm gonna kill you"

Rachel didn't flinch, she was fearless and not in a good way and she had been prepared for this but that didn't stop me from hating her.

I stood up and forced my way down the steps into the trees outside Jacob's house, I managed to get my jeans and shirt off before the shaking in my hands became too bad and my vision was slowly becoming red. Then I kicked off my shoes and my body began twisting viciously.

Once I was in wolf mode I ran. I had to run away before I went back and scratched Rachel's face to it resembled Emily or worse.

Thank God Sam wasn't in wolf form right now.

And it wasn't until I got practically to the state border that I realised that there was a child that s partly my responsibility that had never met his or her father and whose father had never got a chance to be there.

(Didn't we almost have it all?)

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