Haha so here I am freaking a stressing, page refreshing wreck, waiting for supposed update from AG for Wide Awake that I am too anxious to sit down and write you guys an update. But than as I panic waiting for other fic updates that some of you are the same way about mine! Damn, sorry to keep you guys waiting I know this sucks. But if you ever need something to read in the meantime, I totally have a million rec's I could give out lol, and my number grows daily!

This is Bella's POV on being changed from last chapter. Don't worry we'll be moving on rather swiftly after that…at least that's my plan. Unless AG updates. haha

haha omg you guys i'm so sorry apparently i updated the wrong chapter! ha here's what i really meant to give you. sorry for any anxiety i may have cause!

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BPOV

We finally got home, and I hurriedly kicked off my pants, annoyed at how they seemed to make me feel suffocated. I didn't even realize until I was walking to the kitchen the affect this may have on Edward. Blushing slightly, I continued on to embarrassed now to turn back around and cover myself back up.

Edward had seen much more of me, I kept trying to remind myself.

I quickly began pulling things from the fridge as my stomach angrily reminded me of it's hunger. Two slices of bread were laid out in front of me as I grabbed the mayonnaise jar from the fridge, trying to bend as little as possible as I felt Edward's eyes assess my every movement. I gripped the lid tightly, but it refused to budge an inch. My hands began to feel sweaty as I tried to ignore the feel of Edward's stare on my back side, but this only made the lid seem more stubborn as I sighed audibly.

Before I could realize that I had just drawn attention to myself Edward was behind me, his body pressed close to mine as her gingerly plucked the jar from my hands. Of course it only took him a second to remove the lid, and I would've rolled my eyes, if my body hadn't decided to suddenly tense up on me as a shiver ran down my spine.

I tried to think of anything else, willed myself to believe that Charlie could still walk in at any moment, but all thoughts were banished when I felt Edward's gentle touch on my arms. Goosebumps raised up and my mouth went dry as my body suddenly flushed with heat.

My head fell back against Edwards chest, his head leaning into mine as he slowly began to drag his lips across my skin. His hands moved slowly down my sides to my hips, and I became slightly aware that I had grabbed my pieces of bread, turning them into a mass of crumbs. His fingers slowly pushed my panties down, rubbing slightly against my hip bones, causing my hands to clench even tighter around what now appeared to be deformed rolls.

My hands opened than, dropping the substance on the counter as I turned my head, staring into Edward's lust fill eyes that I was sure matched my own. Before I knew what my body was doing, I could feel Edwards smooth neck on my hand as I yanked him forward, demanding his lips take my own. He happily obliged as our tongues danced together, only adding fuel to my fire.

His fingers left my waist band than, and I felt disappointment rising in the pit of my stomach, afraid he might pull away, when suddenly his smooth hands were gently moving up my stomach. I gasped, moving my hand up slightly into his hair, willing him to come even closer to me, praying that he wouldn't stop.

Soon I felt his fingertips brush the underside of my breast, and I moaned into his mouth. Did he just moan back into mine? God that was sexy. His hands slowly began to trace up my breasts, gently pinching my nipple, and I felt a sharp intake of breath that suppressed another moan that was building inside of me. He repeated the action again, causing my back to arch as my ass pushed into him. God he was so hard. He groaned at the feel of me, making my desire for him even stronger.

I needed him to touch me. Now. Pulling away from our kiss, I moved my own hands on top of Edwards. Somehow feeling his hands on my breasts was even more arousing than I had imagined, and I couldn't help but squeeze my fingers around his, making him squeeze my breasts in return. I would have to remember that one for later. Slowly I pulled his hands from my chest as I inched them back down my stomach, making sure his finger tips still trailed across my skin, causing goose bumps to rise again.

I pushed both of our hands slowly below the waist band of my panties, as I slowly pushed them off of myself, reveling in the feel of the warm and cold of our bodies together. Edward released his hands from my grip then, letting out a low sexy growl as his finger traced along me. I shuddered in response, as I tried to control myself from spinning around and taking him on the table behind him. No I was going to let him do this.

I willed myself to breath as I reached back between the two of us, unbuttoning his pants. They slid easily to the floor, I smiled, wishing I could see the reaction on Edward's face. Instead he grabbed my hands in his own, repeating my own actions as I pushed his boxers to the floor. It felt just as good having him control my hands as it did to control his. My pulse quickened in anticipation.

"Edward, please," I heard myself beg. He gently lifted me up, impaling me slowly back down onto him. I moaned marveling at how deep he felt inside of me from this angle. My arm instinctively went back to his neck as my fingers ran through his silky hair as I willed him to continue. He slowly begin to thrust into me, and my head spun at the new friction he was creating against our bodies.

His hand began to roam my body than. He grabbed a handful of my breasts, pinching my nipple forcefully between his finger tips as his other hand gripped my waist tightly. His thrusts became more forceful, my eyes rolling back into my head as moans began to escape my lips.

"Edward," I cried, "you're so deep in me like this." I spoke without realizing what I was saying, my filter must have been lost in my desire. He growled in my ear, only causing more wetness as I felt Edwards grip tighten on my waist and his hand began to roughly assault my breast. It felt like heaven. Rough heaven.

He buried his head in my neck, and the feel of his cool skin made my muscles involuntarily contract around him. Edward began kissing my neck again, licking it slightly, and I wished at that moment he would just suck my neck, give it a playful bite. I knew he wouldn't, no couldn't, and the thought frustrated me. Now we could finally be so close, but something was still hindering us from being as close as we absolutely wanted.

His hand left my waist now, and I wondered momentarily if there would be a bruise there tomorrow. Edward would be pissed at himself if their was. My thoughts were interrupted, however, when I felt his fingers brush against my clit, causing my body to tense.

He pulled slightly out of me and I whimpered at the absence of him so deep in me. I groaned at him, but he was playing with me now, teasing me, and I straightened my feet out than as our bodies slammed back together. Holy fuck. Suddenly Edwards face was in my neck this time, but this time he was gently sucking my neck causing an entire jolt to pass through my body, "Oh God," I nearly screamed at the feel of it. At that point I couldn't care if he was sucking the life out of me, all I knew was that I didn't want anything in the world to stop this feeling now.

His fingers were still rubbing my clit, as his lips sucked on my neck, and I knew at that moment I wanted all of him. I wanted him as deep as he could be, thrusting into me as hard as he could. I wanted to feel his venom inside of me. I needed to be unbreakable, so we could be together the way we both desired.

"Edward, oh Edward…I need you…please…bite me now. I need to feel your teeth on my skin." I begged, praying that he would, knowing that if he did he would most likely send me over the edge. Yep, filter was definitely gone, and I momentarily panic as his lips froze on my neck, afraid he would pull away and end all of this pleasure he was inflicting on my body.

"Edward," I begged, as I stood up on tiptoe, and than flattened my foot again slamming myself back onto him repeatedly. I turned my head towards him, seeing the conflict and desire in my eyes as he stared back at me. Without realizing what I was doing, my teeth were sinking into Edward's strong skin, as I moaned into his neck as his taste filled my mouth. "Please," I begged again as I continued to thrust myself onto Edward. Suddenly Edward grabbed my head, facing it back forward as he leaned my neck over slightly.

His teeth sunk into my skin sending a shock wave of pleasure straight to my clit, and the feeling was only heightened by Edward's own pressure to my clit. Suddenly my body was convulsing as I felt my muscles contracting around Edward. I felt as if my body were thrashing everywhere, and my pulse quickened. I felt my body temperature rise as Edward continued thrusting and rubbing my clit, prolonging my orgasm.

"Edward…Edward…Edward," I moaned continuously, wanting this amazing feeling to never end.

"Bella, does it hurt," Edward asked, briefly interrupting my high.

"Oh Edward," I nearly squealed, "It hurts so good." It sounded so cliché, so porno, but at that moment it did. I could feel his cool venom racing through my veins, but it only momentarily quenched the fire in my body, and only seemed to add fuel to my need. My fingers wrapped once again in Edward's hair as my never ending orgasm continued on. I could feel the friction of every thrust, Edwards finger still on my clit. My senses tingled, as everything seemed to become heightened.

It felt like days that Edward was inside of me, fucking me, making love to me. But slowly everything came into focus. I could hear my heartbeat thudding in my chest, but I could also hear the sound of our bodies slapping together. Edwards grip seemed to grow tighter around me, but instead of pain all I felt was safety.

"Harder, Edward," I demanded, as the friction seemed to grow lighter, and he grunted before pounding into me even harder. I moaned, and began thrusting back myself, noting that only a short while before this kind of intensity would've probably killed me.

My fingers instinctively dug deeper into Edwards scalp as I heard him softly mutter, "ow." The sense of my new strength, only drove my frenzy more as I began to thrust my body back onto Edward even harder, and I knew he had to be close already.

"Edward, please," I groaned, "I need to feel you come in me." And he did as soon as the words left my lips, his fingers flicked my clit one last time and I felt myself tighten even harder around Edward, and I wondered if I would possibly hurt him. But he began moaning my name as he chanted, "Bella," holding onto my hips for support. We both climaxed together for what felt like hours. Finally, panting, we slowly came down, Edward resting his forehead against my shoulder.

"Now that wasn't so bad, was it?" I asked, finally relaxing my hold on Edward, although I knew it wouldn't be for long. In this new body I finally understood just how much desire vampires felt, and I knew it would only be a matter of moments before I would need Edward again.

"You're going to be the death of me," he stated, almost as if he could read my mind.

I spun around than, forcefully kissing him, as he grabbed my own head full force kissing me back.

"But what a way to go," I whispered, before slowly tracing my fingers up his inner thigh. His eyes narrowed, as he growled shoving me up against the counter with so much force, I felt pieces of it fall away as he quickly began thrusting into my still wet center, my head falling back at this new sensation. This was going to be a fun night.

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Nope, sure not gonna give you the details of their after sex…maybe next chapter. Maybe not. Lol. I'm planning now that they are equals the next couple of chapters are going to just be smut: shameless, sexy smut. If that bothers you, well…just give me a couple chapters to get it out of my system!

Love you all!