Hey there! Hope you're really liking the story so far, im kind of nervous for this chapter, I really want you to like it. There's still a lot more to Damon's story so I hope I did t disappoint you. Thanks a lot for still being with me,we're already coming to an end and it's been great to share this with you guys.

Thanks a lot to Lorena for being an awesome beta on this :)

here we go

In the chilly hours and minutes of uncertainty

I want to be in the warm hold of your loving mind

To feel you all around me and to take your hand along the sand

Ah,but I may as well try to catch the wind

Catch the wind

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Damon hated seeing her cry, but most of all, he hated to be the cause of those tears. He felt as if his heart was being ripped out of his chest right at that moment and knew that there was no one to blame but himself.

"How could you?" She yelled between sobs "How could you hide something like this from me Damon?"

He stood up "Elena, it's not how you think" He said, his own voice breaking. He moved towards her but she raised her hands in front of her.

"Don't! Don't touch me" She said as she moved backwards, Damon raised his hands, he wanted to touch her so badly, to hold her in his arms and tell her everything was going to be alright. "You've been lying to me this entire time"

"Elena please-"

"Your wife is alive! Your wife is alive, Damon! Has anything you've been telling me been real?"

He hung his head and balled his hands into fists at his side "I love you, that's real"

Elena let out a sardonic laugh "No, no it's not"

His eyes shot up to hers, tears were shinning in his blue eyes as well as in hers. "Katherine's in a coma Elena" He watched as the realization hit her, a frown appeared on her forehead and she opened her mouth but no words came out "She was in a car crash a few years ago but didn't die at the incident, she's been in a coma ever since and I've been taking care of her"

Elena stared at him without saying a word as tears continued to fall down her cheeks. She felt so betrayed, by him, by Stefan, by everyone in this house who probably knew the truth, she felt like such a fool. "And why the lies?"

"The doctors told me since the beginning that they didn't think she would get better, I didn't want to put the girls under such pain, I didn't want them to have hope of their mother waking up one day when it was very likely that she wouldn't; she has brain damage Elena, she won't get any better, I didn't want to do that to them" He closed his eyes and rubbed a hand across his face as he supported himself against his desk "In fact, she's been getting worse… I've been there lately because the doctors say that she might die very soon"

"That's where you've been travelling lately isn't it?" She asked in a broken voice. Damon looked at her with sad eyes without saying a word "God, I've been a joke to you all this time"

"No, Elena, it's not like that"

"Then why? Why lie to me?"

"I never imagined something like this could happen between us Elena, when I met you-"

"When you met me Damon!" She shouted "It's been months; you've had millions of chances to tell me the truth" She got angrier with every word she spoke.

"I know, Elena, I know" He told her "But I didn't want to lose you"

"Well that worked out great for you in the end didn't it?" She bit out and it was like she sucked all the air out of him. He grimaced as he felt something terrible clawing at his chest, he had never felt so much pain in his life.

"Elena, please, this can't be the end for us" He started walking towards her and this time he ignored her signals, he invaded her space and took her face between his hands despite her protests "I love you, please forgive me. I know I have no excuses but I only did what I thought was right"

Her tear filled eyes looked harshly at him as she removed his hands from her face "You know what is the worst, Damon?" She stepped outside of his embrace "That you pushed me over and over again about keeping us a secret and you're full of them"

Damon looked down as every single one of her words cut him like a knife "You're a hypocrite and a liar" Her voice broke down "You broke my heart" She sobbed "You teared it apart"

"Elena, no" He managed to say in a sob as his eyes lifted to meet hers and what he saw there devastated him, they were broken. She had been the one thing he loved the most and he had managed to break her.

"I wish I'd never met you Damon" She told him before storming out of his office and slamming the door shut.

Damon couldn't hold it back anymore and collapsed on the couch as tears streamed down his face. He ruined it, Elena was right, he was a hypocrite, and he had managed to destroy the one thing he had right in life.

He had lost her, he lost Elena and he didn't know what he was going to do without her. The girls needed her, he needed her. She had arrived into their lives to change them, to fill them with color and now that he knew what it was like to have her in his life he knew he couldn't go back to that gray place where he was living before her.

He had made the biggest mistake of his life. But this wasn't the end, he would fight for her until his last breath, Elena was it for him, there was no other woman. She had to forgive him, he would give her time, he would give her whatever she asked him of but he would never let her go.

Never.

While driving towards her best friend's apartment Elena had called the blonde girl and told her she needed girl time and that she should have a bottle of tequila prepared. Caroline must have heard the urgency and heart break in her friend's voice through the phone because when Elena crossed the threshold the blonde girl already had the bottle opened next to a bag of chips and a worried look on her face.

"Elena, what happened?" She asked the minute she took notice of the brunette's appearance. Her mascara had run off and had left spots on some parts of her cheeks, plus her eyes and nose were both red from all the crying.

"He lied to me Caroline" Elena spat out between sobs "He's been lying this entire time" She threw herself into her friend's arms who let her cry freely for what felt like hours.

Between sobs Elena told Caroline everything that had happened since the moment she arrived at the house, she told her about Damon's wife being in a coma and about Stefan and him keeping everything from her.

Elena had never felt so much heart break in her life, there was always a part of her that chose only relationships that were safe, that dated people she didn't really love because she knew they could never hurt her, but somewhere along the way Damon had snuck up on her and had managed to get under her skin. And now look at where she was, in pain just for loving him so much.

She wondered what would have happened if she had never heard that conversation? Would he had kept it a secret his entire life? What hurt her the most was the fact that she had to hear it by accident, that he didn't trust her enough to tell her the truth. And there was also that insidious part of her mind that kept repeating that Damon had loved that woman more than he would ever love her, that he took care of her even after everything she did to him, she felt sick to even be having those thoughts, but she couldn't help it.

"Oh Elena I don't even know what to say" Caroline said softly while her friend took another swing at the tequila bottle. They were both sitting on the floor in front of the coffee table, their backs pressed against the couch behind them "I mean I've been teaching Briar for two years now and I didn't even imagine-"

"He's good at keeping secrets" Elena murmured, the tears had stopped and now her forehead was throbbing and her throat felt raspy, she had no idea if it was because of the tears or because of the tequila.

"Is it really over then?" Caroline asked in a whisper "You're not giving him a second chance?"

"Should I?" Elena scowled "I can't trust him anymore, Caroline, not after this. It's a huge thing! How could he hide something like that from me?"

"I know" The blonde girl said "But you know, it's not like she is alive, alive" Elena shook her head lightly. Caroline had always been a romantic and she couldn't help but excuse Damon's behavior "I mean I'm not saying that what he did was right but you should at least try to talk to him"

"No, no I won't"

"Once you're more calmed down you'll see things more clearly, Elena, what about the girls? Are you just going to disappear from their lives as well?"

"I don't- I don't know" Elena looked down and reached for the bag of fries. She had thought about it, what would this mean for the girls? A part of her knew there was no point in telling them their mother was alive, especially since she was getting worse as Damon had told her, but another part of her also felt that it was wrong to hide it from them. And there was also the fact that if she wanted to never see Damon again in her life that would also mean not to see the girls.

"You can't hide from your problems forever Elena"

"I'm not hiding from them Caroline" Elena denied, feeling a bit annoyed, she felt like Caroline had chosen Damon's side.

"Look I'm not against you on this okay" Her friend said as if she could read her mind "I'm just saying you should give him a chance to explain, I'm not even saying you have to forgive him, just hear him out"

As in on cue her phone started ringing, Damon and Stefan both had been calling her nonstop for the last couple of hours and she had rejected every single one of their calls. She took the phone and saw Stefan's name on the screen.

"Not even him?" Caroline asked softly

"He was supposed to be my friend Caroline and he lied to me as well" She pressed the red button and placed her phone on the floor again "He even discussed Katherine with him and left out that little bit of information out. I can't trust either of them now"

"Elena-"

"The fucking Salvatore brothers are a pair of liars" She spat out and took another swing at the bottle "Now Caroline, I know you are trying to be a good friend but right now I just need you to get drunk with me and tell me what an ass Damon is" Elena said and her voice broke down

"Okay, I can do that" The blonde girl said and took the bottle from her friend's hand "Damon Salvatore should spend the rest of his life rotting in hell because he is a fucking liar with no regards for other people's feelings" Caroline said in her best angry voice before taking a swing out of the bottle

Elena laughed in spite of herself and rested her head on Caroline's shoulder "And he's not even that hot" The blonde continued and now they both laughed because they knew how false that statement was.

"I don't know what I would do without you Caroline"

"Oh you would be totally lost darling"

They spent the rest of the night eating junk food, drinking, watching sad movies and using every curse in the world paired with Damon and Stefan's names.

"You know drinking yourself under the table won't do you any good?" Stefan asked as he entered his brother's room. Damon was slumped on a leather couch next to the window and he had a bottle of bourbon in his hands.

"Piss off Stefan" He answered before taking a sip of his bottle

"Where is all that resolution to get Elena back?" Stefan asked as he sat on Damon's massive bed.

"Out of the window, with my common sense, my honesty and where you'll be if you don't leave me the fuck alone" He muttered miserably before closing his eyes and taking the bottle towards his lips again

"Well she isn't answering my calls either so I can imagine she hates both of us" Stefan said and let himself fall down completely on Damon's bed. "I warned you… you should have told her everything, this was meant to bite you-"

"Stefan I really really don't want to hear I told you so right now" Damon grunted and directed his eyes towards his brother "I know how badly I fucked up but there's nothing I can do about it now"

"You could not get yourself drunk"

"Can you at least give me twenty-four hours to feel sorry for myself?" He answered

"I could, but the girls have been asking about you"

Damon closed his eyes once again and cursed under his breath. His girls were everything to him, he loved them more than anything in the world and he had always put their needs above his, always. But today he hadn't thought about them at all, hadn't thought about them missing him or missing her, his mind had been filled with dark angry thoughts towards himself, of longing, of a desperate need to have Elena in his arms once again.

It was the first time in a long time that Damon Salvatore had no fucking clue of what to do.

"What did you tell them?"

"I said you were sick and put them into bed"

"Thank you"

"They're my nieces, it's the least I could do" Stefan answered as he got up from the bed and moved towards the window "But you need to pull your shit together Damon"

"I know"

"For real, you don't need none of that lashing out or self-destructing shit you used to pull before" Stefan placed his hand on Damon's shoulder and gripped it tightly "And you make Elena forgive you"

Damon let out a sarcastic laugh before taking another sip of his bourbon bottle "And how am I supposed to do that?"

"Just be your charming self and tell her how much you love her" Stefan said "Oh and do that eye thing you do, I know for a fact it drives her crazy"

Damon half smiled at his brother's comment. It was the closest he had been at smiling ever since she walked out of his office. "Is not that easy"

"Well good things in life aren't always easy"

Damon lifted his head and stared at his brother who smiled slightly at him "You can fix this Damon, I know you can" He squeezed his brother's shoulder and moved back to the bed "If there's someone who can win back a girl it's you"

"Yeah, I'm not sure about that"

Whatever clever remark Stefan was about to do died on his lips as Bonnie walked into the room with sorrow all over her face.

"Bon, what is it?" Damon asked as he got up slowly from the couch, the bottle of bourbon still in his hand "Is Elena okay?"

"Yeah, I mean I wouldn't know but-it's not about her" Bonnie looked down as she moved her weight from one foot to the other

"Bonnie you better tell us what's going on because we're totally imagining the worst" Stefan said while getting up from the bed.

"They have been trying to reach you all night Damon but you wouldn't answer…." Bonnie took a deep breath and focused her dark eyes on her best friend/boss "Katherine died this afternoon"

Both men stared at her without muttering a word. Stefan moved closer to Damon and took the bottle from his hands, he brought the bottle to his lips and drank thoroughly "Fucking shit" He said once he was done.

"They want to know what you'll do with the body Damon" Bonnie said and to Damon her voice was a faraway thing.

Katherine was dead, she was dead. The woman had hurt him so much over the years but her death had brought him no satisfaction, she was after all the mother of his children. She was dead and he truly didn't know how to feel about it.

"I'll go call them" He whispered as he walked past his brother and his best friend, heading towards his office.

Bonnie and Stefan watched him leave with worried expressions on their faces. They didn't know what was going on in Damon's head, once again Stefan wished Elena was still here because she would definitely know what to do.

He had to convince her to give his brother another shot.