Hello! Sorry this has taken so long. I actually love this story! Very fun to write! :) Um... The next chapter doesnt start with a diary entry, sorry... Bu this chapter was strange enough. Wow... Is Fork's weather outside. ) I actually like it. It puts me in the mood.

Listening To: The Interview by AFI-- Goooood song! :) Listen!! I can picture a video for twilight when it comes out already.

Dear Diary

Last night was really fun. Edward and I got in trouble from Dad because we walked all the way to the bridge and back. Stupid, idiotic, fatherly rules.

Edward's really cool to talk to. I feel like I can be myself around him... and he always says something creepily poetic and romantic when I do one of a strange acts. Okay... this is my older sister's boyfriend I have to remember! But still... he makes me blush way too much! I'm starting to think maybe... well... I don't know diary, I think I may have a bit of a crush on him.

I'm really confused though... Everything he says and does makes me feel like a giggling school girl. I mean... every time he touches my hair, it feels like he's doing it in an intimate way. He belongs to Bella... I have to remember that, I know... but it's hard!

I really don't want to be falling for someone like him, cause I mean, he's old! And...

Nothing more to say on that subject. It's raining again today, Edward and Bella came at the wrong time of the year. It's supposed to be bad weather all week. Stupid, stupid forecast!

Edward's going to try and teach me some piano tonight... But Bella made me promise I would go out with friends this afternoon. She said, "I don't want to crowd your space, River. It's the holidays and I want you to go have fun with those friends of yours." I told her I didn't have any, only Abby, but she made me call up Zane, Elle and Ryan anyways. We're going to the skater park to watch the boys skate. Abby was happy about that.

Well I guess I'll see you tomorrow diary.

Another day passes, I still think of you...

River

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"Bye mom, dad." I said, squashing out the door. I walked down the path with my bag over my shoulder hanging over my hip when he called my name.

"River!" I turned to see Edward at the door, hanging low in the shade of the morning-going-to-be-cloudy-later sun, "Do you want me to pick you up tonight?"

I almost said I'd walk when I thought about the scenario. Me; sitting there with all my cool skater friends, when this totally gorgeous, older guy comes to pick me up. Elle and Abby will be so jealous, "Sure thanks! Do you know where?"

"The skate park. I'll find it."

I waved happily and skipped down the path. I walked all the way to the park with a wide smile across my face. Yup. I was defiantly getting a crush on Edward. Ah! Bad! Bad, River! I mentally slapped myself on the hand. Stupid thing to do really... have a mental-physical fight with yourself.

"River, hey." Zane and Ryan jumped off their skateboards and walked beside me. They werent really good friends, but Abby new them pretty well.

"Hi boys." I was in a pretty outrageous mood, and so I tweaked it up a notch, "Mind if I try your boards."

"You've never skated in your life, River." Zane rolled his eyes.

I frowned, "Have too! Hold this." I pushed my bag to his chest and took his board. I lay it down and jumped onto it. All my 'acrobatics' had paid off, my balance was perfect. I swerved a few and jolted, stumbling off.

"DON'T BREAK IT!" I heard Zane yell from afar.

"Nice, one." Ryan swerved around me and winked.

I narrowed my eyes and jumped back onto the skateboard, pushing myself to the limits. I zoomed down the black tar road, gaining up on Ryan. He turned around and smirked at me, flipping me off.

I stumbled off the board again and picked it up, glaring after the mean little boy.

"Don't... ever... make... me... run... like... that... with... a... handbag... again!" Zane puffed, stopping at my side and holding out my bag.

"It's not a handbag, dummy." I tugged it away and kicked his board to him, "Take the stupid thing."

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When I reached the park, Ryan was showing off big time. Abby lay back on the seat, laughing at him. But it wasn't the teasing laugh. It was the loud one that made all boys look and drool.

Abby was always prettier than me. What with her black and blonde hair to her butt and her skirt that was way too short. But one-on-one... she was alright.

"Hey." I said.

She laughed louder at Ryan and he grinned stupidly. She looked at me, "Oh hey!"

"Elle here?"

She giggled, "Yeah... she's over with Nick." She pointed to the very slim figure standing around with a few older boys. That was Elle.

I sighed, "She knows not to except the whole drugs thing, right?"

"Oh calm down, Riv-riv." Abby sat up, "Ryan! Let me try!"

I sat there for long hours, watching everyone flirt with everyone else. I looked at every boy closely, but none looked hot in the way that Edward did. AH! Another mental slap!

"River! Why don't you show these freaks how it's done?" Zane yelled up, running his long fingers through his hair.

I frowned, pointing to myself. He nodded. He didn't have to ask me twice!

I put my bag aside and jumped down, taking his board and standing on it. The others all laughed and talked around, no body really watching me.

Then Ryan came up. He grabbed my outstretched hand and yanked on it, pulling me staggering of the board and close to him. I yelped and clinged onto him so that I wouldn't fall. He smirked at me, "You're doing great."

I smiled and went to pull away but his hands held me to him. I frowned, "Can you let go, please?"

"What if I don't want to?" He chuckled.

"See you on Monday, River!" I heard Abby call out and then her loud laugh echo around the almost abandoned skate park.

It occurred to me how dark it was, I couldn't see out onto the field and then how much older Ryan was than me. It also occurred to me that it was getting very cold and Edward should be arriving soon. I hoped.

"Get off me, Ryan."

He laughed, "Come on, Dwyer... Don't you want to stay a little? I mean... you've never been this close to a boy before, have you?"

I pulled myself away, almost ripping my arm out of its socket. But before I could steady myself, I hit the concrete with a loud thump. I rolled onto my back and propped myself up, but it was too late for harsh words now.

Ryan grabbed my throat and straddled my waist. I went to scream but his hand started to close over my throat. While one hand threatened to collapse my windpipe, the other roamed down to my jeans, unzipping them. I flailed my arms and caught him in the jaw. He wobbled a bit in which it gave me time to scream out.

I got three cries for help before the hands were on me again. Ryan slapped me across the face and I was lucky for my lip not to crack. He touched me all over and I tried to push him off. He grabbed my arm and twisted it back painfully. And then Edward was there.

Ryan was pulled off me and thrown onto one of the concrete slides. I curled up, shaking and trying to stand.

Edward yelled words that I would never dream of speaking as he pointed at me, and then at Ryan again. Ryan's eyes were wide as he struggled to get up.

I was so scared, and everything was happening so fast, I couldn't catch words.
And then Ryan fled. He ran onto the field and Edward's hands dropped to his side.

I had my arms wrapped around my knees and tears were spilling overboard. Edward turned to me and I winced. His expression would have scared someone for life. His eyes were a wild shade of topaz and his lip was curled up over his glistening teeth. As if he was a predator of an extinct creature.

Then it was all gone. His lips pressed together in a thin line and his eyes melted into a pool of kindness. He walked slowly over to me and then bent down.

I was still shaking and I buried my face. When his arms were around me, I held onto them desperately. My nails would have drawn blood, but his thick jacket saved his precious cream skin.

He comforted me in an unexplainable way. He made me tell him my secret.

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When I got home, Edward told Bella about what happened. All I wanted... was some chicken soup and to sit in bed. So that's what I did. Of course Mom came screaming and yelling into my room like a madwoman and then Dad did the yelling and scolding. Bella saved me there by putting on the whole 'It wasn't her fault'. And so now I sit alone in my room, watching a movie and waiting for the awkward talk between Edward and me.

Of course, right when the girl got into a heated kiss with the native Indian, Edward opened my door to peek in.

I paused it and looked up at him. He walked in without turning on my light and sat on the end of my bed, staring at the TV, and then at me with raised eyebrows.

I smiled, "It's a dream... She's going to bite him and he's going to pull away with blood all around his mouth, same with her... and then she'll wake up in a bed of blood." I played it and it showed what I had described.

"Good guesser?" Edward smiled.

I made a face and sighed, "Nah. Seen it a million times."

He chuckled and I sat there watching him. I didn't want to say anything, and I could tell he didn't want to bring it up. But he had to. Stupid adult rules.

He chuckled, "River, you know it's not right... Don't you?"

I frowned, "What's not right?"

He bit his lip, his auburn hair in his eyes. It totally made him look hot. SLAP! "River, you told me you find me attractive... but you know that I am... older than you."

I grimaced, "I know... I'm sorry... whatever. I can't help it."

He sighed, "That was a big secret for you wasn't it?"

I felt my cheeks get very hot and I fiddled with my blanket. He sighed, "What if... I told you one of my secrets... but you have to swear that whatever you do... you can not ever, ever tell anyone."

It sounded juicy, "I swear an oath!" I put my hand over my heart, and then felt very retarded for doing that.

"River," The door opened and Mom frowned at Edward, "Well, Hi, Edward... I didn't know- would you like me-"

"No... That's fine Mrs. Dwyer."

"Please call me Renee." The edge to her voice made me guess she had said that a few times now.

He stood up, rubbing his thighs awkwardly, "Do you mind if I take a shower?"

The thought was just mind goggling! "That's fine, Edward, dear... Down the hall to the left."

I shuddered as he walked out, slipping passed Mom with the very little space she left between the doorframe and herself. She slipped in, "How are you honey?"

"Fine, mom." I pressed the play button to the movie and there were frantic voices coming out of the TV. Mom made a disgusted face as she watched a little of the horror scene.

"Dear, I want to let you know, that I don't blame you for this afternoon."

"But?"

"But, your father and I have decided that you should be grounded for a while. Stay inside the house."

I groaned, "Thanks mom. Home imprisonment."

"Sorry honey." She kissed my head and then walked out as Bella walked in.

After making sure Mom was out, she ran and jumped onto my bed. Imprisoning me in her own arms. She gave me a rib crushing hug and sighed, "I'm so sorry, River."

"No problem..." I shrugged, "Nothing happened... I'm not scared for life."

She sat up, "So you're grounded now?" I nodded and she squeaked, "Great! Girls weekend!"

I rolled my eyes and pretended to watch the movie, "I'm fine in bed."

She pouted, "Fine, grumpy..." She watched the movie with me until it ended. "Wait, wait, wait... So the boy was the Indian guy? Not the little boy who bit the red head?"

"Yeah... Gosh, didn't you listen to the old woman?"

"But... she said boy... He" She pointed with a grin, "Was not just a boy."

I giggled and slapped her arm, "Jeez, Bella. I didn't know native indian was your type. I mean... Edward?" Some sort of weird emotion seemed to cross over her face quickly and I added, "I picked him out at the start... but then I thought the little boy... so you know... we were all fooled."

She laughed, "So... you like werewolves huh?"

I shrugged, "Yeah... don't tell me you're friends with werewolves too."

She bit her lip and giggled, "I may know a few."

I smirked, "Well get them to drop by some time. I want to be bitten."

I laid down and close my eyes, but Bella was abnormally quiet. I peeked through one eye and she was staring into space, "What's wrong?"

She shook her head, "Nothing... I'm going to go take a shower, Riv... Sweet dreams."

"Night."