I know, I know, I'm so sorry! Please don't hate me.
Dear Skye,
I don't have a twitter. Or an Instagram, or a facebook and whatever other type of social media you spend every waking hour on. I'm not supposed to have anything that would make me easy to identify. I do have a fake facebook that S.H.I.E.L.D administration updates for me, so that if and when I go undercover, it won't be suspicious, and since you're training to be a field agent, I recommend you get used to not having your own personal social media too. On a murder scene, do you realize how disrespectful it is to be on your phone? At this point I have no doubt in my mind that you wouldn't, but most people with any respect would never update their facebook status or whatever at a funeral, so don't do it in a crime scene! We are supposed to be government professionals, and dragging you around with us everywhere is just making us look bad. You could probably do okay in the communications since you seem to do well with your computer thing, but even then, I get the feeling that you'd have a hard time obeying the law. Field work is different from hacking. If you make a mistake, you can't go back and wipe away all evidence that you were ever there, because you were there, and you are probably captured or dead, and the entire mission has likely failed, and possibly months of work completely wasted. S.H.I.E.L.D is not like the movies. Not everything turns out okay, and not everyone makes it out alive. You need to be in perfect physical condition and quick on your feet. Although, judging by today, you seem to be able to mentally recover from what I would expect to be a traumatizing event for you. Almost getting killed in a car is normally enough to put civilians into a state of shock for a few weeks, but you seemed to bounce back up in a few hours. FitzSimmons I thought would be okay seeing as they've been trained and warned about these kinds of things since they signed up for SHIELD, but you on the other hand, you may as well have just walked up here from the streets. In a sense, you did. I can't tell what it is about you, but something about you is different.
Well, I figure it's been a few letter now, and I never ended up giving them to you. Maybe I can be honest now. Half the time, I play up my frustration with you to make myself seem angrier. I'm not half as frustrated as I always seem to be. And in the mornings, I don't get forced into bed, and wound up all night and spring right back out first thing in the morning like a Jack in the box like you said I probably do. I'm always awake at six o'clock every morning. I can't help it. Once the hand hits six, my body wakes up, and I can't get back to sleep, no matter how late I went to bed. I'm tired in the morning, just like you are. I just want to go back to bed, but I know there's no point. I'll just lie there wasting time. I go through a morning work out routine to wake up my mind, and shower. You're not the only one who can't wake up in the morning. At the academy, your SO will expect you to be awake and ready to do your warm up drills the second he sees you. I don't think you realize that I'm being soft on you. I'm being soft on you just by agreeing to supervise someone untrained. Most of us don't get SOs until they go through at least three years of general training at the Academy, but you've never even seen it before.
Skye, I want you to understand that I'm not really that T-1000 that you think I am. I have feelings, I have sympathy but as a specialist I can't let those feelings show through. They would distract me and put all our lives in danger. My feelings are not worth the lives of five people, that's why specialists normally work alone. Solo means no distractions, no interferences, no attachments. It makes it easier to make the hard calla that are my job to make. I'm scared that if I let you in I'll be jeopardizing the lives of everyone on this team, including you. You are special to me; I just don't know exactly how.
I guess I'll keep you posted.
- Grant
I am so sorry, you guys. I remember saying I'd update by march, but obviously that didn't happen. I also know that this chapter is kinda short and really bad. Ward is super out of character, his rambling is so out of control and forced, and half the stuff he says make absolutely no sense. Does anyone actually still read this story? If some one does, do you actually want me to keep updating? Please say so if you do, because I'll keep trying to update for that one person who does.
Until next time, my friends.
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