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Harry POV
"You know something, don't you?" Draco pesters me, as we walk through the Slytherin common room to his dorm.
"I don't know anything." I lie, knowing my grin is giving me away.
"Yeah, I can see that by your face. Now who is it?"
"I'm not telling and you can't make me." I say, plopping myself on Draco's bed and closing my eyes.
I can feel someone climb on top of me, arms either side of me. I open my eyes, and just as I thought Draco is staring at me with those beautiful moon like eyes of his. "I can and will make you tell me." The blonde states.
"Try it." I challenge. Draco then leans in and I think he is going to kiss me, but he stops. His lips centimetres from mine. And then he does the unthinkable. He begins biting his lower lip. "You are such a Slytherin, torturing me like this."
"And you are such a Gryffindor, so just give in already." Draco responds.
I raise my eyebrow at his obvious insult. "I think you've mistaken my for a Hufflepuff. Gryffindors don't cave so easily."
"Hufflepuff." He retorts, taking off his shirt to try and tease me more.
Instead I frown at his arms. "You're still cutting." I sigh.
"Oh shit." Draco cusses, climbing off me. He obviously didn't realise.
"Draco." I whisper.
"I know what you're gonna say Harry. Like I told you before it's not that easy. I'm sorry."
"Draco, I'm not upset that you are still cutting." I say, placing a comforting hand on his back.
"You're not?" The blonde asks, furrowing his brows.
"No. I'm upset that you didn't come to me, and that you're still hiding it from me. The whole point of me being here for you is that you come to me whether you just feel like cutting, or if you actually have cut. I don't want a repeat of a few weeks ago, because next time I might not get to you in time. I don't want to lose you, Draco."
"I know." He frowns. "It's just hard, I'm sorry." His voice sounds so defeated. I know he probably feels shit enough about it with out me piling on the guilt, but I can't help it. I'm terrified that one of these days I'm going to lose him. I don't think I could bare that. If Draco goes, I'm going after him.
I stare into those silver eyes of his and I just melt. I allow my stern expression to soften. "Come'ere you." I say, pulling my Slytherin into a cuddle. "I just love you." I place a kiss on the back of his blonde head.
"I know. I love you too." Draco falls silent for a few minutes before speaking again. "So who is it?"
"Who's, who?" I ask dumbly.
"Asking Pansy to Hogs-Prom?"
"Ohhh... I'm not telling."
"Fine." Draco huffs.
"Don't huff at me." I tell him. "I promised I wouldn't say anything. And Gryffindors keep their promises."
Draco moans at me in response. "Harry... Can't you be just a little bit Slytherin. Just this once." He begs. He bats his beautiful eyes at me. "For me."
"How can I resist that face?" I tease.
"You can't?" He asks, sounding hopeful.
I hate to pierce that hope, but a promise is a promise. "Sorry. No can do."
"Fine." He wines, finally giving up.
Pansy POV
"You're not who I was expecting." I admit.
"Who were you expecting, Pansy?"
"I don't know, Luna."
"A boy perhaps?" Luna suggests.
"I don't know... I guess."
"Are you disappointed? It's okay if you are, I am no stranger to disappointment."
"I'm not disappointed, just surprised is all. I didn't know you were in to girls. And I mean that in the best possible way."
"Nor did I, yet here we are. And don't worry about offending me, Pansy. Most don't care what words they throw in my direction. However I have great friends, so I can take it." Lovegood smiles. I'd love to put Draco in a room with her. He could learn a thing or two from her. I'm not saying Draco is weak, definitely not. He just sometimes needs reminded how strong he really is. "I want you to know," Luna continues. "You don't have to say yes, and if you do we can go as friends. I really don't mind."
I don't stop to think about my answer. "Yes." I blurt out. "I'll go with you to Hogs-Prom... as a date."
"Okay." The Ravenclaw smiles. She then crosses her arms and raises an eyebrow. "I didn't know you were into girls?"
Ha! Throwing my own line back at me. I think I could really like her. "Nor did I, yet here we are." I shrug. "Hey, there's a first time for everything."
"Right you are, Pansy. Right you are."
"By the way... the fireflies were a nice touch. Very original. And props for sneaking into Slytherin house. Are you sure you're not one of us?" I ask. I didn't know this girl had a bad side. She always seemed so innocent.
"I promise I'm not." She giggles. "And thanks, but Harry helped. He let me borrow his invisibility cloak to sneak in."
"I knew Potter knew something. It was written all over his face." I tell, thinking back to earlier.
"Harry, isn't very subtle."
"It's a good job he is a bloody good wizard, because he would have no hope as an actor." I laugh. "Anyway thank you so much for this. I've got to go and talk to Draco, but I'll see you later, Luna." I give her a hug and a peck on the cheek as I leave heading back towards the school.
As I enter the Slytherin common room, Draco is coming down the stairs from his room. Talk about perfect timing. With out giving him a chance to get a word in, I link my arm with his and drag him back up the stair he just came down. The second I close the door, he jumps straight on my case. "So who the fuck is asking you to Hogs-Prom? I want all the details!" My best friend demands.
"Luna Lovegood."
"What-" Draco chokes, and on air apparently. There's a first. I think sarcastically. "Looney Lovegood asked you out."
"It's Luna!" I snap, glaring at him. "And what's wrong with that?"
The blonde hold up his hands in defence. "Nothing. There is nothing wrong with it. I just didn't realise you were a lesbian."
"I'm not!" I retort. "I don't know... what she did was really sweet. I know she's weird, but it's cute. Also she's got a little bit of a bad side that I kind of like."
"Awww... Pansy's got a girlfriend." Draco teases. I roll my eyes at him, before pouncing on him.
"You have a boyfriend." I throw back, as measly attempt to get him back.
Unfortunately it fails. "I know I have a boyfriend. I'm gay." He grins.
Defeated, I sit up on the floor with my arms around my legs. "I don't know what I am." I sigh.
After studying my face for a few seconds, Draco's grin turns in to a friendly frown. "Hey. It's okay you know – to not know what you are. It's normal."
"Really?" I ask, hopefully.
"Yeah. I went back and forth A LOT with my sexuality. I had a ton of mixed feelings about it too. I was terrified of my father finding out. I was angry at myself because I thought there was something wrong with me. I was anxious that the entire school would find out before I was ready. I was afraid of losing everything and I hated myself for it all. But there isn't anything wrong with me. I'm exactly who I'm meant to be." Draco confesses.
I can see a confidence in his eyes. A confidence I haven't seen in him for years. It makes me feel bold enough to ask what I'm thinking. "How do you know that?"
He places a his hand on my back and rubs it, making me feel a little better. "Because of you you were 100% there for me. You always counteracted the shit I got from people about me being gay. It made me see that I wasn't the problem. It was other people that were the problem."
"I think I like Luna. I do... But I like guys too. That's not gonna change."
My best friend's smile returns to his face, but this time it's not to tease me. "Pansy? Did you ever think maybe you're bisexual or even bi-curious just?"
It's the label that is getting me down. As a Slytherin, we get enough labels as it is. "Do I have to be anything?"
Draco's face lights up. "I know. Why don't you just be Pansy?" He suggests.
And I think we have a winner. "Perfect!" I exclaim. "Just Pansy."
"And I'm just Draco." The blonde interjects.
Draco POV
Poor Pansy. I didn't realise her thoughts went quite as deep as mine. I suppose given the right kind of pressure, one can dig themselves a hole so deep they aren't ever getting out. It's not easy coming to terms with who you are, especially with my father. However I survived – So far. In order to get rid of my father we have to figure out what his unfinished business is. I know it has something to do with me, that much is clear. I only wish I knew what that something is.
I know we will figure it out eventually. But... it's all overwhelming sometimes. Not to mention my drastic mood changes. Yes, I have noticed them. What the fuck is up with that? It all just makes me want to reach for my blade again, however I promised I would try and stop. It was the only way to get him off my back.
I just feel so crazy sometimes. Like I feel so completely numb, that cutting is the only way to feel something. Even if it is pain. Other times I hurt so bad inside, that it seems to be the only distraction from my inner turmoil.
Then there's the nightmares and my father threatening Harry's life. I refuse to be the cause of his death. I love him. Lucius is a dick! I don't know how I ever looked up to him in first year.
Haha! Yeah. In first year I wanted nothing more than to be my father. That was until I meet his fist for the first time in second year. When I got knocked off my broom in the Quidditch game against Gryffindor. My father was so angry that Slytherin lost because I got knocked off my broom. Although come to think of it, I shouldn't have been all that surprised. He wasn't the slightest bit worried that I fell off my broom. I could have died at 12 years old, and he probably wouldn't have given a fuck.
"Do you have your suit for Hogs-Prom?" Pansy asks, pulling me from my mind.
Thankful to be temporarily freed from it, I respond, "Yeah. Snape took me into town the other day to get it." I smile, thinking back to it. It's the first real time I've spent with my Godfather since all this shit.
"Oh... how'd that go?" She asks, sounding concerned.
"It was great. He was completely himself, and we really bonded."
Pansy smiles back at me. "That's great, Draco!" I know she is happy for me. I can see the hope in her eyes. It's the same hope in Harry's eyes. I am getting better. It's slow, but it's happening. I think Hogs-Prom is just the boost I need. I'm excited. "Can I see it?" She asks.
"See what?" I answer, confused.
"The suit. I want to see what Potter is in for." She chuckles.
"You'll just have to wait until Hogs-Prom, Pansy."
"Awe, come on. I want to see it now."
"Nope. Now can we please go to dinner. I'm starving." I moan, knowing she'll just be happy I'm volunteer eating.
"Okay, Dray. Let's go get you fattened up a bit." She says, patting my stomach.
I immediately put my arms over my tummy. "Don't make me feel self-conscious. It's hard enough."
"Sorry, Dray. But you really are a girl sometimes."
"Whatever." I groan, rolling my eyes at her.
Aaahhh! Hogs-Prom is almost here!
Until the next chapter ;)
