A.N. Well I with that out of the way let's begin chapter four! Since I don't want to let this day end with a bunch of crap....Also don't expect anything tomorrow.

Chapter 4

My crying wasn't one that ended fast, and Kyon still had to get dressed for school, so he left me alone in the room while he dressed elsewhere. I'm not one to cry for much, but after all he was a family member like everyone else. I would cry if anyone in my family suddenly vanished and their coordinates were a mystery. I'm sure most people would cry just like me.

If you wouldn't then, I guess that's your own concern, there may be many reasons why you wouldn't cry but listing them would take too much time.

My brother deserved to be here with me! And more than anything, I wanted to know why he wasn't. This wasn't like the many other problems caused by Haruki. He had made my little brother vanish and Kyon appear. Was this a sort of a trade off? But I still wonder, why would he want Kyon here? There has to be something I'm missing. It doesn't make sense at all!

Kyon mentioned Haruhi, which would be the female Haruki it would seem. If they both have the power to cause circumstantial problems, then when the problem occurred this time who was the source of it? Was it both of them, or one of them? If I say that everything I've had to deal with Kyon has also had to deal with then that would mean that it would be both. Yet if that's true then why isn't my brother here? Kyon's sister is here, so why isn't my brother?

When my father said who owned the house he never actually answered the question since we share the same family name....unless he meant that we both owned the house, but I don't think he did.

The easiest step to understanding the problem would be to find out who owns the house, although this isn't enough this time. If I find out who owns it, it may tell me who made this mess but not how to solve it. There were no warnings or words of advice this time; I have to figure this out by myself, actually that's wrong Kyon can assist me.

Yet there's still the whole other problem, but I guess I have to get my brother back, so I can't help it. I can't have what I want; nothing is different there.

When Haruki changed things, there was always either a very apparent or hidden way to put everything back to normal. Looking back on it, it was something very simple. This time it might be the same, but if Haruhi caused it, I can't do anything. I don't have a say in that problem; it'd be between Kyon and Haruhi; with my brother's disappearance it's looking that way. Actually Kyon could probably solve this by himself if that's the case. Although if they both caused it then we'll both have to do something.

We simply have to go to school for now. Once we're there, we'll be able to understand it. The answer may appear right before us then too, how convenient that would be.

Convince would be nice at this point. But hard work may be required; it most likely will be.

I wiped the tears away from my eyes and stood up. Even if it wouldn't help, I had to find out who owned this house. The answer may be all I need to figure out who caused it and who will have to repair it.

After making sure it'd be impossible to say I had been crying, I headed downstairs. They were having a conversation about something that I didn't hold interest in. As before I came up to the table.

"Father, whose family owns this house?"

"It Kyon's, don't you remember?"

"Yes, sorry for asking," after saying this I headed back upstairs.

With that, I'd say Haruhi caused everything. This still doesn't help though, why would she make my brother vanish? How would this change be significant? Making my brother vanish would mean what....It could mean many things but.....none of them make sense. If she got rid of my brother why not Kyon's sister as well?

I'm not saying she should've disappeared; I simply want to know. I'm not one of those equal treatment people that say if something bad happened to them, then it should have happened to everyone else too. People like that are demented. Don't wish ill will on others, even if it did befall them would it make you feel better about yourself? If it does than you're sick! I simply don't understand it, wouldn't seeing other people in the same situation make you feel worse? It does to me...I'd rather have them be happy since seeing them smile may make me smile.

It'd make more sense if they both vanished but this way it doesn't. The Simplest thing would be I'm not Kyon.... I'm Kyonko....

She wouldn't know what family I have, but she would know I would have to have a father and mother.

If I go by this, it makes sense. That's why my mother and father are still here since without them I couldn't be born.

The Suzumiyas are held by logic and that explains my family. But then.....that would mean.....

I had to tell Kyon right away. Luckily he was already heading downstairs as I went up.

"We should head to school,"

He said to me when he saw me.

That'd be fine I could explain it to him on the way anyway.

We headed outside, and as expected there was only one bike.

"As I thought."

"You figure it out?"

"Not really."

"We'll I ride on the back seat, and you can pedal."

He sighed.....

After parting ways with his sister we rode to school while I talked to him.

"Kyon, tell me this, what would you think if the house belonged to your family. Add this together with my missing brother and what do you get?"

"It's simple Haruhi did it."

"Yes, I agree."

"Then Haruki had nothing to do with this?"

"Exactly, if this was Haruki's doing then my brother would be here, and the house would be ours."

"It makes sense, but how do we solve it?"

"That I don't know."

I kept my mouth shut for the rest of the bike ride, when we were walking up the hill someone came up to Kyon. This seemed so familiar it was obvious who it was.

"Yo Kyon, who's that?"

"...She's my cousin."

"Oh one of the new transfer students?"

"....."

So now I'm also a transfer student? Everything I had experienced before means nothing then, although he said one...who's the other....It can't be...he's here too.....but why? Wait this makes more sense!

"Eh...she's an A- at best."

"....Taniguchi shut up!"

So this Taniguchi also has that rank thing. I'm an A- though! At least I'm not a C or a D!

I'm not poking fun at those with undesirable figures. I'm not that mean. I don't feel sorry for them though since that would be pitying them, which would be a bad thing here. They're the same as you so there's no reason to pity them. There's nothing wrong with them so why should I pity them? They're fine like everyone else.

"Hi!"

I simply said to him.

"Hey."

He went back to talking with Kyon about stuff. I never saw the Taniguchi I knew, the female one that always jested about my chest.... It was as expected. It's all coming together but I'm not liking it one bit.

Once we had entered the school, I realized something that I hadn't thought about before since I'm supposed to be a transfer student where's my shoe-locker now? It took quite a bit of time, but after what turned into a annoying search, I was able to locate it. With that out of the way there was only one place for me to go; In class Haruki was there, he was also a transfer student, and once I gave my introduction, he gave his; it was the same one from before...all his usual nonsensical blubbering. I think I'll stay away this time.... although if I'm correct....that's what's expected anyway.

Our situations seem to be very similar, the only incoherent aspect is that I'm aware of the change and he is not. I say this because I was able to learn that he's Haruhi's cousin through the teacher(he announced this fact to the class.)

Haruki had nothing to do with this. It was a concoction of Haruhi. Also, Haruhi seemed to be pleased with Haruki's introduction as she smiled behind Kyon.

While this was all occurring, I also noted my Kunikida didn't exist. Everything isn't how it used to be to me. The me that's here is simply Kyon's cousin and nothing more. I'm not Kyonko....that name was never given to me. I don't know who I'm supposed to be.....my past isn't my past. How do I keep going without knowing who I am? Really though, I don't need to tell myself that as long as I'm here, I can continue how I desire. Someone can't decide my life for me; only I can do that. I don't need my past to continue. We only learn history to blame our mistakes on it.... or to further the mistakes of someone else, so I don't need my past. I've already taken what I will from it.

People may say we learn history to not repeat the same mistakes, but we'll repeat them anyway. We as a race can't learn, so why do we study the past? In the hopes of learning? We may come to understand the world through other studies, but will we ever learn about ourselves?

I really don't think we will. Suzumiya will never learn either. It's all the same sad truth that causes so many problems. The one who causes them, however, does not need to worry....it's really....sad....and completely ironic.

Chapter 4—End

A.N. Hopefully everyone's confused!

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I really hate proofreading..... Also my inexperience as a writer may have caused a mistake in this chapter.....just maybe...I'm really not sure about it myself.

Don't expect any more from me untiil after Christmas Vacation. I hate exams.....