Chap. 25 A burden
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« It's not that simple Derek. » Penelope whispered.
"You don't love me like I do right?" Derek asked getting up.
"No, no I…."
"That's ok Penelope. I'll still be your friend, no matter what happened today. I'm sorry if I've disturbed you."
"Derek honey, please listen to me. I wanted to say No as "No you're mistaken." She said smiling a bit.
"What?"
"I do love you but… I'll only be a burden for you. I have a child… I know that you don't want children so…"
"Baby, stop. You love me?" he asked smiling.
"Yes of course…"
"As in love with me?"
"Derek."
"Pen please."
"Yes as In love with you but…"
She couldn't go on as he was kissing her passionately when he pulled away and stared at her, he smiled. She was eyes closed and mouth open.
"Penelope? bay girl look at me."
"I'm dreaming."
"Not at all, I love you Penelope Garcia and I love your child, I wish she was ours but anyway I love her because she's yours."
"Oh Derek." Penelope said crying.
"Don't cry. I couldn't let you go away from me, from us Pen."
"I… It was hard for me but I thought it was the best..."
"Shhh that's ok."
He was going to kiss her again when they heard the baby crying. Penelope chuckled.
"I've got to get her, sorry."
"I'll go."
"You're sure?" she asked hesitantly.
"Of course." He kissed her on the lips and went upstairs.
Penelope sighed and went into the kitchen to prepare something to eat.
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"Hey Maggie, your almost daddy is here. You see I promised to see you soon." He said taking the little baby in his arms.
Margaret took one finger in her hand and held it tightly.
"I guess you agree." He said smiling.
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Penelope cooked something light. As Derek was still upstairs she climbed to see him rocking Margaret.
She stayed in the step of the door, looking at them thoughtfully.
"Hey Pen" Derek said when he realized she was there.
"Hey…" she replied.
"You ok? You sound off."
"Just thinking about her father…among other stuff."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Derek, do you know what you're entering in? It's not fair for you. You deserve to build your proper family when you'll really want it."
"Pen, I thought all was good between us. We love each other and I love your baby."
"Do you really think that's what you mother wanted when she kept saying you " Give me grandbabies, Derek…?"