Chap. 21 Where I stand
Well now a little bit of Penelope. We got to know how she's doing no?
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Penelope was dumfounded, she wondered why Derek kissed her on the lips and not on the cheek. It was not the first time but… anyway she had other things to think about. First of all her little girl…
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The days passed and Penelope regularly talked with her friends through the phone. She still was at the hospital but would be released soon.
Margaret had to stay at least two months more. Penelope was eager to come back home and to take care of her baby.
When she was finally released, she had to come back to her house. She had a difficult time entering into the house. She found it clean and smiled.
"Ah my friends" she sighed smiling.
As the day went on, being alone in the big house became hard so she decided to call Derek. She knew he would find the words to comfort her.
"Morgan." He said with a deep voice.
"Derek… it's me Penelope."
"Pen are you ok?"
"Hem yes, I was released today, I'm in my house… I'm a little afraid to be alone."
Derek didn't immediately reply, Penelope heard a muffled voice behind him.
"Derek, you're busy I will call you another day."
"No that's ok. I 'm with Carrie. She will understand."
Penelope heard some cries. She clearly heard "intimacy, together, friend…"
"Derek. I'm sorry I shouldn't have called."
She hung up and disconnected the phone.
She sighed and curled up on the couch. She wondered where she stands in her friends' life. Indeed she had been missing for three years, they had moved on in their lives and now that she came back, she didn't think she had a place among them.
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The next days she passed all her time next to Margaret. From time to time she would call her friends but she was determined to not be a burden for them.
Derek called her once a week. She didn't know how to deal with him. Before he didn't have long relationships so she knew he would be always there for her. Now all had changed. He had someone and she didn't want to ruin his relationship.
That time alone helped her to think about her future. A future that was different from the one her friends thought when they were here with her waiting her to come back to Virginia. Somehow Penelope wished she were still missing for them because she didn't want to hurt them by making this decision