Chapter sixteen:give love a chance.

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As they landed in New York, Emily asked Spencer why they were there. Spencer just told her she would see. At first Emily thought Spencer was taking her to the cemetery to get closure, to end whatever she was having with her Paige, but she was wrong. They entered the limousine straight to the building Emily thought she has been several times. She just kept quite and followed Spencer. They entered the lift to the last floor and when they got to the floor, the secretary there getting up from her seat as she sees Spencer walks straight into the bosses office without so much as a glance at her.

"Hey you can do that! You can't just barge in without an appointment!". Spencer didn't even bother listening to her. She barged in and the boss had a client lying on one of the couches there.
"What the hell Spence! You can't just come in like that. I have a patient for God'sake".
"Yeah I know, but you said it was ending at 2:00pm and is 2:05pm. So technically your patient is the one in another patient's time". Her sister just glared at her and hissed.
"Please don't mind my sister. Just continue the drugs I've prescribed for you. I'll see you next week". The patient left and Melissa Hastings asks her secretary to just go. Emily was shocked. This is Hanna's shrink, why the hell was Spencer bringing her here?
"What the hell Spencer. Why am I in Dr Hastings office?".
"So you know each other?" Spencer asked smiling.
"Yeah, she was Hanna's doc. Please, why am I here?". Emily felt uncomfortable. What was Spencer trying to do.
"Wow what a small world. Well, Emily meet my sister Melissa Hastings and sis meet Paige's wifey I was telling you about". Both Melissa and Emily just stared at each other, this world is indeed a small place.
"Emily am so sorry about your ex Spence has told me everything". Emily just nodded and sat down. She still doesn't know what Spencer is getting at.
"So if you will excuse me, I will be gone for four hours. I haven't been to New York in ages. I'm gonna go shopping, I will be back for you Emily. Sis you remember what we talked about? I need this please and if you do me this favor I will surely take the twins for the summer holidays. You will be free to do as you want with Wren..". Spencer winked trying to bribe her sister. They used to go to Spencer's for long holiday, but over the years Spencer has been too busy to invite them. She has been canceling on them.

Whatever Spence, whatever". Melissa just didn't believe Spencer.
"I promise sis, just please do your magic". Melissa smiles and Spencer raised both her hands in excitement as she knows that Melissa just accepted wholeheartedly, not just because she had to.
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After Spencer left, Melissa told Emily to feel at home and anything she tells her was going to be confidential even Paige would never know. Melissa asked her to lie down and speak her mind.
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For the next four hours, Emily talked, cried, kept mute, broke a glass and had a screaming contest with Melissa. Melissa made sure she pushed her to the highest limit then when the barrier was broken she let Emily rest. Melissa thought to herself, this is one of my hardest patients. She made sure Emily told her everything and then she told Emily her mind and what to do to move past her struggles. Emily already knew what she wanted to do, Melissa just showed her the importance of accepting reality and moving forward.
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At the end of the four or five hours Spencer came back, she knew just by looking at Emily, Paige was finally going to be really happy. Spencer hugged her sister and even apologized to the secretary for her earlier behavior. Emily took Melissa's number incase she was ever in trouble, deep down she knew she wasn't going to need it though.
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After leaving they went to the cemetery and spent another two hours there. Emily told Spencer to just go and leave her, but Spencer said she would wait. Spencer wished she knew Emily's Paige. She gave Emily space after saying a few serious then funny remarks, Emily laughed as well. Spencer got a bench far away and sat down to read a book. Emily cried a lot, she felt like she was saying goodbye this time. She reminisced and laughed about some funny things they shared and she told Paige she was always going to cherish the moments they had shared, but she was finally letting her go. After she was done as she was walking towards Spencer, Spencer quickly stood up to hold Emily incase she would start crying again, but just as Emily nears her, she raised her head and Spencer saw her smiling. She stood just looking at Emily walking towards her. Emily came and stood in front of Spencer.

"We cool? Everything is fine?". Spencer asked her. Emily smiles and answer.

"Everything is gonna be just fine spence".

"Okay let's go em". The walked out the cemetery without another word, both thinking about their trip to Germany.

when they reached the hotel suit, Spencer said she was bored and asked Emily to give her Hanna's number so they could go stir up some trouble. Emily got her bag and took a really good look at it. She was shocked, Eva packed Emily one of her oldest bags and she didn't notice until now. She opened it to get her phone and saw two phones sitting in the bag. She got them both out and was confused until she realized one of them was her old phone that had broken when she fell in the hospital after Nicolas told her about Paige's death. Emily got the number from her new phone and sent it to Spencer then out of curiosity she tried to turn on the old phone and it turned on. She could hardly see the screen, but she notice it was blinking a red light. There was a message or something, so she went to in box and saw she had voice message and some texts she had never opened. They were among the thirty plus notifications she overlooked to call wayne in a hurry the day her paige died. Now the phone is dying because the battery is too low so she plugged the Android in with her Blackberry charger and started reading the messages. Most were Shana and Hanna asking where she was and then there was a voice message, she pressed it and her Paige's voice came up.

"Hey Hon". Emily eyes began to water."Im sorry couldn't pick you up I had tons of work and just when I was getting started this old couple called for me. When I went out Emily would you believe it? They are like 60 years old or something. They both lost their spouses and their kids sent they to a nursing home. They met there and fell in love. Emily they chose each others' rings!. They are getting married!. Can you believe the guy is rich, but the kids just didn't want the burden of looking after him. Now he told me he is taking back his money and traveling around the world with his new bride, that he feels stronger and more motivated to live..". Emily had tears running down her face as she smiles. She could picture her Paige's face telling the story.
"I told them to send us an invitation and they promised to be at ours when the time comes. Emily, I want to grow old with you, and should I die... I know we will have good kids, but if we don't please if someone comes along be happy. Give love a chance, I will rest knowing you're traveling around the world with someone who will love you as much as I. I swear I will never want you to be alone in some nursing home, never! I just wanted to tell you this... I will pickup some takeout from the Chinese place you like so much and I will be home in like an hour. I love you my baby. Did I just say baby? Well mother will just have to get use to it. I like the sound of it, 'My baby'...See you later". Emily laughed while crying, she could hear paige laughing while saying it. Emily rewound it several times hearing it while she smiles or cried. She felt all kinds of emotions with both free and contentment at the very top.
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Later on, Emily showered and waited for Hanna as she had gone out with Spencer. Hanna took Spencer to some of her favorite places in New York, by the time they came back Spencer was so drunk Hanna had to hold her. Emily and Hanna put her to bed then went back to Emily's room for the night.
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Just as they sat down Emily again started crying from no where."Why are you crying now Emmy?". Hanna asked surprised. Emily took some tissues drying her eyes.

"It seems to be the only thing I can do lately". She answered ruefully.
"Don't be silly Em, I have known you forever and I can ever remember you crying when it came to your late mum or late Paige, or your Wife. So which is it now?". Hanna rolled her eyes. She wants emily to just give it to her straight.
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Emily told Hanna everything that had happened between her and her wife and the plan at hand. Hanna kept quite for some time and then spoke.

"For the love of heaven why would you say such a thing to your wife after being in the most intimate way with her?". Hanna hissed and continued.
"Emily I think you're a fool! You love your wife, you told me yourself in not so many words. After all you shared, you simply mocked her when she showed you love?. How can someone be so lucky and fortunate twice in a lifetime then behave in such an unfortunate manner?".

Hanna wasn't smiling and Emily knows serious Hanna is no fun in any conversation at all. She wanted her best friend's help so she simply sat down quite in order not to push her luck. Hanna understood what Emily was doing. They've known each other for too long, so she asked her more questions so they could move forward with a plan. She knew Emily was frightened.

"And now I suppose you're expecting her to simply come crawling back to you, Emily?" Emily shook her head and stared at the floor. "No. I just know when she sees me she will act as if I don't exist Han. I know my wife, she will not make it easy". Emily sighed, of course she knows her wife.
"What else would you expect her to do?". Hanna asked. "She cared enough to want to marry you Em. You didn't have to go through tons of other betrothings. She loved you so much she couldn't hide her jealousy at the auction, so much that she gave her ex a blow hoping to make you happy, so much that she didn't travel for work for months just to be near you, so much that she hasn't been with anyone despite her reputation Emily. Paige has just been waiting patiently for your sweet ass. But believe me Em, Paige will not come crawling back to you just like that, you have really hurt her!". Hanna didn't want to raise her voice, but just thinking about all Emily said she felt angry. Once again her Emmy was being childish.

A kaleidoscope of disbelief, misery, loneliness, and despair. In a pained, choked voice, Emily said "I'm going to get her back Han, I must". She inhales. "please, how will I get her back without crawling to her?".

A smile of joyous relief flashed across Hanna's features. Hanna answers, "Actually, I'm afraid that's the only way. You trampled her pride every time you had the opportunity Em. Your pride is also going to have to suffer too".

"I-I have been thinking about how to go about it" Emily quietly whispered.

"You do that," Hanna applauded, cautiously laying down her trump card "And while you're thinking about it, consider how you're going to feel when you start seeing or hearing she has moved on with one of those bimbos..".

Emily stood to her feet, she didn't want to ever imagine it, not to even talk of seeing it "shit!, What can I do? I can't even think of where to begin. Thanks Han for just messing up my brain for Gods sake".

Hanna hid her smile, it wasn't a laughing matter "When you go to her just simply explain why you behaved in such a freakish and annoying way, she will understand I promise you."

"No," Emily said, frantically shaking her head. "It isn't as simple as that', you don't know how unbending she becomes when she is angry. I'll send her a letter and ask her to please come here to talk?".

"You could, but she won't do it. That will only make it more embarrassing when you have to go to her anyways. Provided, of course that in the meantime she doesn't moveee onnn with someee bimbo...I keep stressing it Em, what has gotten into you? Why are you loosing your confidence now?". Emily sat down tensed in silence when suddenly a shattering terrible sound that was ripped from her chest "Oh, God, I hurt her Han" Emily groaned agonizingly. "I hurt her so damned much!" She covered her face with her hands, her voice a hoarse, ravaged whisper. "I hurt her and she . . . she put her arms around me because . . . she didn't want me to, but I still did". Hanna came and sat near Emily, soothing her to keep quite again..when it didn't work, she shook Emily with both hands when Emily stopped to look at her, she spoke.

"I have met your wife remember? That lady will not be swayed by a poor spirited, terrified young woman with who she's still furious with". Emily weakly and quietly asks. "Will you please go with me then Han?".

"No Em. I have alway been there for you and I will forever be. We have fought different battles together, but now, you have to fight this one on your own. 'This is it' Em". Hanna says nodding her head. She wanted Emily to do this, beat this because she knows Emily can do whatever she wanted if she stood her ground. Hanna continued "I'm sure Paige loved you for your courage and spirit. If you go to her all meekness and timid, you will look stupid and different from the girl she had fallen in love with. You will have to be yourself Emmy. Argue with her, make her more angry if you must. Smile, flirt, fight for yourself, fight for her Emmy, but please don't go looking scared and supplicating". Emily reasons then nods her head.

That night as Hanna slept beside her. Emily laid awake thinking of the words she secretly wanted to write to Paige.

"Please come back to me. Just let me hold you and I swear I will make you forget. I'll fill your days with laughter and your nights with love. I'll give you a son, and a daughter with your scarcely beautiful smile..."

Next, well u just have to read to find out...cheers!