Chap.24 There's no us
I don't own Cm
I just can't stop writing.
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" There's no us Derek!" Penelope said dryly.
"Pen?"
"Don't play with me?"
"What are you talking about?"
"I know that you don't love me that way Derek. I'm your fat best friend and you have Carrie."
"What? Penelope let's talk."
"Enter and have a seat. I need to put Margaret in her cradle." She said heading upstairs.
When she came down, she sat quietly in the couch while Derek was in the armchair.
"Talk to me Pen. I don't understand."
"There is nothing to understand Derek. You just want to have me at arm length."
"No…"
"Let me finish! I recovered all my memory. I remember how we were always together. How I was always there when you were down. But I was no the one you fancied."
"Baby Girl…"
"Don't Baby Girl me please." She said with sorrow.
"Pen I don't understand. What have I done to you?"
"John was right. You just needed me when you felt alone. Now is one of these moments so you came…."
"Wait…this is not true Penelope. I don't know what Caldwell had put into your head but it's false."
"Why did you come then? You broke up with Carrie and now that you're alone you thought "Oh Penelope will always be there for me, I'll go and convince her to come back for my own pleasure."
"Penelope stop it now!" Derek cried. He stood and started to pace.
"Do you have a single idea what I went through these past three years?"
"Derek I'm sorry." Penelope said as she realised the truth in his sad eyes.
"Let me speak, then I'll let you if this is what you want. I thought I had lost my best friend Penelope, the person I loved the most besides my mother and sisters. You thought I didn't fancy you then? You're mistaken; I've always liked you Penelope more than you think. It's just that I didn't want to do you any harm. I love you too much. You know all about me even the dark sides of my past. Carrie who WAS my fiancée didn't know a single thing about that; I've built a façade with her. If she had asked me to choose between you two, I'll have chosen you. You know why?"
Penelope said no with her head.
"Because, if she had been the one hurt, you wouldn't have blamed me to spend time with her or to forget phoning you. I know who you are Pen, I know how deep and caring your heart is and I love you for that. I want to be a part of your life; I want to be your best friend and your lover Penelope."
"Derek…" she whispered, tears running down her cheeks.
He knelt in front of her and took her hands in one hand, while the other was wiping her tears.
"Penelope, if you don't share my feelings, I'll accept it even if it is hard. But don't ever think that I don't love you, that I'm not in love with you or that I used you."
When she didn't answer, he sighed certain that she was going to break his heart.
She raised her head and teary eyes met his.
"It's not that simple Derek."
A/N: So?