Hi here is another chapter, this sheds more light on the relationship between Rachel and Billy and I can confirm Shay will be making her debut in the next chapter which will be from Paul's perspective and will (SPOILER) see more of his headspace and their first meeting.
There are seven chapters left and then this story is done.
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I Would For You
Paul/Rachel Fanfiction-When Rachel Black left La Push nearly four years ago to go to college she was carrying a secret. When she returns to pick up the pieces in the aftermath of her brother's disappearance she has no idea of what fate has in store for her and the effect it has on her life.
Chapter 13-Perfect Little Accident
Rachel's Point of View
I still hadn't moved of the porch after Paul had disappeared. It was like I wasn't able to. It was like I was numb, a frozen little statue. In all honestly telling him about Shay had gone as well as I had expected it too. Better in all honesty because I had never expected to survive the damn thing. I had thought that Paul would lose control but he had calmly walked away before he had become the huge hulking wolf that had dominated my dreams ever since I'd known the huge secret.
My father had been torn between tenderness whenever he came into contact with his only grandchild and fury when he'd found out. He had managed to control his anger pretty well. Jacob had been thrilled. He had been pissed, but after a beer had gotten on well with his niece and it was him that night that had tucked Shay into bed and read from Harry Potter.
"You have to tell the father" he said flatly.
"Paul" I said once Jacob had left the room. My Dad stared at me for a brief second before he closed his eyes and then opened them a little as if he was struggling what to say.
"Did he force you?" he asked simply.
"No" I said loudly.
"So that was the night before...you left?" he asked simply. I nodded.
"Ok" my Dad said as if he was thinking about what next to say.
"Why didn't you come to me?" he asked quietly. "Why didn't you tell me that you were pregnant? I would have kept your secrets, I wouldn't have told Paul at least not until you were ready, I would have done whatever you asked me to do and I could have flown up to see you in Hawaii with your sister or wherever you were living?"
I paused, never had I considered that my father. The good honest pillar of the community, the man who could trace his relations back to the start of our community was sitting in front of me saying he would have lied through his teeth when it had come to keeping my secret even from the very man who would once my brother had transformed at some point I imagine had ate in this very house.
How was my father supposed to do that?
Something in my face must have resonated with my father because something passed across his face so quick that I almost didn't see it. Then his face crumpled.
"Jesus, Rachel" he said finally. "Did you really think I would turn you away?"
I paused. I didn't think that about that, to be honest I had thought that my father wouldn't have done any of the above. And maybe that showed on his face. Or my face. Either way he got the turn of my opinion quicker than I expected.
"God Rachel" he said finally watching me. "Do you really think that low of me? Does your sister? Was I really that bad of a father that you thought your only option was to lie about the birth of my first grandchild?"
I stared at him. There was too much history between me and my father. I had to admit that my relationship with him was nothing compared to the relationship I had had with my mother. Rebecca had been my father's little princess and Jacob had been his boy through and through and I had never been sure of the place that I had had within his life. I had been too much my Mom's child and while Jacob had clung to my father after her death and Rebecca ensured that we were being fed, I had gone back to school and buried my head in books. I had never really had time to do the conversation thing with my family especially my father and I could never decide what to do when I had realised I was pregnant. My father was the pillar of the community that was still dominated by small talk and I was at the end of the day an unmarried mother barely out of High School and (though I didn't know it then) the father would have control issues with his anger for the next five years and probably after that. How the hell was I supposed to ask or go to my father and risk his infamous judgemental look of disappointment?
Maybe this showed on my face. Actually it probably did because I knew from the look on his face and the way that his own seemed to crumple. He wheeled away and left me sat in the room. I couldn't feel sad, I had to tell Paul and that was when the trouble really started.
After Paul had ran to the forest turning into the wolf I knew him to be I sat on the stoop for a long time.
"Shay's up" Jacob said sitting next to me. "She's in the kitchen and Dad's making pancakes, the banana ones he used to make all the time when we were kids do you remember?"
I nodded. I did remember. That was the food he had made us the day of our mother's funeral. I remembered his hands shaking as he cracked the eggs.
"Paul didn't kill you then?" he said cheerfully and I managed to crack a small smile.
"Would you have stopped him?" I asked. Jacob had been the one person that I hadn't known about their reaction. Jacob shot me a look that made me smile. My little brother was back and kicking.
"Of course I would" he said grinning. His grin fell. "Rach why didn't you come and tell me? I get Becks but come on? I hated Paul, I would have lied"
"Even when you share each other's minds?" I asked dryly. Jacob paused and then shrugged. "I never thought about you" he said finally. "It was Bella, I told Sam you were coming home in person"
I shrugged again. "Rach" Jake whispered suddenly looking scared. "Paul didn't force you did he? I mean, I watched Law and Order last night and..."
I stared at him in disbelief.
"No" I said finally "And stop watching Law and Order"
Jacob laughed once a short bark of a laugh.
"Hey tomorrow why don't you take Shay to meet Renesmee. She's growing a lot, she's about Shay's age and I think that she would love a friend. And Shay will as well" he caught my expression. "Don't worry I'll be there and it gives you some time to go find Paul and...talk..."
"You don't think he'll be back tonight?" I asked feeling pathetic. Jacob shook his head. "His mind's gonna be all over the place and therefore I think that Sam will probably make him take some time before he comes back" he shrugged "That's what I do if I was his Alpha and Sam's an insane stickler for temper and safety so I don't see either Sam or Paul putting you or Shay in danger anytime soon"
I nodded once.
"I'm sorry" I confessed "For everything"
Jacob sighed slinging his arm around me and pulling me into his side. "I know Rach" he said quietly. "I know you are"
And we sat there on the porch the two of us while my Dad stayed inside the house cooking pancakes for mine and Paul, perfect little accident.
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